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Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

NeedingHelpASAP said:
No I haven't....I just feel too scared to call or i don't even want to....i dont want a help line....i want like real people....i cried all day today....again today
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You came here for help and advice. But if it is too overwhelming to think about trying any of the advice and too hard to take a breath in between tears, then it's important for you to get help. I think you should call a help line. But remember you don't have to get help over the phone. You can tell them it's important to you to actually get help face to face, and they'll try to work with that.

It's important for you to get help to deal with this. We can do everything possible online, but a real friendly face in your community will give you a kind of help we can't make happen online. Please don't be afraid of people who can help you, and think about giving them a call.

You don't even have to figure out how they can help you. You don't have to ask for anything specific. It's their job to figure out some ideas and it's their job to help you figure out what to do next. Please give them a shout.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

I have to say that I just cried when I came across this thread today.

Call a helpline.

Go to the Emergency department.

Find a priest.

Something.

Just talk to someone. Now!!!

Just etell them you are suicidal and need help. They'll pick it up from there. And keep posting. Please.

We're all on your side. And you can get through this. Trust me.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

You have a lot of people here pulling for you! Perhaps that alone might help you feel just a tiny bit better.
We care.
There's not a bad word of advise here that I've seen.
Please get help, brother!
And keep us in the loop.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

NeedingHelpASAP,
I'm hoping to hear what your next step forward is. I still think a doctor's help would be a good idea for what you're going through. And I hope you're doing okay. But even if you cried all day long today, and even if you cry all day long tomorrow, we're still here, we still will be here for you, and it would be great to hear from you.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

Hopefully by now you've got through your crisis.

And now, you need to seek out good medical and therapist support.

The issues behind your clinical depression are likely physiological as well as psychological. And my in fact, be genetic in basis.

Your apparent lack of self-esteem and self-worth can't be addressed until you have a balanced and healthier neurochemical state as well. Once you are able to see the world in a clearer state, you can then start to work on letting go of some of the other baggage that appears to be too heavy to cart around anymore.

And you can work your way through this. And it is all worthwhile once you have.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

DONT YOU FUCKIN DO IT, YOU HEAR ME. DONT YOU FUCKIN DARE DO IT. DONT GIVE all those assholes who put you down, treated you like shit, the stratification.

I may not know what exactly your going through, but i can tell you that i've been through and still dealing with similar problems. When i was kid, i had very bad speech problem. Was made fun of it on daily basies too the point where wasnt even worth their time anymore. Teachers would ignore me in class, and not ever ask me a question. School directors tried getting me kicked out, saying "That I will not accomplish anything, that its waste of school resources to teach me." As my voice got deeper, I grew out of it, and is now not even noticeable. Trust me, I know how much it hurts to be belittlerd and treated as secound-class. I would wish that they would just beat me up, because the physical pain, wouldn't even come class to the amount of the mental/pyschological pain.

You most likely wont be prescribed SSRI(anti-depressents) because you have suicidal thoughts. You should see a clinical psychologist who is specialized in nero-psychology . You have to get better before you be prescribed any anti-depressants, although you may be referenced to a doctor to be prescribed Xanax (to treat anxiety). Its a long-hard road, that will get worse, before it gets better. Trust me it will get better, its just going to take time. There is no quick-fix, or magical pill that will suddenly make things normal. You will recover from this!

Be strong, show all those assholes, their wrong, show them the diamond you truly are!!
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

Right on, ZmercTheDuke!
I love you for that post -- you reminded me of a great saying; "That which is to give light must endure burning." It takes surving our pain to make us the diamonds we can be, just as coal has to survive great pressure for many years to be turned in diamonds. What good does a candle do until it's lit with fire?
NeedingHelpASAP, we are here for you! Get through this fire! Pick up your phone TODAY and find the therapist and physician who can help you, and keep your friends on this thread -- and we ARE your FRIENDS -- updated.
We care about you, brother!
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

I just still really feel upset....I haven't left my house in a few days....

The last time I left my home was to get something to eat...and I saw this guy with a phat ass who I was interested in...

