EasyRory
JUB Addict
Chapter Ten
“I think we should aim younger than what the guys across the bay do. We don't want anybody trying to kneecap us right at the start.” Cal's reference to the DeBartolo training camp operation was semi-serious, even if the knee-capping would only be financial.
“High school … You're right; that's the sweet spot,” Bull answered. “Younger than that is all Daddy's ego pushing hopeless twelve-year-olds. Older than that and we would need facilities, a major investment.” Cal paid close attention to Bull's comment. “What are you looking at? I was a marketing major at Georgia. Some shit rubbed off in four years.”
“I … er … sure. They always said you were smart. I never meant to patronize you.”
“Plus I'm black. That gives you entree to some places you couldn't go otherwise, right?”
“I called you because you're local and I heard you might be available.” Cal said.
“Yeah, but the other stuff doesn't hurt, right? We need to be honest with each other. You come with advantages, too.”
“Ok, then,” Cal said. “To be honest, I need the money and you don't. That's going to make our business approach different.”
“Money is the way to keeping score, and I always play to win, Cal. If we do this, I will be as into it as you or anybody else we bring in.”
“Disadvantages: One, I'm gay and I don't try to hide it.”
“Two, I had that drug problem and I can't hide it,” Bull countered.
Three, I was forced to resign from Alameda High and everybody knows it.”
“Four, I was in the tabloids a lot after I quit.”
“Five.” Larry arrived with two more cold ones. “Fuck the disadvantages. You're both great successes and everybody knows that, too.”
“Are you gonna kiss him or should I?” Bull asked. Cal gave Larry a peck on the cheek and a smile while Bull watched. “That wasn't so bad. I can handle seeing that now and then,” Bull said.
“You'll never see it in public,” Cal stated.
“So I'm in,” Bull offered his hand on the deal.
“Fifty-fifty,” Cal answered, taking the offered hand.
“No, eighty point one for you and nineteen point nine for me, but I'll put some cash in that can convert to even ownership. My lawyer and accountant don't want me to have to consolidate and earnings or losses. Don't ask me why.”
“Asians,” Larry questioned.
Cal and Bull looked at each other and echoed, “Asians.”
“Lots of 'em around,” Larry added. “A door you don't want to leave closed.”
“There was that Vietnamese guy who played for Dallas ...” Cal recalled. “I wonder where he lives.”
“I'll track him down through the Players Association,” Bull committed. “It's a big potential market around here.”
They finished their beers and Bull got up to leave. Cal got very serious again. “Bull, the gay thing IS a big deal. The three of us may be able to ignore it, but lots of people won't.” Cal put his arm around Larry's shoulders. “I'm not giving this guy up. Are you sure you want to take that on? You're risking some money here.”
“Not very much, and I like our chances.”
Cal knew there would be no more discussions of the 'gay thing' with Bull.
Finn lay on his bed, staring at some shadows on the ceiling. For some reason he thought they always looked like cactuses in the afternoon light. Today he thought one looked a lot like Long's cock. He felt a stirring in his loins. If Long had stayed we could have messed around some more, he thought. Man, he licked my nipple. I never expected that. First I felt his breath on my chest and then his tongue. The two of us lying together like that. Touching in so many places. Finn's hand, the one that wasn't squeezing his cock, traced his chest muscles. He felt his nipples under the thin jersey of his t-shirt. Hard points formed under his fingers. It almost felt like he kissed my neck. He must have had my cum in his mouth when he did that. Finn's cock ached as he replayed the scene in his head.
He heard a door slam. His mother knocked on his door as she went past. “Dinner in about a half hour,” she called out. Raising five sons had taught her not to open any bedroom doors without warning the occupants.
“Ok, Mom.”
The erotic portion of Finn's daydreaming was shattered. His soul-searching continued. We're gay, he labeled himself and Long. Gay guys. What else can you call it? Cock-sucking. He recoiled at the term, but what else can you call it. Pleasuring each other orally. Bullshit. We're cock-suckers and maybe more. We're gay. He fuckin' kissed me … sort of. I liked it. I liked it better than anything else I've ever done. We're homo-fucking-sexual. Fucking ... Fucking??? Are we gonna do that? Finn had seen some pictures of the act but had no idea how it was actually done. He heard his father's car drive into the garage and the low rumble of his hello in the kitchen. Homo-fucking-sexual. He tried to picture his father's reaction. No image came to mind. I've pretty much only given him good news before. Mmm, there was that fender-bender I had with his car when it was new. He took that pretty well.
