Part 19
After Steve and the other lifeguards close the pool on Friday, I wrap up my work and drive straight to his place. I bring a change of clothes since we planned to stay at his place for the weekend.
Once I drive up and park at his apartment complex, I walk up to the door. He opens it before I can even knock. “Come on in.” I step inside and greet the poster of Michael Phelps by the door. He speaks up again, “I was thinking of cooking some chicken alfredo pasta. Up for that?”
I set my bag down by the couch. “That sounds delicious! But first, a kiss.”
He leans in and kisses me, then offers me a beer, and I gladly accept. We make conversation as he cooks dinner, and we eat as soon as it’s ready. We end up playing more video games to pass the time, then nestle up to one another in bed. We’re both pretty exhausted from work, but that doesn’t stop us from caressing and fondling each other a bit before going to sleep.
We wake up the next morning, shower, and get dressed. He makes breakfast, and after we’re done eating, we head outside since it’s such a beautiful day. He takes me to a nearby park and we walk around and sit on a bench to talk.
I turn to him. “So, I hate to get so introspective and everything, but I want to just make sure you’re all right with everything that’s happening between us.”
He takes a deep breath. “Sometimes, I don’t know what to think. I mean, I could never have imagined myself in this kind of situation. I mean, I love being with you, and love the moments we share together, but everything I’ve experienced and every person I’ve known up to this point has shown me that I belong with a woman, that I’m meant to have a family, that I’m meant to make something of myself, you know?”
I nod. “I get that. I felt that kind of pressure too, when I was younger. I guess I was just lucky enough to know myself at a young age, to know that I could never deliver on what society expected of me. I mean, sure, if I wanted kids, I can always adopt, but being gay, I can create any kind of life I want. Society’s expectations don’t really have a strong effect on me, I guess.”
He shakes his head. “I just wish things were that easy for me. I feel pressure from my parents, from my friends, from everyone, to marry a girl and have kids. Fuck, that’s likely why I stayed with Melissa as long as I did. I figure I ended up finding a girl, not a perfect one, but one nonetheless, and that I may as well settle down and have some kids. I mean, for crying out loud, I’m twenty-four years old. Ryan even has a wife and kids. I’m obviously doing something wrong if I don’t have that in my life.”
I gently shake his shoulder. “Steve, listen to me. Stop comparing yourself to other people, especially Ryan. I don’t give a fuck if he’s married and has ten kids, you are a much better person than he is. You’re accepting of others, you’re not ignorant of your feelings, and you’re not crazy and bigoted like him.”
He smiles. “Thanks. I guess those sorts of things aren’t as appreciated among the kinds of friends I’ve had in the past.”
“They fucking need to be. That’s the future this country is heading towards. And you’re on the right side of it.”
He tilts his head in understanding. “I’m glad you think that.” He thinks for a second. “You know, I have to thank you for something.”
“What’s that?”
“I don’t know how, but somehow you’ve helped me to open up about what it is I truly feel. I mean, what I truly feel. Like how I feel about you. Everything I’ve learned up to this point, every person I’ve met has pushed me in one direction, but, and I have to be honest with you, I’ve thought a lot since meeting you for the first time again after all these years… I feel shitty as hell for not standing up for you in the past, and I don’t know if that’s why I’ve taken such a liking to you now, but, I just can’t help it, I like being around you. You’re so authentically, unapologetically you. That’s incredibly attractive.” I feel myself blushing. He continues, “I’m sorry, was that too much?”
I shake my head. “No, not at all. I’m enamored with how honest you’re being. It’s a breath of fresh air being around someone who’s so open and in touch with his feelings.”
He takes a deep breath. “At least I like to think I’m being in touch with my feelings. Sometimes I’m not even sure what I feel.”
I rub his arm. “And that’s OK. I’d be lying if I said I was sure what I’m feeling now. I kinda have no fucking clue—” We share a mutual glance of understanding, and I go on, “—But, something inside tells me that this is right, whatever I’m experiencing at this point in my life is right, and to pursue it like nothing I’ve ever pursued before.”
“Damn, you certainly have a way of putting things into words.”
I shrug. “Sometimes, at least.”
We go back to his place for lunch, spend the next few hours playing some video games, then head back to the bar on River Street. We return to his place and start retiring for the night. We go to his bedroom and he turns off all the lights save for the bedside lamp. We strip down to our underwear and sit on top of the bedsheets, caressing and kissing each other. We fondle each other through our underwear and both pitch equally-impressive tents. I can’t stand the feeling of restriction any longer and push my boxers down to the floor, and he soon follows suit.
At this point I’m so enamored with him that I want to give him the greatest amount of pleasure possible. With the both of us naked, I help guide him onto his back and I straddle him. I grab the bottle of lube I packed for the weekend, pump some onto my hand, and start slathering it on his cock. He holds his hand up. “I don’t need lube, remember?”
“You do if you’re going to penetrate me.”
He looks at me in bewilderment. “Penetrate you?”
I nod. “That’s right. You were worried about popping a lung fucking someone in the ass?”
He laughs out loud. “Yeah.”
“Well, you don’t have to worry about me. As long as things are slippery enough, I can take anything.”
He looks at me with a look of concern on his face. “Are you sure?”
I bend down and kiss him. “I’ve never been more sure of anything else in my life. I want to make you feel good.” I straighten up my back again. “You want to know what an ass feels like?”
His breathing becomes more exasperated. “As long as you’re willing to show me, fuck, I’m willing to find out.”
After coating his dick with lube, I rub a healthy amount on and in my ass to make his eventual penetration easier to handle. Hell, if he’s seven inches hard, I’m going to need all the help I can get.
Still straddling him, I spread the cheeks of my ass and bear down on his hard dick. I grasp his dick with one hand and guide it toward my hole. Eventually we match up and I slowly push him all the way inside. His moans of pleasure indicate to me that I’m doing everything right. I slowly lift myself up and ride his dick for a few moments, trying to deliver back to him as much pleasure as I can. We remain like that for a while, with me straddling him and riding his dick, until he places his hands on my chest and gently maneuvers me onto my back.
During our rearrangement, he slips out of my ass, but as soon as he’s into position on top of me, he takes his dick in his hand and guides the head against my hole and pushes inside once more. He takes a few seconds to push himself all the way in, apparently being unable to do that with any of the sex partners he’s had in the past, and continues undulating his body, rhythmically pushing and pulling his dick in and out of my ass. I tighten my muscles periodically to try and deliver as much pleasure to him as I can. He’s obviously enjoying it as he rests his body on mine and our lips meet. He passionately kisses me as he rams his manhood deep into my hungry ass. His thrusts quicken in pace as his orgasm nears, and soon enough, he slams his body against mine as his dick delivers spurt after spurt of cum right into my ass. The sensation is so intense that it causes my own orgasm to start, my own dick unaided by any kind of stimulation from either me or him. I explode onto my torso as I feel his cock throbbing inside me after having delivered its load. We spend the next several moments in orgasmic bliss as his body collapses onto mine. His head rests against my shoulder, and we spend the next several moments like that, him laying on me, as we enjoy the sensation of absolute closeness. I mean, you can’t get much closer than how we are.
After a while, he gently pulls out of me and hops up onto his feet, goes to the bathroom to get a towel, and returns to clean up the mess I made on my torso. He wipes off his dick and tosses the towel onto the floor. He throws himself onto the bed and collapses right next to me. I tiredly place a hand onto his chest and tweak his nipples as he caresses my back and ass. I shift myself forward and onto my pillow, wrapping him in my arms, and we both fall asleep.