wow, there are a lot of sad stories here and i'm afraid i will live those one day myself.
i am currently head over HEELS for my best friend. i've known him for almost 7 years and have fallen for him for 6 years. the thing is there is no sign of my feelings fading for him, they are as strong as they ever were, he is the only person i've felt this way about. and as for being straight, i'm saying yes, but w/ and if and a but. he's never had a gf, but there are no signs of him being gay, although some of my friends thought he was.
so he's never had a gf, never made out w/ a girl, never had sex w/ a girl, never had a blow job or gone down on a girl, he doesn't have is eye on anyeone at the moment, he's never been touched! and that's what gets me the most! he's pure! there are a lot of weird things though, he doesn't talk about girls or sex, it makes him uncomfortable. there have been girls that wanted him but he's not interested and turns them away. only like once has he pursued a girl, they were only friends, but he lost contact w/ her, he liked her but got over her and won't talk about it anymore, pretty much forgot about it.
we've never done anything sexual, the closest we've gotten is i hugged him, he hugged me, and i've held him for a while. that's it! i love this guy so much but i'm afraid to tell him how i feel and i don't want to change what we have now, i'm happy w/ what we have. he's cool with homosexuality, but i don't know what he'll think of me liking him.
one day i will tell him, but for now i'll keep fantasizing, i love seeing him, being with him, hearing his voice, i have to talk to him atleast 4 times a week or else i get lonesome for him. i'm attracted to his personality more than his looks (but looks too). i would feel so horrible if i lost him to a girl, i wish i could freeze time.