“Dinner!” came the call. Finn dabbed at his jeans. He could see a little dark spot right where his cockhead lay. He rearranged his cock so it was minimized and went to the table planning just to eat and be done with it. But there was one question he wanted to ask.
“What made you decide to have me circumcised?” Finn asked his parents. Finn's dad's mouth fell open and Finn's mom laughed. “I'm serious,” Finn added, biting into a drumstick.
“The doctor treated it as part of the birth process. It wasn't a choice, exactly. All you boys are circumcised,” Finn's dad explained.
“Your uncle Jerome isn't,” Finn's mom said. “Your father said that's what made him gay.” She treated it as a joke and laughed.
“Uncle Romey's gay?” Finn's look said he had no previous clue about his mother's younger brother.
“Oh … well, I guess you're old enough to know. Yes, he is.” Honesty was Finn's mom's policy.
“Why? It shouldn't really matter to you.” Finn's dad added.
“Kind of it does … you see … um … I think I might be gay.” Two forks dropped into plates while Finn held his between thumb and forefinger and carefully studied the incising on the silver handle.
“You're not joking, are you?” In every circumstance mothers will always hold out hope. Finn's silence answered her. “Don't commit yourself, Finnie. This might just be a phase. You could have a change of heart.”
“I think I'm gay,” Finn announced with finality.
“Maybe you could chose to try something else,” Finn's dad suggested. He sounded as if he knew that was futile.
“It's not really a choice,” Finn answered.
“That's what Romey said. Those exact words.” Finn's mom sniffled a little.
“Now what?” Finn asked his dad.
“That's up to you not me.”
“I'm sorry. I'm sorry to disappoint you.” Finn blinked trying to keep his eyes dry.
“I hope you don't disappoint yourself. Let's let the subject rest for now. We can talk later. Do I smell cobbler?”
“We can't just sweep it under the rug.” Finn's mom dabbed at her eyes..
“I hope not. We'd never get rid of the ants.” Finn looked up at his father in surprise and got a wink and a smile in return.
Darren waited in the school parking lot, feeling horny enough to want to wait for Joanne and Peter. He spotted their car and waited on a walk where they would have to pass. He leaned back against a swagged chain barrier along the walk and enjoyed the late afternoon sun. The sun's warmth penetrated his jeans, adding to his horniness. He could feel his cock chub up within the confines of the denim. So far he had not encountered any philosophical discussion of horniness. How much of it was physical? Just an accretion of hormones? How much mental? Based on reality or fantasy? Some answers would be useful.
Ah, here they come, Darren thought. Joanne smiled and said hello while Peter, looking impatient, stood slightly back and said nothing. “I was wondering if you guys might want to get some food?” Darren proposed. His suggestion was pretty obviously for sex not food.
Joanne was about to answer when Peter stepped forward and bluntly answered. “I ain't gay. We're not interested.” He intended the comment to end the conversation. Darren shifted his stance to emphasize the bulge in his jeans.
“Nietzsche would say that's perspectival and possible wrong.” Darren lowered his hand and slowly squeezed his bulge. Peter stared raptly with his mouth slightly open. Darren cleared his throat and Peter looked up, knowing he had been caught. “See what I mean?” Darren teased.
“Fuck Nietzsche … and fuck you!” Peter stalked off to the car. Joanne gave Darren a kiss on the cheek and a whispered apology before following her brother. Darren watched Peter peel away, stall the car, and jerk to a stop. The engine roared back to life and with another squeal the car drove away.
“That's no way to treat a nice set of wheels.” Darren turned and smiled at the student who was watching the car leave the lot. “Do you know them well?” he asked, looking back at Darren.
“Some ...”
“They have a juicy rep here,” the student said.
“I guess ...” Darren answered.
“Wouldn't mind being a notch on their bedpost.”
“Been on a roller coaster?” Darren asked. “It's fun but it doesn't last long.”
“So ...uh … you planning on fuckin' Nietzsche?”
“He's dead.”
“Is that your only objection? 'Cause, I'm not dead … and I live in that dorm over there ...”
“Casual meaningless sex?”
“That's the best kind.”
Darren took a careful look at the young man and couldn't find any reason to say no. A few minutes later, they were at the awkward point of being in a bedroom, intent on sex, and not knowing quite where to start. Darren opened the top couple of buttons on his shirt.
“Wait, let me,” the student said. He undid the rest of the buttons and spread open the shirt, putting his hands gently on Darren's pecs.
“I'm Darren.”
