Chapter Twenty-Two - Euie
Not seeing Cary isn't so bad; but being horny all the time sucks. The only comfort I got was schadenfreude from seeing Mac as fucked up as I was. Poor Mac. He had finally arrived in his version of heaven with two guys chasing him, both his preferred color, one a dedicated bottom and the other a demanding top. For weeks all I heard were coos and sighs whenever I saw him. He wouldn't give details, but he didn't need to.
“You're lookin' good,” I told him at Tommy Lynn's one day.
“I'm in LOVE!” he sighed, drawing a disgusted mutter from Richard. “Or at least I'm so sexually satisfied that I can't tell the difference.”
“See a proctologist SOON, dude,” Richard sniped.
His happiness was excessive. Even I thought so, and I'm a man of universal good will. I wish everybody sweet kisses and happy fucks; maybe not Richard, now that I think of it, but everybody else, even the Bunnies and that slutmeister Cary. Still, Mac was over the top. You can't go around with a huge grin ALL the time. People will think you're an idiot. So it was a relief when the next time I saw him he looked normal again.
“Euie ...” Uh-oh. I was afraid tears were coming next, but no; I think secretly Mac was enjoying starring in his own little drama instead of somebody else's. His eyes got bigger. “Gone ...”
“Yeah, I like NSYNCH or are you talking about that Anna Kendrick thing?”
“Don't joke, Euie. They're gone, both of them. Jay and James.” I was polite and asked why. “It was my sister's fault. Totally her fault. You know how racially conscious Jay is?” He took a deep breath. “Well, as it turns out ...” He stopped and shook his head.
“What? You can tell me.”
“Well ...”
“As it turns out,” I prodded.
“We were at this uptown club in DC, on 14th Street, the three of us, and along comes my sister, who I did not expect to see. Like AT ALL. And she immediately stared at Jay's hand which was on my leg. She just stared until he took it away. And then she stared at James. And then she said, 'This is diverse and inclusive.' And I said, what are you talking about and she said, 'Like a box of mixed chocolates.' So I said, yeah, we're all black to some degree. And she asked what was I talking about and I said you know, Great-grandfather Purvis was black. And she laughs her ass off. 'What?' And I said, that letter Grandma showed me said he was black. Everybody said he was black. And she says back to me, while looking at Jay 'Black-hearted, you moron. Black-hearted, not black! He was a loan shark and took peoples' houses when they couldn't pay!' And she laughs some more and scoffs, 'We're totally white you idiot!' And then her boyfriend comes along, who as it turns out IS BLACK, I guess he was her boyfriend, his hands were all over her and he's nuzzling her neck, and he sighs, 'White as a lily,' And Jay looks sick and says, 'I been giving it up fo' a white boy? You a WHITE BOY?' He usually speaks regular English but he went all ghetto at the news. And James is tender and solicitous patting him on the shoulder and telling him, 'It's all right. Everything gon be a'right, fo' mah boy Jay.' And he gives him a KISS! And they left! Together! And the next day I went and spied on James and Jay's LIVIN' with him! Moved right in!”
“So how does it feel being a white boy?” Richard asked with faux-innocence.
“It totally SUCKS!”
“Aw ...” I didn't know what to say, so I gave Mac a little kiss and tasted actual tears on his cheek. “We need to get your mind off things. You want to wrestle?”
“WHAT?” he said like I'm crazy.
“Wrestle … I pin you for a three count and I win. You know ...”
“Cretins … both of you,” Richard laughs with pepper-laced scorn. “It's what comes from living so far from the sea.”
We didn't wrestle that day. We went back to school where I took a nap, which I decided was better than jacking off because my roommate was due back at any moment. I should insert that my roommate is a decent enough dude. He knows I'm gay and doesn't mind as long as I keep quiet about it; and of course I'm pretty careful not to eyeball him too directly when skin is showing. Not that he observes the same rules! He's always looking at my dick and making remarks about what a waste it is on a gay guy and why can't his body look as good despite going to the gym all the time. His body isn't all that bad, but I guess straight guys have their hangups, too. And then, of course, he gets resentful if I suggest a better diet might help, which it definitely would.
