Confess something that might surprise others or damage your reputation on JUB - 2012

[refujiunderground]

I can't wait to hear your thoughts on these types of things (if you're still here and if I'm still here) after you've started having sex with other guys.

you never know until you try it

I thought sucking a dick would be this transcendent experience... tbh, in reality I find it super boring.

You have never had sex. So you don't know what you are missing. So, how do you know all this?

I thought sucking a guy's cock was gross. Then in the heat of passion with another guy I found myself sucking his cock before I realized what I was doing. Now, I love sucking cock.

i dunno. did you guys have a strong interest in having sex before you started having sex? maybe it's because there's nobody i'm really interested or have a crush on right now. i dunno what it is but it's like i don't have any interest at the moment to do it at all. is that normal?

 

[refujiunderground]

Is that your booty in the picture?

Every time I see it, I think nasty thoughts. That picture is pure porn material.

i was thinking so too. i would like to bite that ass.

 

[xbuzzerx]

i was thinking so too. i would like to bite that ass.

You don't just want to massage it? A HAH. Caught you.

 

[xbuzzerx]

I can definitely raise my hand and say I most certainly didn't start eyeing guys in the 8th grade and thinking "wow I'd love to top that guy." Most of the hallmark styles of gay sex by themselves as acts weren't appealing to me in theoretical, and weren't what I fantasized about. Of course after you start fooling around with a guy your comfort boundaries broaden pretty fast.

 

[xbuzzerx]

I love when Johann talks like a Maggie Smith character in the middle of a Judd Apatow movie.

Do we get to call him Professor McGonagall then?

 

[refujiunderground]

Very much so.



I wouldn't say it's abnormal.

There are some people who just don't view the experience of sex with excitement. There's no "longing" or feeling(s) of "missing out" there. Nothing wrong with it. I hope I didn't make it seem as if there's a problem with you feeling as you do. I just think it'll be interesting to see what your take on it all will be after your first experiences.

And yes, I've definitely heard of people not even wanting sex until they meet someone they take a strong liking to. You're not that weird.

Also--I get the vibe that you really want to have sex, but you're afraid of it.

i am afraid of it. it's that the whole thing just makes me uncomfortable. strange though.

 

[chance1]

I would feed some of the the CE+P members to the zombies in the Walking Dead if I could

 

[xbuzzerx]

Confession: Despite knowing for sure that I've perused past people asking the same question... I don't know how to embed images so that they actually appear full size within the post rather than as thumbnails you have to click.

Anyone teach me?

Benderboy! Teach me!

 

[refujiunderground]

i'd confess something in this thread but you know what, i don't feel comfortable sharing it because i'm afraid someone is going to react to it. if i knew that nobody was going to say anything, i'd spill my guts out.

but i'll confess that i do hold my tounge quite a bit because there's some things i would love to say whether it's a random topic or towards some folks but i learned my lesson already. i'm becoming a better person and saying it would mean that i'm regressing so i'll leave it alone.

 

[refujiunderground]

Just posting this once more for everyone right now.

naw, that's the sad part about this thread. it has nothing to do with crushes i have on here. it's something personal basically some denoms of mine that i should keep to myself. it's not about suicide or killing anybody either. more in the line of something that i've thought about doing but obviously, it's going to cause a fuss.

awww.. what the hell? i... i wonder how many of you are going to think that i'm trolling or need some help or am losing my mind but i've thought about a couple of times doing coke, x, smoking crack, doing heroin and stuff like that. i've actually thought about doing heroin because dan rather done it and managed to get off it as well as other figures. it's like if they done it and managed to be okay, why can't i try it out too. here comes the shit storm. i've never done any drugs though except for weed. *sigh* smh.

 

[refujiunderground]

I'm not in the habit of telling people what to do--but I'd suggest NOT doing crack.

i wouldn't do it. i've seen and been around enough crackheads and drug addicts to know that nothing good will come out of that. not even try it out once. hell, i'm even scared to drink alcohol although i drink it from time to time because i have a compulsive personality where i can easily become a habit. plus i've been around alcoholics and how they're stuck and can't get off of that shit. i've actually thought about using drugs and *sigh* selling them. i think would be a dealer before an addict though. never sold drugs in my life though and damn sure don't plan on doing it.

i know that the police around here actually think i'm up to no good. on friday, i was blowing out the leaves to the front yard when it was getting dark outside and the police circled around my block 8 times before the street lights came on. one time the car stopped up the block across from me just watching me. ironically, i actually applied in may to be a part of the same police department that is doing that to me. wonder how they would treat me if i had a badge.

 

[refujiunderground]

^I have a suspicion that crack will have no effect on you, RJ.

I remember we reported similar experiences with Marijuana--both of us admitted that it makes us hallucinate.

If you want to think that we have some similarities in our brain chemistry, I can tell you that I have 1) Snorted cocaine 2)shot it up 3)snorted crank, and let me tell you---none of those things did diddly-squat to me. I felt like I had a mild coffee buzz, and no more.