“I know,” the student said. He leaned forward and licked a nipple. “You're Darren.” His hands began opening Darren's jeans. “And you're hot.” He spread the fly and reached into Darren's boxers. “And your cock is just what I hoped it would be.” The student turned away and began undressing. “There's lube and a condom in that drawer next to the bed. You do want to fuck me, right?”
“What do you think?”
The kid turned and saw Darren greasing up his sheathed cock. “Aww … I wanted to see it first.”
“You can see it second.” Darren reached for the kid and moved to kiss him, but the kid pulled away and knelt on all fours on the bed.
“Casual meaningless sex. Isn't that what we agreed? Just start slow, ok? 'Til I get used to that thing.” He wiggled a small but well-cushioned ass in invitation and Darren didn't need any further prompting. “Ok, ok, slow … Let me back up onto it ...” The kid was taking deep breaths and controlling the pace. “Oh man … Oh, shit … Easy … Don't push yet.”
Darren watched the kid push slowly back. His ass looked so small to be taking a cock. He could see the darker skin of the asshole go in an out, gripping his cock tightly as the kid began little back and forth motions.
“More lube ...” the kid requested.
Darren squeezed a generous amount onto his shaft as the kid's forward motion exposed it. He held the kid's cheeks apart as he pushed back again and watched the stretched hole envelop the slickness. “Ahhh ...” the kid sighed as he moved forward again. Then a rush of breath as he pushed back taking it all for the first time. “Yes!” he called out on the forward stroke and “Yes,” again as he pushed back. Then Darren took over using hip thrusts and a side-to-side angling motion until he heard a steady cooing from his host. He went a little faster.
“No … keep it slow … yeah … just like that … keep doing that.” Soon the repeated stroking had the kid purring with contentment. “Oh, fuck me … keep doing that … mmmm, yeah … now go a little faster ...” Soon the moans got louder. “Oh, Darren … sweet ...” The kid folded his hands together and dropped to elbows and knees as the motion continued. Then, “Oh … yeah ... yeah, YEAH! ...FUCK! ...KEEP FUCKIN' ME … DON”T STOP! ….AAAAH! …. DON”T STOP ...” The kid was sobbing with pleasure. “NO! DON'T PULL OUT!” He got it together a little. “Don't pull out … stay in me … slowly ...” With a few contortions he rolled over to missionary position and smiled upward. “Now you … your turn ...fuck me ...”
Darren only stepped up the pace a little before he came. The kid pulsed his asshole in some way that extended the pleasure. Then when it was over the kid pulled him into a gentle, no-tongue kiss. “There … that was great ...”
Darren looked down at his wiped-out partner and saw a face swollen and dark with the flush of sex. “I like a bossy bottom. That way I know I'm doing it right.”
That got him another, longer kiss. “Doing it right! Oh, man … you sure did. I barely touched myself when I came. It was all you … almost.”
“So pretty good, you're saying, for casual meaningless stuff?” Another kiss. “I take that as a yes. How'd you know my name, anyway? Are you in one of my classes?”
Before the kid could answer there was a banging on the door … “Open up, Jeff. I got homework to do.”
Darren told the kid to wait but he went to the door in a towel and let his roommate in. The roommate spotted Darren and recognized him. “Alright!” He high-fived the kid and said, “You got with your dreamguy?”
“Dreamguy?” Darren hurried into his clothes.
“Oh, yeah, Mr. Darren Dreamguy. That's what he calls you … doesn't know your last name … but have a look.” The roommate started a slide show on a laptop. It was a bunch of porn shots with Darren's face and the kid's crudely overlaid onto the xxx-rated models.
“I saw you at a fashion show and took some pictures … You mind?” It was too late to stop the display.
“I wasn't doing anything like that in the show.” Darren pointed to one of the pictures as he watched the slide show. “Those are terrible fakes. I hope you're not an art major.”
“You don't mind?” The kid sounded majorly relieved.
Darren paused to make the kid sweat a little. He looked at him as if he was considering hitting him. “My last name is Alvintzi.”
The roommate butted in without hesitation. “His is Kevin Collier and mine is Jeff Lorkowski. Do you want to stay? I've got some beer.” Jeff held up a paper bag he was carrying.
“Kevin and Jeff ...” Darren mused. “Have you two tried anything ...” He pointed from one roommate to the other. “... together?”
“No, not really. Yeah, well, maybe a little, but nnn, nothing serious,” Jeff answered.