“Stand aside!” Quint shouted as he came in the door. “I have ten minutes to shower, shave, and pack my tux and catch a ride to Mary Washington!” Although he left the room dripping wet, he made it with a minute to spare. His gf went to school at Mary Washington, which used to be an all girls' school but isn't any more. I believe they have enrolled about a dozen men now. Maybe if they called it George and Mary Washington they would do better balancing the load. Anyway, for weekend social purposes, they import lots of guys like Quint, formally known as Jordan C. Harris the Fifth, a little bit overweight and never called Jordan, always Quint.
Quint's escape left me alone. I again decided to postpone jacking off and go for a little run on the track across the street from my dorm. The track's location was handy, since I have some lazy tendencies. I probably wouldn't go very far to find another one. I have good genes or something and don't have to work hard at staying in shape; Richard says that will change as I get older. Maybe he's right, but he's always looking on the dark side. For now a run and doing some cardio reps on the track does it for me. I switched to cut off sweats and a pullover hoodie and hit the cinders. I barely got a little sweat going when another dude, who looked genuinely athletic in that lean, sinewy distance runner way, passed me and then hit the cinders in front of me. Literally. Splat.
“Dude! You alright?” I asked him breathlessly.
“I'm good,” the standard reply for any condition that didn't include the loss of a limb.
“Skinned your knee. How's your foot?” I helped him up. He put weight on his foot and immediately grimaced.
“It's not my foot. It's my leg … still cramping.” He hobbled and tried to straighten his leg. More grimacing. He sat and tried to knead his thigh muscle without much result.
“Here, let me try.” I gripped his thigh with both hands feeling for the knot of muscle. Despite the coolness of the day, his bare leg felt warm. I tried higher up, just under the loose-cut acetate of his shorts. He shifted his position and I felt the pressure of his jock against the back of my hand. I think both of us were aware of the contact, but he was in obvious pain. He stretched his leg out as far as it would go and the pain eased off.
“Electrolytes,” he gasped like a dying man.
“Gatorade?” I questioned and got a nod. I helped him to the robot room of my dorm and he fished a dollar bill out of an inner pocket in his shorts. He chugged down the whole can.
“Curative?” I had no idea how fast acting electrolytes taken orally might be.
“Mentally, maybe. I have no idea if this stuff actually works, but my jock roommate swears it does.”
“You're still a mess. Want to get a little cleaned up?” There was a thin streak of blood running down the front of his calf. “I'm one floor up.”
We went to my room and the best thing I could find for wiping blood off was a clean sweat sock. He sat at my desk chair and we looked at his knee. Ok, I also looked at the bulge of his jock, slightly visible under the shorts. The sock didn't do much good dry.
“Wait. I'll wet it.” I went to the sink near the door and returned with a wet sock. I knelt and carefully wiped around the bloody part of his knee. WHOA! He had pushed the jock aside. That was the only way his dick got exposed. Right in front of me! As I finished wiping off the blood he groaned and kicked his leg out straight. Another cramp. I massaged as I had done before.
“It's higher up,” he moaned. I massaged the knotted muscle. When I felt his cock brush the back of my hand I almost recoiled and looked up. He was looking steadily back at me. We both knew what was happening. Maybe the cramp wasn't so bad this time? Maybe it was a fake cramp this time? “Feels good,” he whispered.
I didn't want to stop. He didn't want me to stop. His dick grew bigger. I took it in my hand and looked at him. No eye contact. He was breathing softly through his mouth, watching only my hand and his dick. I stroked him a little. He slumped down in the chair giving me better access. I pushed the loose leg of his shorts out of the way before putting my mouth on him. He gasped for air. I sucked him gently and then went down deep on him. In about fifteen seconds he came. Five seconds later he was gone, running out my door while his cum was still salty in my mouth.
