Chapter Forty - Vince
“What a day!” I said to Paul as we drove back to my apartment.
“The Flash is a real trip!”
“He's cute though, in his own way.”
“Cute?” Paul queried. “He's … he's ...”
“Come on, he's cute. That curly black hair? And his eyes … I can't even guess what color they are.”
“When he can focus them,” Paul said indifferently.
“Sometimes they're blue, sometimes they look green or gray. And he has a nice dick. Admit it, Paul. The Flash cute as fuck!”
“When did you see his dick?” Paul's eyes were bigger than I had ever seen them.
“In the kitchen. He flashed me.” I chuckled at the memory.
“He …! What did you do?”
“I flashed him back. I think he liked that.”
“I know a man named Freud who would love to talk to you.” Paul made a disgusted noise.
“I was surprised. It wasn't sexy at all. It was like he just wanted to show me a part of himself that he felt was important. Nothing hidden, you know? Kind of like animals. They don't wear clothes. They have no secrets. It's all right out there.”
“Right out there, huh? What's a 'nice' dick anyway?”
“You have a nice dick,” I told him, hoping to ease his annoyance. “Nice size, nice girth, you know … it's nice!”
“What about his?”
“His penis, he always sounds so formal talking about it, his PENIS has an … I don't know … an 'I'm ready' look to it. Not ready-for-me, exactly, but ready … willing … you just know he'd be sweet in bed if he liked you. Generous. No hold backs.”
“And you know all this from one quick peek?” Could Paul be little jealous?
“The human brain recognizes genitalia in a lot of detail instantly,” I told him.
“Where did you learn that? Looking at hundreds of dicks?” He was absolutely huffy.
The rest of the trip it seemed like he sulked. We stopped at the drug store before closing so I could check my schedule and then went home. “I work all mornings next week,” I told him and he just grunted. Moody again. And it had been such a great day, never mind the rain, I thought.
We got in bed and I reached to turn out the light. Paul liked sex, if we were going to have any, in complete darkness. I felt his hand on my waist.
“Leave it on,” he said and looked at me as I lay back on the pillow. He looked hard at me and then he kissed me. “What?” I asked when he pulled away. He didn't answer, just kissed me again. His hands went to my face, to my neck, stroking gently as he kissed me again.
“Do you like that?” he asked as he looked at me.
“Very much,” I told him. I pulled him to me but he resisted.
“Your eyes are green. Very handsome,” he said and then kissed me again. “In case you think I don't notice these things.”
I let him blow me and, yes, he was getting better at it. No gagging or coughing. Pretty nice action; in fact, he was turning me on. “Don't come,” he told me, “We're not done yet.” He continued sucking slowly up and down, playing with my balls the way I like, and pressing on that great little area between your balls and your asshole.
“I'm close, Paul,” I told him. He didn't stop. “Really close,” I said urgently. He stopped and moved to my asshole. He'd never done that before – rimmed me, I mean. It was a nice interlude between almost coming in his mouth and the feel of his cock pressing on me. He entered me with confidence, slowly, so it didn't hurt, but fully. I always liked the feel of his cock in me, he just didn't fuck me often enough, probably because he liked me to take the lead in what we did and he'd get all embarrassed if I said “Fuck me.” I didn't need to give him any direction tonight. He was doing just fine on his own. At one point I grimaced – a twinge of pain. He almost pulled out.
“No, I like it when you fuck me,” I told him. “It's ok if you hurt me a little.”
“I don't want to hurt you,” he said before kissing me.
“It's ok. I like it when you hurt me a little.” Whoa! Did I just say that? I guess I did. I guess I do.
He resumed slowly. I reached for his face and pulled him down to kiss me. He was as eager as I was. A thought came to me. I wet my thumbs and rubbed his nipples, gently pushing around the quickly-forming nubs. Boing! He fucked me frantically and came fast.
“My God!” He was still spurting. “What did you do?” He kept pumping furiously, and only gradually slowed down. And then he stopped abruptly and pulled out. I winced from the emptiness.