“We like the same thing, so ...” Kevin said. Darren looked to Jeff and he shook his head in agreement. “Us together ... it's kinda like masturbating,” Jeff added and then continued, “You fucked him, Darren? Oh man, I been so thinking about that ...”
“Fuckin' him? Fuckin' you? What?” Darren was chuckling as he asked the questions; Jeff was so excited he couldn't keep his hand off his cock. He absentmindedly kept squeezing himself.
“Oh, shit … would you? I'm mean, do you want to? When?” It was Roommate Jeff talking again.
“What about you, Kevin?” Darren asked the young man he met in the parking lot. “You started all this. Casual meaningless sex, right?”
“You can fuck Jeff if you want. It's up to you. He'd like it.” In the background Jeff hissed yes and did a fist pump.
“Casual ….” Darren began.
“Maybe not so meaningless,” Kevin finished. “I kinda felt there was a connection, you know?”
“All truly great thoughts are conceived by walking.”
“You're quoting somebody,” Jeff interjected.
“Nietzsche,” Darren answered. “I'm walkin.” Both roommates looked disappointed as Darren left.
Before the door was closed, Darren heard Jeff's voice, “Him and you? Dude! He really fucked you? Details, man! Details! How big is it?”
Darren walked only as far as the parking lot. Driving back to Alameda, he saw two guys in a Benz. The driver reminded him of Morrie, and the passenger brought back memories his rent-boy days with Morrie. And Nicky, of course ... Nicky smiled and stayed away, stayed in the next room like always, keeping his mouth shut while Darren earned the Audi he was driving. Earned it the hard way, people say, but it wasn't that hard, Darren told himself. But Nicky hated it.
My being with Morrie hurt Nicky every time; it just shredded him, Darren remembered, but Nicky pretended it was just business . But that was when he loved me, Darren thought. Nicky, who had done it all himself and maybe more, was so innocent. He was so innocent when he loved me, no matter what his life had been before. He tried so hard. He loved me totally, he held nothing back. We almost made it. Except he wanted to live in New York. And I wanted to live in Alameda. What a stupid fucking reason to break up! I could have tried New York. I could have tried, at least.
He parked on San Antonio in front of his house. He pulled out his phone and took a deep breath. He punched in the numbers 1-212-6 … and he punched off. I can't, he decided.
Then Darren thought back to Nicky's little house in Rockaway. The place was creepy. Not just the house, the area, Brooklyn, the subway, the weather, the food, the whole damn city. I hate New York, he thought - as much as Nicky hated San Francisco. We couldn't work it out, and it seemed so important. Now it seems idiotic. We could have compromised on … Kansas City or something? Darren sighed, trying to loosen the constriction in his chest. I still love him. It doesn't hurt so much now, but I still love him.
1-212-637-44 … He punched off again. And now! Darren pounded his hands on the steering wheel. I'm thinking about messing with two flakey roommates! Why would I do ANYTHING with them?
He could see his landladies sipping their nightly schnapps inside. He couldn't talk privately in the house. He punched in the numbers again and the voice came almost immediately.
“Darren? Hey! What's up?” Nicky hadn't let the phone ring twice.
“Uh … I found a box of your stuff. It doesn't look like much. Bank statements, some old bills, a couple of paperbacks. You want me to send it to you?”
“Probably not worth it. Just throw it away, I guess. How are you doin'?”
“Good. Some runway stuff. Some software stuff. No Morrie stuff, though.” Darren tried to sound breezy.
“I'll tell him,” Nicky matched Darren's tone. “Um … you know what? We're going to China to look at some import samples … and we're gonna be in San Francisco overnight. Do you want to get together maybe?”
“When?” Darren held his breath.
“The nineteenth.”
Darren calculated. “Yeah, the nine … oh … shit … I'll be in Belgium.” A conversation killer.
“Yeah, well … maybe another time, ok?”
“Yeah. Sure.” The connection went dead. “I love you, Nicky,” Darren said to the shiny black surface of the phone. He saw a light go on in his brother's kitchen.
All right, Darren. Square away. Deep breaths. Smile. He walked next door and up the path to his brother's door. Bigger smile, he told himself and entered. “Z, what heard from Andrew? Any work?”
“Yes! Some guy named Adan called. Works for Andrew, I guess. A week from today. Friday. In Contra Costa.”
“Z ... I'll be in Belgium!” Darren watched Z's face fall; he knew how much Z wanted the job. “I know, maybe Heiko could do it.”
A quick call got different response. “Maybe Wolf could do it,” Heiko suggested.