Even the time I shot the stuff up, I went right to sleep. People go to jail for this?

if that's the case, then i'll most definitely leave it alone. the way folks describe the stuff is like some mind blowing things. the only reason why i wanted to try it out was to experiment with it and to basically escape life as cliche as it sounds. reality sucks and sometimes, it's hard to handle. hell, the concept that we are all born and will eventually die scares the shit out of me. so scary that there's times where i ask if this is real. like do i only get to be born once, turn 1 once, turn 10 once, turn 14 once and etc. we can't go back in time to rewrite mistakes. the people around me will eventually die and i will too. it's the fact that life is forever changing and death is permanent where you get a certain amount of time to live. the fact that you don't know when you're going to die and it could be at any given minute by any means. it's terrifying. then when you realize all that time you've been busy living for the moment such as drinking and being on the computer, you could have used that time to do something meaningful, productive and something to benefit you and somebody elses existence such helping out the kids or helping out at the soup kitchen. there's times when i'm happy but i get anxious knowing that i'm moving on borrowed time and everyone else is too. hell, just thinking that some day, that i'm going to die just makes me want to get high.

just looking up at the sky and knowing that there's a solar system outthere where there's moons and sheit. things are deep. i know i went off there but i'm afraid, man. that's a part of the reason why i act the way i do. i pretty much live off and in fear.

 

[refujiunderground]

Yep. that exactly what I do with this toxic forum: confession thread- a dumping place for my twittering

I rather be like that than to make a chain reaction conversation like some folks do here, no offends...but it just not my thing. I dont gain/craving social fulfilment from internet.
We all love attention but I sucking mine in different place

but it's hard!..Sometimes people threw interesting thing that makes me wanna join..I wont limit myself though...

here's a sample of my regular confession post:

yeah, this thread is a curse. it should be locked and deleted. i hope someone comes in here and confesses to a murder or something like that so this thread gets locked. this thread is demonic.

Does your eyes tend to get weary in front of computer, tired? Blurry? Dont buy eye drop too fast! Use a left over bag of tea...gently dip to your tired eyes..1-2-3 dips, you feel the difference intantly!

Why? Because it has a bit of caffeine and caffeine clear the redness while relaxing your eye veins..

* How about hand cramps? Use ice bag...on top of it. Let it relax for few minutes before you start typing again...

wow. going to tell my mom and my brother this since they always have eye problems.

 

[refujiunderground]

okay, there's a certain regular poster in here that i seriously think is crazy as in legitmately crazy and now from the look of things, i think he's lying about certain things that he's said too. there was something that they did recently that made me go, okay this guy is truly weird. there's one particular thing that i'm SURE he's lying about. it certainly doesn't add up and i think it's way too good to be true.

there's also another poster that i think has some issues with themselves that they need sorted out. it's nothing personal against them but just observing their behavior, the things they say, how they act towards certain other people and etc, they have issues. one minute, they're saying this and then the next minute, they're basically tripping over themselves. i look @ them like "you okay, man?" you start to wonder if it's not them that turned out to be the common denominator in their little issue or whatever because they certainly aren't the person that they try to paint themselves as.

on that note, i also think there are several regular posters that are actually aliases walking around under disguise because certain things don't add up about them.

 

[refujiunderground]

i also want to say that there's another poster who i used to be able to point out something that nobody else i know of has pointed out. it used to make me wonder how come it used to happen to just them. then it started to make me wonder if this person was doing something that they weren't supposed to be doing. maybe that would explain why.

 

[pat grimshaw]

okay, there's a certain regular poster in here that i seriously think is crazy ....
there's also another poster that i think ...
i also think there are several regular posters that are actually aliases....

Please send me a PM if I'm one of them.

 

[refujiunderground]

I can confirm that my avatar is literally me and I lie about almost nothing in my posts

(though I'll confess that I do occasionally change inconsequential details to give myself some plausible deniability in case someone I know irl stumbled on my profile)

it's not you. i would drop a clue but then it would be all too obvious. it's nobody above the age of 30 and certainly not beyond the age of 24. so that leaves anybody born between 1989 to 1994. minus a number and the more likely, the chances of who i'm talking about is more than likely correct. i seriously believe those two are unstable. it takes an unstable person to know an unstable person.

i don't blame you for changing details though. you never know who lurks this site. it's scary actually. i do believe that there's people that i've ran into offline that lurk and posts here from time to time. so far, nobody has said shit which means everything is good for now.

 

[refujiunderground]

Paranoia central again.

you're in the clear. it most definitely is not you. you thought i was talking about you for a second but naw, you're good. although i have to admit, you kind of scare me dude. for some reason, you remind me of ted bundy. i actually want to hear what you sound like for a second.

 

[xbuzzerx]

It defeats the purpose of "something that might damage your reputation" if you don't name names.

It's like me saying "I have something to confess... I think someone here is a huge a-hole!" It's no risk if I don't name a name.

 

[refujiunderground]

It defeats the purpose of "something that might damage your reputation" if you don't name names.

It's like me saying "I have something to confess... I think someone here is a huge a-hole!" It's no risk if I don't name a name.

it's that when i say a name. i know what's going to happen. it would be one thing if i could say their names without any drama coming out of it but then it would be shitstirring. i have no problem with those dudes that i'm talking about. it's that they strike me as being off in some shape or form like they have something going wrong up stairs. i don't know who the aliases are but i'm sure they're around here. all the internet forums have them.

but those two guys, i wouldn't be surprised if the first person is indeed someone that is duping us for fun because he loves the attention. i also wouldn't be surprised if the second person pretty much harassed the hell out of the person he doesn't like or held grudges despite the fact that whoever they're beefing with pretty much appeared to have moved on. it's really not that serious where you have to still take shots @ them even after the fact.