“Baby,” he kissed me. “I'm sorry. I had to pull out; I couldn't take any more. My dick was so ...” More kisses were followed by a return of sanity. He asked, “What did you do? Nipples? Really? It was awesome. It was like electricity.” He straddled my pelvis and leaned down to kiss me some more.
There's such a good feeling after sex, at least I feel it; it comes when I know I've done a good job. And I knew I sent Paul places he'd never been before. It was as good as coming myself. I felt total comfort with his dead weight on top of me. For a while anyway. Eventually … you know … I tried to push him to the side.
“No you don't!” he said, pinning my arms. “We're not done yet. You haven't come yet.”
“That's ok. I don't need to come every time.” and then “Oooo!” when I felt his slickened hand lubing my cock. I don't know where his choreographic skills came from, but effortlessly he moved onto my cock. I felt it slide into his asshole. “You don't like it after you've come,” I reminded him.
“I want you in me,” was my answer. No discussion. He began moving slowly up and down. Soon I was joining him, thrusting against his downward push, trying not to pop out when he lifted up again. I did pop out when I rolled him over. I heard his little ouch and then his aah as I slide back in. I like fucking a guy and I like missionary best because I can kiss him. Tonight, Paul wanted my kisses. He clutched at my body and pulled me against him. He firm hands grabbed my ass and pulled on every thrust. Suddenly he sobbed and said, “I'm coming! … Again!” as if he couldn't believe what was happening. One more stroke and I joined him in spastic hunching, almost eating his face with kisses.
What was there to say after that? We lay against each other. Occasional kisses said what we felt. He'd kiss me and then lie back. I knew he wanted to talk, but he stayed quiet. Then I'd kiss him and again he'd say nothing. Only sighs and touches kept us connected. At last I kissed him firmly and commanded, “Say it.”
“I want to live with you.” He took a deep breath and waited for me to react.
“Pretty much you do live with me, when you're here.”
“No, I mean, yes, I do, but I want to live with you officially, like someone asks and I say 'We live together.' Like we're in a relationship. Can we do that?”
“Who are you going to tell?”
“Everybody. Ok?”
“Ok. Tell 'em,” I said. He wanted to say more, but he didn't. I was tired but I could still tell he was lying there thinking. I could feel the tenseness in his body. It didn't keep me from falling asleep. When I woke the next morning he sat on a chair looking at me, waiting for me to wake up. “Morning,” I said with eyes-just-open hoarseness.
“I love you,” he said. “I thought about it and I'm ninety-nine percent sure I love you.”
“You're straight,” I challenged.
“I see a pretty girl and my dick gets hard. But I don't want to live with her. I want to live with you.”
“You sure? How do you know?”
“It's not supposed to work like this. You're supposed to say 'I love you too', not grill me on my motives.” I just stared at him. “Alright, al-fuckin'-right. You're beautiful. The sex is great. You're nice to me. You're smart. You're sexy. I can't give up sex with you. You're nice to Girl Scouts and small animals. And I love the sex. And I've never felt like this before. And someday, when your hair grows back ...”
“Shut up. Come here.” I held out my arms and he jumped into them. “I love you, too.” He struggled out of my grasp and fiddled with his phone. He's really good at one-handed typing. “What are you doing?” He showed me the text.
“GUNNA B L8”
An hour later we walked out to the parking lot. My landlady lived on the first floor and saw up coming down the stairs. “You two look chipper today.”
Paul leaned his head in my direction and said, “I love him.”
Her face registered a cascade of emotion changing rapidly from disbelief to shock to delight and a big grin. “It's a wonderful feeling,” she proposed.
“The best,” Paul answered.
“Come to dinner? We'll celebrate. About six-thirty?”
“Love to,” I told her.
“That makes it official, I guess,” Paul said and practiced stating his new status. “This is my boyfriend ... who I live with ... who I love. Sounds nice, doesn't it?”
“Sounds gushy, Paul, especially coming from a straight guy.”
“Fuck you, Vince.”
“I hope so; in fact, I'm counting on it.”