“I think we should aim younger than what the guys across the bay do. We don't want anybody trying to kneecap us right at the start.” Cal's reference to the DeBartolo training camp operation was semi-serious, even if the knee-capping would only be financial.
“High school … You're right; that's the sweet spot,” Bull answered. “Younger than that is all Daddy's ego pushing hopeless twelve-year-olds. Older than that and we would need facilities, a major investment.” Cal paid close attention to Bull's comment. “What are you looking at? I was a marketing major at Georgia. Some shit rubbed off in four years.”
“I … er … sure. They always said you were smart. I never meant to patronize you.”
“Plus I'm black. That gives you entree to some places you couldn't go otherwise, right?”
“I called you because you're local and I heard you might be available.” Cal said.
“Yeah, but the other stuff doesn't hurt, right? We need to be honest with each other. You come with advantages, too.”
“Ok, then,” Cal said. “To be honest, I need the money and you don't. That's going to make our business approach different.”
“Money is the way to keeping score, and I always play to win, Cal. If we do this, I will be as into it as you or anybody else we bring in.”
“Disadvantages: One, I'm gay and I don't try to hide it.”
“Two, I had that drug problem and I can't hide it,” Bull countered.
Three, I was forced to resign from Alameda High and everybody knows it.”
“Four, I was in the tabloids a lot after I quit.”
“Five.” Larry arrived with two more cold ones. “Fuck the disadvantages. You're both great successes and everybody knows that, too.”
“Are you gonna kiss him or should I?” Bull asked. Cal gave Larry a peck on the cheek and a smile while Bull watched. “That wasn't so bad. I can handle seeing that now and then,” Bull said.
“You'll never see it in public,” Cal stated.
“So I'm in,” Bull offered his hand on the deal.
“Fifty-fifty,” Cal answered, taking the offered hand.
“No, eighty point one for you and nineteen point nine for me, but I'll put some cash in that can convert to even ownership. My lawyer and accountant don't want me to have to consolidate and earnings or losses. Don't ask me why.”
“Asians,” Larry questioned.
Cal and Bull looked at each other and echoed, “Asians.”
“Lots of 'em around,” Larry added. “A door you don't want to leave closed.”
“There was that Vietnamese guy who played for Dallas ...” Cal recalled. “I wonder where he lives.”
“I'll track him down through the Players Association,” Bull committed. “It's a big potential market around here.”
They finished their beers and Bull got up to leave. Cal got very serious again. “Bull, the gay thing IS a big deal. The three of us may be able to ignore it, but lots of people won't.” Cal put his arm around Larry's shoulders. “I'm not giving this guy up. Are you sure you want to take that on? You're risking some money here.”
“Not very much, and I like our chances.”
Cal knew there would be no more discussions of the 'gay thing' with Bull.
Finn lay on his bed, staring at some shadows on the ceiling. For some reason he thought they always looked like cactuses in the afternoon light. Today he thought one looked a lot like Long's cock. He felt a stirring in his loins. If Long had stayed we could have messed around some more, he thought. Man, he licked my nipple. I never expected that. First I felt his breath on my chest and then his tongue. The two of us lying together like that. Touching in so many places. Finn's hand, the one that wasn't squeezing his cock, traced his chest muscles. He felt his nipples under the thin jersey of his t-shirt. Hard points formed under his fingers. It almost felt like he kissed my neck. He must have had my cum in his mouth when he did that. Finn's cock ached as he replayed the scene in his head.
He heard a door slam. His mother knocked on his door as she went past. “Dinner in about a half hour,” she called out. Raising five sons had taught her not to open any bedroom doors without warning the occupants.
“Ok, Mom.”
The erotic portion of Finn's daydreaming was shattered. His soul-searching continued. We're gay, he labeled himself and Long. Gay guys. What else can you call it? Cock-sucking. He recoiled at the term, but what else can you call it. Pleasuring each other orally. Bullshit. We're cock-suckers and maybe more. We're gay. He fuckin' kissed me … sort of. I liked it. I liked it better than anything else I've ever done. We're homo-fucking-sexual. Fucking ... Fucking??? Are we gonna do that? Finn had seen some pictures of the act but had no idea how it was actually done. He heard his father's car drive into the garage and the low rumble of his hello in the kitchen. Homo-fucking-sexual. He tried to picture his father's reaction. No image came to mind. I've pretty much only given him good news before. Mmm, there was that fender-bender I had with his car when it was new. He took that pretty well.
