Just finished the second part.
Here you go boys. This one's a bit longer.
“You… you wanna what?” I asked.
“I want to tell our parents about us,” he said.
“Are you serious? Do you have any idea what my parents would say if they knew their only chance for grandchildren now…was gay?”
“Yeah…you’re right,” he said. It was obvious he was upset.
“We could tell your parents if you want, I’m just not ready to tell mine,” I said.
He gave me a half hearted smile and continued to drive.
“Pull over for a minute,” I said.
“Huh?”
“Just pull over.”
We got out of the car and I started smiling at him.
“What’s up Josh?” he asked.
“I know we were going to wait until tonight to exchange gifts, but…”
I pulled a box out of my pocket and handed it to him.
“It’s nothing big but…I thought you would like it,” I said smiling.
He opened the box and smiled at me.
“Is that…?”
“Yeah,” I said.
He kissed me as both of our minds connected for a moment and flew back to the night of our first date.
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Cameron picked up his pants after I hung up my cell phone. He noticed tears in my eyes and stood up.
“What’s wrong Josh?” he asked.
“Alexis is dead,” I said.
“What?!” he asked.
I couldn’t say anything more. My heart sunk down into my stomach. He grabbed me and hugged me. I wanted to cry in his arms, but a part of me just needed to be home. He drove me to my house and walked me into my room where we sat on my bed. He held me and let me cry on his shoulder.
“I left my phone in my car. I’d better go get it in case my mom calls me,” he said.
I lay down onto my pillows and just stared at the wall, trying my hardest not to cry until Cameron came back. It felt like forever before he walked back through my door. He had something in his hand when he walked in. He came over and sat on the bed as I sat up.
“I saw this on the ground next to my car. I figured I should give it to you,” he said.
He dropped a flat rock that was shaped like a heart into my hand. I clutched it and dove back into his chest to cry some more. It wasn’t long before I had fallen asleep. I woke up alone in my room with the rock sitting on my nightstand. Underneath it was a piece of paper.
“Josh,
I’m sorry I had to leave while you were sleeping. My mom called and told me to come home. My heart is yours as long as you have this. I will always love you. If you need ANYTHING, please call me.
Love,
Cameron.”
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“My heart is yours, as long as you have this,” I said.
He pulled the rock out of the box. I had put a string through it to make it a necklace. He put it around his neck and kissed me.
“I can’t believe you kept this,” he said.
“You told me to babe,” I said smiling.
He kissed me again as we got in the car. The rest of the day was the most fun I'd had in a while. We shared a plate of pancakes and sausage, went to see a movie, played at the arcade, and had lunch at my favorite restaurant. The hours flew by fast. It wasn’t long until we were at the hotel room I had reserved for us.
Cameron had gone into the bathroom and I was laying on one of the beds, watching T.V. When he came out he was wearing nothing but silk boxers. He had wet a washcloth and rubbed his torso with it to make his chest and abs glisten in the light.
“You are such an evil, seductive little bottom,” I said.
“Always have been, always will be Joshy boy,” he said.
He walked slowly over towards me and sat on my lap. I reached my hands up to his back, but he slapped them away.
“You’re not supposed to touch yet,” he said.
I just looked at him with sad puppy eyes. He smiled at me and put my hands behind my back. He pushed me onto my back on the bed and pulled up my shirt. I felt his tongue glide up my stomach from my waistband to my chest. As he did this, there was only one thing on my mind, and I still kick myself for breaking this moment.
“Cam…” I said, stopping him.
“What’s wrong?” he asked.
“Were you serious about telling our parents? Do you really want to come out to them?” I asked.
“If it means being with you without sneaking around, I want to tell everyone about us Josh,” he said.
“That’s sweet, Cam. It really is, but…”
“But…what?” He asked.
“I just don’t think I can tell anyone yet. It has nothing to do with you, or us, or what I want us to be. I love you and nothing will change that,” I said.
“Well then why don’t you want to tell anyone?” he asked.
“Because I told Alexis the night before she died.”
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I walked in the door to find Alexis on the couch watching T.V. I had no real intention of telling her what had just happened between Cameron and I, but I felt the need to get it off my chest, and I figured it may as well be my own twin.
“Hey you,” she said as I sat down next to her, “you disappeared after the ceremony. I looked all over for Cameron but he was gone too.”
“Yeah we kinda took off right afterwards,” I said.
“Well you coulda told me, I’d have gone with you guys,” she said lightly hitting my shoulder.
“No, you wouldn’t have,” I said under my breath.
“What?” she asked.
“Nothing.”
“Oh…Alright,” she said.
“No, no it wasn’t nothing. Alexis, there’s something I need to tell you,” I said, “Cameron and I disappeared because he wanted me to meet him at his house right after.”
“Why?” she asked.
“Because…he wanted…to know how I would react…”
“React to what?” she asked looking me deep in the eye.
There was a long pause between us.
“C’mon Josh out with it!” she said.
“He wanted to know how I would react to him being in love with me!” I said.
Once those words escaped my lips, Alexis froze. She stared at me in disbelief for what seemed like forever.
"What?" she asked.
"He loves me...and I love him," I said, more firmly this time.
She stood from the couch and walked out of the room.
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“So what happened, Josh?” Cameron asked.
“She was quiet for a while. Mostly in shock. She wouldn’t talk to me all night. She hardly even looked at me all day. I think she was ashamed of who I turned out to be,” I said as I broke out into tears.
Cameron sat down next to me and held me in his arms.
“Josh…you can’t think like that. Alexis could never be ashamed of you and even if she could, she cared too much about you to give you the silent treatment,” he said.
“I just…don’t know what to think. The only thing I can think of is that I never got a chance to know if she was ok with it. And I don’t want to risk that with my parents,” I said.
“It’s ok,” he said, “But can we at least tell my parents?”
“If you need to,” I said.
…
“Can we do it tonight then?”