He saw me looking at him and started glaring back in disgust....

It seemed as if he was clearly irritated and it hurt my feelings greatly....

It was just another knock down....


I just don't ever have time to breath or not get belittled....

Another guy i was starring at actually said to this girl "why the fuck does he keep walking over here?"

It was a public train terminal and I was walking the platform in anticipation for the train.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

NeedingHelpASAP said:
I just still really feel upset....I haven't left my house in a few days....

The last time I left my home was to get something to eat...and I saw this guy with a phat ass who I was interested in...

He saw me looking at him and started glaring back in disgust....

It seemed as if he was clearly irritated and it hurt my feelings greatly....

It was just another knock down....


I just don't ever have time to breath or not get belittled....

Another guy i was starring at actually said to this girl "why the fuck does he keep walking over here?"

It was a public train terminal and I was walking the platform in anticipation for the train.
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It is all about feelings.
What if you change your feelings slowly into something nice ...
Only you have the power to create what ever feelings you want to create.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

Thinking about calling a help line or making a doctor's appointment? You know you'll be able to handle this so much better with some support...
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

Is "haven't left my house" help you?
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

well, you have access to internet.
Find out (google) more knowledge about what you are seeking then.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

So, what's your house like? Let's just chat about the view or the carpet or something.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

I want to help you.
We all do.
There are good people in the world. I'm certain that you're one of them.
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

Dear friend, I would love an update from you, as I'm sure we all would. I've thought of you quite a few times these past couple of weeks.
Life can be so hard and unfair, I know. But it really is possible to reach a better place by sticking in there. You have people here who care; please keep us informed!
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

Hi NeedingHelpASAP!

We all feel depressed... and in some cases, suicidal in one point of life. But, please do not feel alone, as you're not. For a good start (although strangers) we are here to support and guide you through this. I only hope that you start by accepting our help.

I don't expect you to trust me as I am a total stranger, but I sure hope I can help you. At the moment, I am going through an extremely tough time where I live... and a while back, I attempted suicide for the 3rd time in my life. I can't go into it in full detail as it's painful for me to speak about, but please believe me when I tell you I know how it feels.

As for family? Do you have a member of family you can turn to? If not, or they are not supportive (and I know how that feels... all of my family have told me to my face that in their eyes, I am dead. So, although I have a partner, I am technically alone.) then you seriously need to find someone to confide in. Coming here, becoming a member and starting this topic was a very good start... and I am proud of you for that, as I even find it hard to do that! I'm not just saying it to make you feel better.. ok?

Excuse me for a second, my friend...

Sorry guys... this is going to be a long post... please bear with me!!

Right.. back to you, NeedingHelpASAP:

As for not going out (staying indoors)... you need to get yourself out. Don't feel afraid, as NOBODY has the right to make you feel bad. Be yourself.. you don't have to be how OTHER people want you to be. If they don't like you, just think to yourself "Pah! Who asked you?!" and walk away from the person. If they start to say something nasty, ignore it. I know it's going to be difficult, but you'll get there. You are in the same situation now as what I am going through.

Make sure you eat too... if you don't eat properly, you're going to become ill... and you don't want that!

Good luck, and keep on posting here... I am certain any one of us will help you through this........ ok ;)(*8*)
 
Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

Needing Help, I have been where you are presently. I know how dark and bleak existence must seem to you know. I can tell you that it does not have to be like this, and that things can get better for you. There is lots of help available. If you haven't already done so, at the very least go see your doctor or a psychiatrist. The most effective form of treatment for depression is a combination of medication and talk therapy. Medication takes a few weeks to build up in your system, but it really does help. I urge you to not delay seeking treatment.

You're feelings of worthlessness are caused by brain chemistry. It isn't because of something you have done, or because you are a bad person. Treatment will help you feel better about yourself, and when you respect yourself more, others will as well.

Again, the darkness that envelops your world does not need to be there, but you are the only one who has the power to do anything about it. Make that first phone call for help, and I promise you will feel immediate relief because you will know you have begun the process of healing.

Please let us know how you are doing.
 
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