“Dinner!” came the call. Finn dabbed at his jeans. He could see a little dark spot right where his cockhead lay. He rearranged his cock so it was minimized and went to the table planning just to eat and be done with it. But there was one question he wanted to ask.
“What made you decide to have me circumcised?” Finn asked his parents. Finn's dad's mouth fell open and Finn's mom laughed. “I'm serious,” Finn added, biting into a drumstick.
“The doctor treated it as part of the birth process. It wasn't a choice, exactly. All you boys are circumcised,” Finn's dad explained.
“Your uncle Jerome isn't,” Finn's mom said. “Your father said that's what made him gay.” She treated it as a joke and laughed.
“Uncle Romey's gay?” Finn's look said he had no previous clue about his mother's younger brother.
“Oh … well, I guess you're old enough to know. Yes, he is.” Honesty was Finn's mom's policy.
“Why? It shouldn't really matter to you.” Finn's dad added.
“Kind of it does … you see … um … I think I might be gay.” Two forks dropped into plates while Finn held his between thumb and forefinger and carefully studied the incising on the silver handle.
“You're not joking, are you?” In every circumstance mothers will always hold out hope. Finn's silence answered her. “Don't commit yourself, Finnie. This might just be a phase. You could have a change of heart.”
“I think I'm gay,” Finn announced with finality.
“Maybe you could chose to try something else,” Finn's dad suggested. He sounded as if he knew that was futile.
“It's not really a choice,” Finn answered.
“That's what Romey said. Those exact words.” Finn's mom sniffled a little.
“Now what?” Finn asked his dad.
“That's up to you not me.”
“I'm sorry. I'm sorry to disappoint you.” Finn blinked trying to keep his eyes dry.
“I hope you don't disappoint yourself. Let's let the subject rest for now. We can talk later. Do I smell cobbler?”
“We can't just sweep it under the rug.” Finn's mom dabbed at her eyes..
“I hope not. We'd never get rid of the ants.” Finn looked up at his father in surprise and got a wink and a smile in return.
Darren waited in the school parking lot, feeling horny enough to want to wait for Joanne and Peter. He spotted their car and waited on a walk where they would have to pass. He leaned back against a swagged chain barrier along the walk and enjoyed the late afternoon sun. The sun's warmth penetrated his jeans, adding to his horniness. He could feel his cock chub up within the confines of the denim. So far he had not encountered any philosophical discussion of horniness. How much of it was physical? Just an accretion of hormones? How much mental? Based on reality or fantasy? Some answers would be useful.
Ah, here they come, Darren thought. Joanne smiled and said hello while Peter, looking impatient, stood slightly back and said nothing. “I was wondering if you guys might want to get some food?” Darren proposed. His suggestion was pretty obviously for sex not food.
Joanne was about to answer when Peter stepped forward and bluntly answered. “I ain't gay. We're not interested.” He intended the comment to end the conversation. Darren shifted his stance to emphasize the bulge in his jeans.
“Nietzsche would say that's perspectival and possible wrong.” Darren lowered his hand and slowly squeezed his bulge. Peter stared raptly with his mouth slightly open. Darren cleared his throat and Peter looked up, knowing he had been caught. “See what I mean?” Darren teased.
“Fuck Nietzsche … and fuck you!” Peter stalked off to the car. Joanne gave Darren a kiss on the cheek and a whispered apology before following her brother. Darren watched Peter peel away, stall the car, and jerk to a stop. The engine roared back to life and with another squeal the car drove away.
“That's no way to treat a nice set of wheels.” Darren turned and smiled at the student who was watching the car leave the lot. “Do you know them well?” he asked, looking back at Darren.
“Some ...”
“They have a juicy rep here,” the student said.
“I guess ...” Darren answered.
“Wouldn't mind being a notch on their bedpost.”
“Been on a roller coaster?” Darren asked. “It's fun but it doesn't last long.”
“So ...uh … you planning on fuckin' Nietzsche?”
“He's dead.”
“Is that your only objection? 'Cause, I'm not dead … and I live in that dorm over there ...”
“Casual meaningless sex?”
“That's the best kind.”
Darren took a careful look at the young man and couldn't find any reason to say no. A few minutes later, they were at the awkward point of being in a bedroom, intent on sex, and not knowing quite where to start. Darren opened the top couple of buttons on his shirt.
“Wait, let me,” the student said. He undid the rest of the buttons and spread open the shirt, putting his hands gently on Darren's pecs.
“I'm Darren.”
