Hi guys - just checking back in. I posted a few times before about my situation. Basically, to catch you up, I moved back home after finishing up my MA degree and have been encountering my dad jerking a lot. He does nothing to hide it or even cover himself up when I catch him. When I lived at home in high school and college, my parents caught me a few times, but that was normal... I was young, I guess. Now they actively encourage me to "bring dates home." They're being very supportive of my being gay. They didn't exactly react great when I told them in college, so I think they're trying to make up for that. But still didn't explain why my dad was so bold in jerking in front of me and cumming.
With some support and advice from guys in this forum, I worked up the courage to talk to him about it. I asked him why he was so open. He said he just wanted to bond with me and make me feel comfortable at home, especially since he knew that, being my age, I'd want to have sex. So he wanted to make the house feel "safe." I pressed him on why, though, he would jerk off so openly. He admitted he was curious about guys, and thought it would be fun to jerk off with another guy... me, I guess.
So we've talked a lot about sex. Things I've done. Things I'd like to do. And we've had a pretty regular thing going with mutual JO. That's been nice. To hold his cock like that, to have him stroke me. We haven't gone beyond that, except that I came in his hand once and he joked about eating it and tasted it a bit. It was funny, actually. A big stream of it got stuck on his tongue and latched onto his chin. He said it was sweet. I poked at his pool of cum on his chest and had a small taste.
For the time being, I have a fun jerk off buddy. And that's awesome. I won't lie - would be great to do more, but I don't know if he's into that. I think he just wants to be the "cool" dad and bond with his gay son, given how he freaked out when I first told them I was gay. My mom knows what is going on, my dad told me. She just teases us about having "man dates" and "boy time." I think she only knows about the jerking. And she's happy we're finally bonding. Don't know if she knows about the cum tasting.
It's such a strange and exciting thing to be happening. I want more, but I don't want to push it. Would be great to put my lips on his cock. Just don't know if that's crossing a line.
I really appreciate all the support I've gotten from guys on this forum. Please keep it coming. PM me. We can exchange e-mails and other info. It would be great to talk this out with someone, maybe someone who's had real dad-son experiences.
In porn, it's hot. But just the idea of it actually happening. I don't know if I'd say I'm doing anything like "dad-son" sex, but whatever this is, it's nice. I feel very close to my dad now. I feel like I don't have to be ashamed of my sexuality. I really like that I can talk to him about my guy crushes and relationships. And it's nice to have a jerk off buddy. More would be fun, but I'm not pushing it, though he seems to be sending signals... I just wonder what my mom would say, or if he'd want her to know... or if it would be wise for us to have a secret we kept from her.
Your advice is very much welcome.
This has been and continues to be such a journey. To feel so accepted by my parents... it's amazing. And a little scary.
