Chapter Fifty  -  Evan
“The trouble with sexual awakenings is once you're awake and your initial curiosity is satisfied, you need more.” I off my jacket and looked around the table.
“Not getting' enough, huh?” Richard smirked. “Evan, sweetie, that is a life-long condition for most people. You better get used to it.”
“Pay him no mind, Evan. Beer?”  Mac offered me the pitcher and an empty glass and watched while I poured a full glass with just the right amount of head on top. “And just why are you in such a down mood, Richard?”
“I wish my heart could leave my memories alone,” Richard answered with the ring of both honesty and archness.
“Why … that's almost poetic. Did you come up with that?” Buddy asked.
“Of course not,” Richard muttered. “Like everything profound, it's a song lyric. But this is Evan's first visit. You know what happens on first visits.”
“You're supposed to tell us about your first sexual experience,” Brandon proposed. “It's fairly humiliating; but we're basically all friends.”
“Vertical Sandra!” Euie chuckled, giving Brandon a pat on the shoulder.
Soooo … I told them about my two visits to the horse farm trying to make it as sexless as possible. I failed. Mac was especially sympathic.
“You poor baby. My God, it's practically HUMAN TRAFFICING! If he weren't such a good customer, I'd ...”
“You'd what?” demanded Richard. “Offer him YOUR ass instead? We're all adults here. Sex happens. You have to be ready for it. Make the most of it.” Which was about the smartest thing I ever heard Richard say, then or ever. 
“Exactly. I knew what was up. Why would some rich fifty year-old dude invite ME to look at his horses at ten PM at night. I knew what was probably going to happen. And, come on, it was only a blow job.”
“The first time,” Euie noted without judging me.
“Right. And I went back on my own. Nobody forced me. I'm not the victim here. I wanted it, more or less.”
“Me, too. I wanted Buddy the minute I met him. It just took me longer to figure it out.” Brandon blushed saying this; it's real easy to like Brandon.
“So the REAL point of my stable story is: the foreman Phil? I think he wants to take over where his boss left off.” It was more than just a thought; I was pretty sure Phil was interested. “He invited me to come and look at the pictures.”
“Whoa!!! That puts a different kink in the cable. You gonna do it?”
“I don't know, Euie. Would you?”
“I've done much dumber things,” Euie answered.
“Me, too,” Mac said.
“This Phil person, is he hot?” Richard asked.
“Nice body … a little older … seems decent enough ...” That was what I said; was that what I really thought? I wasn't sure.
“By older, you mean fifty, like his bossman?”
“I mean thirty, maybe, like Brandon.” I quickly turned to Brandon. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean you're OLD old.”
“I'm older than thirty,” Brandon smiled back.
At that point Rayner joined the table. With no introduction, he said to Richard, “I thought you were fuckin' around with Jiminy Crickets tonight.”
“Jimmy Christmas,” Richard replied. “We finished early.”
I waited for Rayner to say something nasty about premature ejaculation, but he didn't. He signaled Charleen, “Double vodka tonic, please,” he called out. “Where's Hollis? I want to go back to school and I was hoping he could drive cause ...” Charleen brought the drink and Rayner drained it. “ … cause I'm not quite sober. “Another, Charleen, please.”
“Hollis and George are with a client,” Richard said, which earned him a glare from Rayner.
“Hey, Evan, didn't expect to see you here!” Phil said cheerfully, coming up to the table. I offered him a chair and invited him to sit with us. “Can't, thanks. You want to see those photos, let me know, hey?” he waved and went to the door.
“Uh-huh! Yes, he's hot,” said Mac.
“Smokin' !” Euie grinned.
“I'd say, the way he checked you out, he sure likes you,” Buddy added. Brandon nodded in agreement.
“Probably tougher than he looks; but I'd say what's left of your virtue is safe with him,” Rayner said. “Unless, of course, you like being ravaged. I know I do,” he glared at Richard again.
“Uh … Rayner, I'll drive you back to school if you want, 'cept I got my car. What do we do with yours?”
“Shove it up his needy asshole? Just a suggestion.” 
“What is going on with you two?” Buddy demanded looking from Richard to Rayner and back. “You're making it uncomfortable for everybody.”
“Sure let's go,”  Rayner said and tossed his car keys on the table. “Somebody take care of this for me?”
I put my jacket on. Rayner hard never taken his off. I held him steady as he rose to his feet. “You want to fuck me?” he asked as we turned to go.
“He's joking,” I said to a dude at the next table who overheard the invitation. “Rayner, jeez! This is a straight place!” I whispered. He didn't answer until we were on the road to Harrisonburg.
“So, you want to fuck me? Hollis said you were real eager.”
“You don't know what you're saying,” I answered.
“Or, I could fuck you. That's a possibility. I haven't had THAT much to drink. I can still get it up. I think ...” He attempted to unzip and show me but zippers can be troublesome after a bunch of drinks. He fumbled and fiddled with his clothes, succeeding in getting just one shirt button undone. “Well, SHEE-UT ...” With that he fell asleep. 
Normally I would take 64 and 81 and we would be back at school in about an hour and a half; but with a snoring drunk in the car I decided to take the local roads and go slowly. It was almost three hours until we got to school. “Rayner, wake up. We're here.”
“Mmm. Hmm? Wha?  Wow, you're hot!”
“Rayner, I'm Evan. We're back at school. Come on. Let's go into the dorm.”
“I know you're Evan. You're still hot.” He shook his head and then decided that was a mistake. “Ouch … aspirin … that's what I need. You weren't always hot, though. Just lately. What changed?” He gave me a little squeeze as we lurched toward the building. “Nice body. Did you fuck me? I can't tell.”
“What? No!” 
I thought I could dump him in his room but he wanted a coffee. I didn't want any caffeine but something fizzy would do. So we went to the student union and took our chances at getting what we wanted from the vending machines. The machines actually worked and delivered what we wanted.  In Rayner's case it was the coffee and a a couple of pills. “Should I get the hangover preventive or the hangover cure?”  He got both.  After the pills went down he decided I could share my giant chocolate-chip cookie with him. He ate most of it. At this point, he seemed slightly buzzed but otherwise ok.
“So … that helped.” He ate the last of my cookie and grinned. “Uh … You want to fuck me? Last chance offer.” He studied my face. “I'm serious, Evan. Here's your chance.”
“Rayner, you're still half-buzzed. You don't know what you're doing.”
“I know exactly what I'm doing, but ok. See you another time.” 
I watched him walk almost steadily out of the union. Glancing around, I noticed a guy giving me a look. I gave him a polite smile, thinking maybe some other time. I felt slightly virtuous getting into bed. Alone. Thoughts of Phil came to mind. What would sex be like with him? Would I ever know? I started to drift away into sleep when I heard a tentative knock on the door.
“You look nice almost naked,” Rayner said. “I don't want to sleep alone. Can I stay with you?”
  
I don't know why even I hesitated. Yes, I let him in. Yes, I fucked him. Twice, in fact; the second time was in the morning. It seemed pretty hot to me, but I didn't have much experience, just one time to compare it with. He was much better than my stable experience.
“Not bad. Not bad at all,” Rayner said getting dressed in the morning. “Obviously you're new at this, but not bad at all. Beautiful body, too, Evan. And I don't say that to everybody. The trouble is ...”
“What?”
“The trouble is I think I love Richard. God-damn it. That miserable, fucking, selfish, skinny, big-dicked, effeminate, son of a bitch who doesn't give a shit about me.” Rayner scowled and pulled his jacket on. “This isn't gonna mess you up, or anything, is it?”
“Me, no. We're good.”