“I know,” the student said. He leaned forward and licked a nipple. “You're Darren.” His hands began opening Darren's jeans. “And you're hot.” He spread the fly and reached into Darren's boxers. “And your cock is just what I hoped it would be.” The student turned away and began undressing. “There's lube and a condom in that drawer next to the bed. You do want to fuck me, right?”
“What do you think?”
The kid turned and saw Darren greasing up his sheathed cock. “Aww … I wanted to see it first.”
“You can see it second.” Darren reached for the kid and moved to kiss him, but the kid pulled away and knelt on all fours on the bed.
“Casual meaningless sex. Isn't that what we agreed? Just start slow, ok? 'Til I get used to that thing.” He wiggled a small but well-cushioned ass in invitation and Darren didn't need any further prompting. “Ok, ok, slow … Let me back up onto it ...” The kid was taking deep breaths and controlling the pace. “Oh man … Oh, shit … Easy … Don't push yet.”
Darren watched the kid push slowly back. His ass looked so small to be taking a cock. He could see the darker skin of the asshole go in an out, gripping his cock tightly as the kid began little back and forth motions.
“More lube ...” the kid requested.
Darren squeezed a generous amount onto his shaft as the kid's forward motion exposed it. He held the kid's cheeks apart as he pushed back again and watched the stretched hole envelop the slickness. “Ahhh ...” the kid sighed as he moved forward again. Then a rush of breath as he pushed back taking it all for the first time. “Yes!” he called out on the forward stroke and “Yes,” again as he pushed back. Then Darren took over using hip thrusts and a side-to-side angling motion until he heard a steady cooing from his host. He went a little faster.
“No … keep it slow … yeah … just like that … keep doing that.” Soon the repeated stroking had the kid purring with contentment. “Oh, fuck me … keep doing that … mmmm, yeah … now go a little faster ...” Soon the moans got louder. “Oh, Darren … sweet ...” The kid folded his hands together and dropped to elbows and knees as the motion continued. Then, “Oh … yeah ... yeah, YEAH! ...FUCK! ...KEEP FUCKIN' ME … DON”T STOP! ….AAAAH! …. DON”T STOP ...” The kid was sobbing with pleasure. “NO! DON'T PULL OUT!” He got it together a little. “Don't pull out … stay in me … slowly ...” With a few contortions he rolled over to missionary position and smiled upward. “Now you … your turn ...fuck me ...”
Darren only stepped up the pace a little before he came. The kid pulsed his asshole in some way that extended the pleasure. Then when it was over the kid pulled him into a gentle, no-tongue kiss. “There … that was great ...”
Darren looked down at his wiped-out partner and saw a face swollen and dark with the flush of sex. “I like a bossy bottom. That way I know I'm doing it right.”
That got him another, longer kiss. “Doing it right! Oh, man … you sure did. I barely touched myself when I came. It was all you … almost.”
“So pretty good, you're saying, for casual meaningless stuff?” Another kiss. “I take that as a yes. How'd you know my name, anyway? Are you in one of my classes?”
Before the kid could answer there was a banging on the door … “Open up, Jeff. I got homework to do.”
Darren told the kid to wait but he went to the door in a towel and let his roommate in. The roommate spotted Darren and recognized him. “Alright!” He high-fived the kid and said, “You got with your dreamguy?”
“Dreamguy?” Darren hurried into his clothes.
“Oh, yeah, Mr. Darren Dreamguy. That's what he calls you … doesn't know your last name … but have a look.” The roommate started a slide show on a laptop. It was a bunch of porn shots with Darren's face and the kid's crudely overlaid onto the xxx-rated models.
“I saw you at a fashion show and took some pictures … You mind?” It was too late to stop the display.
“I wasn't doing anything like that in the show.” Darren pointed to one of the pictures as he watched the slide show. “Those are terrible fakes. I hope you're not an art major.”
“You don't mind?” The kid sounded majorly relieved.
Darren paused to make the kid sweat a little. He looked at him as if he was considering hitting him. “My last name is Alvintzi.”
The roommate butted in without hesitation. “His is Kevin Collier and mine is Jeff Lorkowski. Do you want to stay? I've got some beer.” Jeff held up a paper bag he was carrying.
“Kevin and Jeff ...” Darren mused. “Have you two tried anything ...” He pointed from one roommate to the other. “... together?”
“No, not really. Yeah, well, maybe a little, but nnn, nothing serious,” Jeff answered.
