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hey guys! i've been a lurker around the forums for quite some time, and have just never joined out of laziness, haha. today, though, i decided i would join so i can get the advice and opinions of some of you guys. i'll start by introducing myself.
my name is jay, i'm eighteen, and i live in england. i recently came out to my mum and my closest friends, however, nobody else knows that i'm gay. my parents are divorced, and my dad is one of those 'oh my god gay ew' types - especially since i'm an only child and a boy, he'd be mortified and would likely disown me. oh well though, he's a prick anyway. haha.
so yeah, basically... i downloaded the grindr app for the iphone out of curiosity, which, now i'm thinking was a bad move, mainly because it's full of guys that are only looking for one thing, and i'm not. what i was wanting out of it was to maybe find some gay teens close to me that i could establish friendships with, and hopefully.. i don't know, make the process easier for myself? i've not had any trouble actually admitting, but the only other gay guy that i'm really close to is my best friend, and while that's awesome, i dunno, i guess i want to branch out a little and explore. so on the app there was this guy, around the same age as me, who we'll call callum. he was absolutely gorgeous, so i struck up a conversation with him. it was going well, you know, just the casual chit-chat sort of stuff. we chatted for and swapped our face pics. he told me that he was still in the closet and that nobody knew about him, which i sort of sympathised with. any way, we said goodbye and left it at that.
now, a couple days later i was out for a meal with a couple of my best friends, and we went to this local italian restaurant. callum was working as a waiter there - i didn't know this so it was pretty much a shock, and quite awkward? in a strange sort of way. i don't know. but basically, after we'd recognised each other and me and my friends ate and left, i found out that he'd blocked me on grindr. how did i find this out? because i bought the grindr xtra app (bad move, it was just as lame as the free version) and his profile was right there. i was pretty confused; i mean, everything had ben going well enough, and i hadn't done anything wrong or weird, you know? well, not yet anyway.
the reason i say that is because move a couple months down the line and i'd added him on facebook after someone sent me one of those suggestion thingies. he'd accepted, no problem so far. however, i was on facebook on my iphone and you know how there is the little phone icon next to people's names who have posted their number on their profile? i clicked it by accident. the phone rang once, he answered, and i had been trying and trying to cancel the call. eventually, i did. honestly? i've never been so embarrassed in my entire life. like, it totally looked like i was stalking him or something. haha. anyways, he texted me asking who i was, so i replied with my name and i apologised profusely, explaining what had happened and saying it wouldn't happen again. he didn't reply.
so (this was probably a real bad move, thinking about it) i sent him a message on facebook a couple days later apologising again and saying that it was a huge mistake, and that he obviously was creeped out but i wouldn't bother him again. I KNOW IT MAKES ME SEEM LIKE A STALKER. but i panicked. needless to say, he didn't reply to that message either.
so i'm asking for your advice / opinions on this. sorry for the huge post and everything, but yeah. when i start talking about something i can't help it haha. i know i probably came across really creepy to him but i wanna know if there's maybe something i can do to make it up to him or anything? i dunno. i'm just confused.
thanks guys!
jay
ps. go easy on me, this is my first post! <3
my name is jay, i'm eighteen, and i live in england. i recently came out to my mum and my closest friends, however, nobody else knows that i'm gay. my parents are divorced, and my dad is one of those 'oh my god gay ew' types - especially since i'm an only child and a boy, he'd be mortified and would likely disown me. oh well though, he's a prick anyway. haha.
so yeah, basically... i downloaded the grindr app for the iphone out of curiosity, which, now i'm thinking was a bad move, mainly because it's full of guys that are only looking for one thing, and i'm not. what i was wanting out of it was to maybe find some gay teens close to me that i could establish friendships with, and hopefully.. i don't know, make the process easier for myself? i've not had any trouble actually admitting, but the only other gay guy that i'm really close to is my best friend, and while that's awesome, i dunno, i guess i want to branch out a little and explore. so on the app there was this guy, around the same age as me, who we'll call callum. he was absolutely gorgeous, so i struck up a conversation with him. it was going well, you know, just the casual chit-chat sort of stuff. we chatted for and swapped our face pics. he told me that he was still in the closet and that nobody knew about him, which i sort of sympathised with. any way, we said goodbye and left it at that.
now, a couple days later i was out for a meal with a couple of my best friends, and we went to this local italian restaurant. callum was working as a waiter there - i didn't know this so it was pretty much a shock, and quite awkward? in a strange sort of way. i don't know. but basically, after we'd recognised each other and me and my friends ate and left, i found out that he'd blocked me on grindr. how did i find this out? because i bought the grindr xtra app (bad move, it was just as lame as the free version) and his profile was right there. i was pretty confused; i mean, everything had ben going well enough, and i hadn't done anything wrong or weird, you know? well, not yet anyway.
the reason i say that is because move a couple months down the line and i'd added him on facebook after someone sent me one of those suggestion thingies. he'd accepted, no problem so far. however, i was on facebook on my iphone and you know how there is the little phone icon next to people's names who have posted their number on their profile? i clicked it by accident. the phone rang once, he answered, and i had been trying and trying to cancel the call. eventually, i did. honestly? i've never been so embarrassed in my entire life. like, it totally looked like i was stalking him or something. haha. anyways, he texted me asking who i was, so i replied with my name and i apologised profusely, explaining what had happened and saying it wouldn't happen again. he didn't reply.
so (this was probably a real bad move, thinking about it) i sent him a message on facebook a couple days later apologising again and saying that it was a huge mistake, and that he obviously was creeped out but i wouldn't bother him again. I KNOW IT MAKES ME SEEM LIKE A STALKER. but i panicked. needless to say, he didn't reply to that message either.
so i'm asking for your advice / opinions on this. sorry for the huge post and everything, but yeah. when i start talking about something i can't help it haha. i know i probably came across really creepy to him but i wanna know if there's maybe something i can do to make it up to him or anything? i dunno. i'm just confused.
thanks guys!
jay
ps. go easy on me, this is my first post! <3