Easy come, easy go, I figured on at least two levels. Cute kid, nice dick, maybe a little over-responsive, though. I swished out the last of his cum with the dregs from the Gatorade can and got myself cleaned up. By the time I took a look at my statistics text the afternoon was half over. By the time I decided fuck statistics the sun was going down. I pondered what to do about dinner. Friday night. Not many people around. Friday nights the cafeteria, never good, was not at its best. I could walk into town. Or I could … I brightened at the knock on my door. Maybe Mac wanted company, too.
“I .. er … I … uh, I'm sorry I … ran away.” The kid was back.
“Come in.” He nodded and immediately sat down in the chair he used earlier.
“Euie, I'm really sorry ...”
“How do you know my name?”
“You told me.”
“Mmm, no. We never got that far.”
“We got pretty far ...” He smiled at his feeble joke; I didn't. I looked him over. He was dressed in jeans and a plaid shirt, which he wore out. Looked like half the guys in the dorm.
“How do you know my name? Do we have a class together?”
“No, you're a senior and I'm a soph ...”
“How much do you know about me?”
He squirmed in the chair. He coughed. He stuttered. “Quite a lot?” he ventured. “I've sort of been stalking you.” He looked worried about my reaction.
I looked at him closely. A flicker of recognition. “You a lacrosse player?”
“Yes. JV team. Um, um ...” He squeezed his eyes shut and blurted out, “I know you're gay. I've been trying to meet you. My name's Rayner. Can I suck you off?”
“No.”
“Why not? You did it to me. Please. This is so ….”
“Mortifying?” He didn't say anything. “That was my grandmother's favorite word. Mortifying. Half the things in life mortified her, apparently.” His expression relaxed, but he was still unsure of what to say. I sat on the bed and he turned his chair to face me. “Do you really want to suck me off?” I unbuttoned that waist of my jeans but went no farther. He knelt between my legs and did the rest. He got my pants down below my knees and I got hard. He did accomplish that much before I pulled him upright.
“Not good?” I have to say disappointment was one of his cuter expressions.
“Terrible. Pay attention to what I do. If I'm doing something to you, chances are I'd like you to do it to me.” We lay in sixty-nine position and commenced a mutual cock-suck. I stopped right before he was about to come. He correctly figured out I needed to catch up and pretty much attacked me. I'll say the kid was willing, more than willing, eager, desperate, even. I think it was his need that got me off – such a happy cocksucker. He looked really pleased with himself when I was done.
“Better?” he asked.
“Much better, Rayner,” I tried out his name and removed his pants.
“Rayner Reynolds,” he said, helping me by kicking his underwear off his ankles and pulling off his shirt.
“Eustis Fortney,” I answered.
“I know.” His chagrin showed as he helped me get equally naked.
“Ok, Mr. Reynolds, let's get back to the subject of how you know.” I patted the bed, encouraging him to lie next to me. With no hesitation he joined me and our hands began an exploration of unknown terrain.
“A friend of mine is in the same fraternity as you and he said you're gay. You're the first gay dude he's ever met.”
“Probably not true, but who is this friend?”
“He doesn't live in the frat house either, so I bet you don't even know him.”
“Name, please.” I watched him briefly debate betraying his friend.
“Juan Collins.” By the time you're a senior, pledge antics aren't all that interesting. I didn't give a shit about living in the house and was in the frat only because it included other people with the same interest I had in finance. The name Juan Collins rang a tiny bell way in the back of my head.
“He's not Hispanic?”
“Pure Virginia. Blond hair. I mean, it would be ok if he WERE Hispanic … but he's not. His mother just liked the name.”
“Have you sucked HIS dick?”
“God, no! He's totally straight.”
“And it was his idea to hook you up with me?” He was flustered and didn't know what to say, so I let him off the hook and gave him a good hug. Neither one of us was hard. “You want to get something to eat?”
While we dressed he glanced at my desk. “Statistics. Awesome. I'm a math major.”
“It's a course I hate; but it's re-fucking-quired for graduation. I put it off as long as I could.?
“You don't like math?”
“I kind of lost it when they came up with the idea of equations with multiple answers, all of which are right.”
“Describing a curve.” He noted my lack of comprehension. “Did you notice that my cock has an upward curve?”
