Chapter Fifty-Three - Frank
I can't imagine living a much quieter life. Things are nearly ideal now. I live on a pretty little farm. I already make enough money to be comfortable and I am as much in love with Refo as when I first met him; but sometimes it's plain hard to get a good night's sleep sometimes and I'm a much better carpenter on a good night's sleep.
So is it fair to say the place can be a zoo? Refo has this need for company; and his need is much greater than mine. Dinner now and then with Charlie and Jody, visits from Mike and whoever he's keeping around - that would come close to crowded for me. Refo, however, needs constant companionship and some of the companions are only marginally human.
Otis … ok, Otis was fun and I miss him, but what was his future ever going to be. He was barely holding it together and that was only because he lived in an artificial world that Refo and Mike rigged up for him and everybody else went along with it. Sweet boy, sexy boy if Vince and Vicki are right; but when you come down to it Merle has more brains. Now I know that's cruel to say, but it's was true. What if Vicki had borne that child? You would need a fairy tale author to imagine a happy ending to that caper. Charlie agrees with me; but Refo still gets weepy every time he thinks of it. Which is partly why I love him - he has a kind heart and thrives on chaos.
Take Sarah Felsen, for instance. Chaos on wheels. She has thrown away more life choices than most people ever see and she's only thirty-f ... thirty-something. She's awesomely bright. She had a promising research career, but she tossed it away. She could be a practicing physician; but she hates it - claims sick people are unattractive. She could be a business consultant – she's always giving Mike pecks of good advice. Boring, she says. She has had a good number of lovers in the four or five years I've known her, ideal men you might think. She doesn't. She has dumped more good-looking men than most girls ever see. Ok, some of them were gay and wouldn't have worked out; but still apparently they performed to her satisfaction for a while. That guy Lucien? He was hot … and rich – or at least he made a bunch of money. He lasted a couple of months. Except she now has taken up with a college kid, who's nice enough I guess, but she hates herself for it. Living with her is like living on flood plain. You never know what a good rain might bring to the door.
Her future is not limitless, however; and one possibility is a worry. I guess I'm the only one who knows except for Will and she has sworn me to secrecy. While Vicki got off clean, Sarah is pregnant. Again. The last time was so much trouble for her she moved in with us and never left. She was months getting over the trauma of the abortion and now she's getting desperate again. She's worried that another abortion could cause her more trouble, like never having another baby and she can't see any way to have the baby either. Troubles come in flocks I tell you.
“Sarah, you just said Will offered to marry you. What's the problem? Do it!”
“Are you kidding me? He's twenty something. And he looks younger sometimes. I took him to that rib place in Harrisonburg and they thought I was his mother! He then said to the waitress, 'I guess that makes me a motherfucker!' Marry him??”
“I don't know. He seems pretty responsible to me. Except for the motherfucker part.”
“And his … appetites. Twice a night isn't always enough!”
“But I thought you liked ...” Her withering glare made me rethink that comment. “Yes, I can see pregnancy might slow you down some.”
“Frank, I can't talk to Refo. I already know what he'd say. 'Have the baby, Sarah.' That's what he said the last time. That's what he'll say again. I'm talking to you because you're the only adult in the house.”
“Maybe you need to talk to Will?”
“He's no help. He wants to marry me.” She looked out the window in disgust.
“When?”
“Right now, if I say yes.”
“No, I mean when did he ask?”
“This is so weird. He asked the night we … Right when we were done he said to me, 'Sadie Linda,' that's what he calls me sometimes ... when the sex is good, actually he calls me that a lot, he said, 'Sadie Linda, I think we just made a baby. Will you marry me if we did?' And I brushed him off, but he said it again when I told him.”
“So marry him.” It sounded reasonable to me; she didn't agree.
“What could I possibly tell people in Brooklyn? Or even in Washington? I show up pregnant with a boy-husband who's barely legal. And they're all 'S up with that Sadie?' What could I say? What will they think?”
“Sarah, are you ever going to move back to Brooklyn?” She shook her head no. “Then why do you care what they think?” She looked up and I repeated it. “Let 'em think what they're gonna think. Why do you care?”
And then the next day, Will, who was obviously shook up over his circumstances and I gotta say looked about thirteen years old standing in my doorway, said to me “Thanks, Frank. I'm glad she talked to you. She hasn't said yes yet, but I think it's going to happen. Would you … will you be my best man? If she says yes, that is?”
“Sure thing, Will. I'd be glad to.” Impulsively he hugged me and I could tell one of the reasons Sarah Felsen liked him; he's a hot little bundle. “IF she says yes, Will.”
“What do you think would make her say yes?”
“To be honest, I think Refo could do it. If he went about it the right way.”
“What are the chances of that, you think?” Will looked skeptical.
I convinced Will that if we put it to Refo delicately, you know, that he should phrase it carefully, be careful of Sarah's feelings, maybe offer some kind of parable, some oblique approach, if we did all that, maybe even rehearsed his lines, that it could work.
“They have an odd love-hate relationship, but she'll listen to him.” I was convincing myself as well as Will.
“I know. One of her biggest problems was 'Refo will so laugh when he hears. I know he will. He will never let me forget it. There will be this look of triumph in his eyes every time we're alone.”
“Will, we have to try,” I told him and we went looking for Refo, gave him a glass of wine, and danced around the topic.
“What are you two getting at?” he asked with a grin on his face. I love that grin.
“We'd … I'd like you to talk to Sarah about ...” Will began.
“I already did,” Refo said. “She came blowing into the kitchen a couple mornings ago and went right for a glass of water to take some pills.” Refo paused; he can be a real ham sometimes.
“And …??” Will prodded.
“And I said, 'You're pregnant.' She said nothing, just glared at me. And I said, 'Marry him.' And she still glared and drank the rest of the water. And I said, 'It'll be the smartest thing you've ever done. Marry him.' And she took a deep breath and said, 'Ok.' So go ask her again and she'll say yes. Now, what did you two want me to do?”
“Pretty much just that, Reef,” I said to him. When Will was gone, I kissed Refo and he responded the way he always does. Sensibly he suggested we go to the bedroom and when the sex was over I asked him, “Why'd you want to go to the bedroom? I thought you'd be happy with the kitchen floor.” I was joking; while we had used the kitchen a couple of times, it had happened lately.
“We still have three house guests, Frank. Good hosts to not fuck in front of their guests.”
“Three … you know I do miss Otis.”
“Well … you know … speaking of the empty bed … what if I ask Antonio Iaconi to stay for the opening of the art show.” He saw that I needed more. “Tyler has broadened his offering to include some paintings of Vince. Did you know? And Antonio was another model of his … at William and Mary … and Brent and Charles added three paintings of him … so I've kind of invited him to stay here for the opening. If we get Vince to go, we'll have two of the three models present in the flesh. Not Otis, of course. And he's the star of the show.” Refo paused to dab at his eyes. “But we'll have two … and Brent said it would be helpful to the critics to be able to compare the paintings to the actual models. So I've invited him.”
“Antonio, huh? Wasn't the guy at school who raped Tyler called Tony?”
“Yes, it's the same guy. Tyler says it won't be a problem.”
“No problem, huh? You know he'll have to sleep with Tyler.”
“Won't be the first time,” Refo said. “If Tyler says no problem and Tony's willing, who are we to ...”
“I think I want to check with Charlie and see what our legal responsibilities as hosts are. You know, in case of another run-in?”
“You know I like a lot of people around. Especially with Otis gone. It'll be ok. Tyler said no problem.”
“Refo, Tyler lies.”