“We like the same thing, so ...” Kevin said. Darren looked to Jeff and he shook his head in agreement. “Us together ... it's kinda like masturbating,” Jeff added and then continued, “You fucked him, Darren? Oh man, I been so thinking about that ...”
“Fuckin' him? Fuckin' you? What?” Darren was chuckling as he asked the questions; Jeff was so excited he couldn't keep his hand off his cock. He absentmindedly kept squeezing himself.
“Oh, shit … would you? I'm mean, do you want to? When?” It was Roommate Jeff talking again.
“What about you, Kevin?” Darren asked the young man he met in the parking lot. “You started all this. Casual meaningless sex, right?”
“You can fuck Jeff if you want. It's up to you. He'd like it.” In the background Jeff hissed yes and did a fist pump.
“Casual ….” Darren began.
“Maybe not so meaningless,” Kevin finished. “I kinda felt there was a connection, you know?”
“All truly great thoughts are conceived by walking.”
“You're quoting somebody,” Jeff interjected.
“Nietzsche,” Darren answered. “I'm walkin.” Both roommates looked disappointed as Darren left.
Before the door was closed, Darren heard Jeff's voice, “Him and you? Dude! He really fucked you? Details, man! Details! How big is it?”
Darren walked only as far as the parking lot. Driving back to Alameda, he saw two guys in a Benz. The driver reminded him of Morrie, and the passenger brought back memories his rent-boy days with Morrie. And Nicky, of course ... Nicky smiled and stayed away, stayed in the next room like always, keeping his mouth shut while Darren earned the Audi he was driving. Earned it the hard way, people say, but it wasn't that hard, Darren told himself. But Nicky hated it.
My being with Morrie hurt Nicky every time; it just shredded him, Darren remembered, but Nicky pretended it was just business . But that was when he loved me, Darren thought. Nicky, who had done it all himself and maybe more, was so innocent. He was so innocent when he loved me, no matter what his life had been before. He tried so hard. He loved me totally, he held nothing back. We almost made it. Except he wanted to live in New York. And I wanted to live in Alameda. What a stupid fucking reason to break up! I could have tried New York. I could have tried, at least.
He parked on San Antonio in front of his house. He pulled out his phone and took a deep breath. He punched in the numbers 1-212-6 … and he punched off. I can't, he decided.
Then Darren thought back to Nicky's little house in Rockaway. The place was creepy. Not just the house, the area, Brooklyn, the subway, the weather, the food, the whole damn city. I hate New York, he thought - as much as Nicky hated San Francisco. We couldn't work it out, and it seemed so important. Now it seems idiotic. We could have compromised on … Kansas City or something? Darren sighed, trying to loosen the constriction in his chest. I still love him. It doesn't hurt so much now, but I still love him.
1-212-637-44 … He punched off again. And now! Darren pounded his hands on the steering wheel. I'm thinking about messing with two flakey roommates! Why would I do ANYTHING with them?
He could see his landladies sipping their nightly schnapps inside. He couldn't talk privately in the house. He punched in the numbers again and the voice came almost immediately.
“Darren? Hey! What's up?” Nicky hadn't let the phone ring twice.
“Uh … I found a box of your stuff. It doesn't look like much. Bank statements, some old bills, a couple of paperbacks. You want me to send it to you?”
“Probably not worth it. Just throw it away, I guess. How are you doin'?”
“Good. Some runway stuff. Some software stuff. No Morrie stuff, though.” Darren tried to sound breezy.
“I'll tell him,” Nicky matched Darren's tone. “Um … you know what? We're going to China to look at some import samples … and we're gonna be in San Francisco overnight. Do you want to get together maybe?”
“When?” Darren held his breath.
“The nineteenth.”
Darren calculated. “Yeah, the nine … oh … shit … I'll be in Belgium.” A conversation killer.
“Yeah, well … maybe another time, ok?”
“Yeah. Sure.” The connection went dead. “I love you, Nicky,” Darren said to the shiny black surface of the phone. He saw a light go on in his brother's kitchen.
All right, Darren. Square away. Deep breaths. Smile. He walked next door and up the path to his brother's door. Bigger smile, he told himself and entered. “Z, what heard from Andrew? Any work?”
“Yes! Some guy named Adan called. Works for Andrew, I guess. A week from today. Friday. In Contra Costa.”
“Z ... I'll be in Belgium!” Darren watched Z's face fall; he knew how much Z wanted the job. “I know, maybe Heiko could do it.”
A quick call got different response. “Maybe Wolf could do it,” Heiko suggested.
