“Yes, but what has that got to do with ...”
“Let's suppose I could have a cock any length I wanted, but it had to keep the same curve. So how long would it have to be to poke me in the eye? Here, let me draw it.” He did a stick figure of some poor dude getting poked in the eye by his own cock. “So since we know the curve, we just plug in different values … along the length … and stop before eye contact.” He redrew the cock shorter.
“Now it looks like you could suck yourself off.” He looked astonished. “Well, it does in your drawing! “Would you suck yourself off? I mean if you could?”
“Are you kidding? Of course I would! I'd never leave my room!” We laughed. There is something very special about shared laughter. Kind of like sharing blow jobs. It's a nice bond. “See? Multiple answers do make sense.”
“Maybe if I'd had your cock to plot, I'd have paid more attention.”
“About statistics, Euie, there are two approaches. Just memorize the most important formulas. Or ... really understand it and get the concept. I could help you either way.” He paused and added, “If you want, of course.”
After we ate, we went back to my room. We talked about mathematics and other stuff a little, until I explained that my roommate was in Fredricksburg for the weekend. Then other possibilities emerged. We got naked and plotted dick curves for a while. Then he asked me to fuck him except he didn't really ask; he just hinted.
“Have you ever put it in somebody?” He mulled over my yes and then said. “You could put it in me … if you want to, maybe.” Then he admitted never done it before and I explained how first times aren't always the best. “If you want to, I'll try ...” he repeated. I explained about the pain. “Worse than a leg cramp?” he asked. I explained that not knowing how bad it would be is part of what made it bad. “Well, we could try,” he repeted.
We tried. When I saw tears in his eyes, I stopped; but he wanted to continue. “I want to learn, and I want it to be with you.” He was stoic. When it was over I wiped away his tears.
“Rayner? Are you ok?” I held him as tenderly as I could.
“It'll be better next time, won't it?”
“Will there be a next time?”
“Definitely.” I felt him relax. “It's a statistical certainty. A problem with only one answer, Euie. Yes, all along the curve. Within twenty-four hours, I hope. That's if you want to … ” He always left it up to me. I answered him with a gentle but lingering kiss. “Oh my God! You kiss? We're going to kiss?” In time the kisses inspired more fucking, still gentle, easier this time for him.
Most guys have initial complaints about my dick size. It actually frightens some guys away. It must have been Rayner's lack of experience. His difficulties seemed minimal and I think he was starting to like it by the end of our second time. He came after I did, real fast, almost as soon as I started stroking him.
Sleeping together was a first for him also. On Friday night we were both restless, waking each other up a lot. Saturday night was night and day different. We both slept easily. We still woke each other up, but it was a comfortable feeling. Oh, you're still here, kiss-kiss, back to sleep, except for the time we fucked again and then went back to sleep.
By Sunday afternoon I appreciated a lot more about statistics and Rayner had experienced a good bit of sex. He said it was a fair trade. I wasn't going to argue. The best part for me was the smile on his face when I asked if he had any free time on Tuesday. He's cute when he smiles. He's nice looking when he doesn't smile, but the smile is killer. I think he knows it. I think he knows how much I like fucking him.
“You like staying in me after you come?” he asked.
“I do. You mind?” His kiss said no, he didn't mind at all.
I texted Quint to see what time he'd be back. His text read, “You have time for one more fuck and it better not be in my bed.”
It was a nice fuck, more energetic than our earlier sessions. Rayner actually wanted more but left, reluctantly. I got cleaned up, and Quint arrived. He immediately threw open both windows. “It smells like you fucked all weekend!”
“Where do you get the idea that all gay guys are sex fiends?” The room did smell a little funky.
“From you, asshole. And you probably got a lot more than I did. That's what pisses me off. You get laid a LOT more than I do. You want to grab a beer?” Quint was stripping for a shower. I did my best not to look at him and failed. “Ready in five,” he announced with a smile that said go ahead, enjoy the view. Look but don't touch. That was more than fair, actually. Quilt's a good guy. And he's right. He'd get laid a LOT more if he were gay.