Hey Everyone, ok this is going to be hard for me to say, but im just gonna say it anyway, so bear with me.
Basically, I have a really good friend. I met years ago, but never really been good friends with him until mid last year.
Basically, I know for a fact that hes straight. We went on holiday and I shared a room with him and another mate. This was before he knew I was gay. One night, we all seemed to get pretty smashed and I couldnt sleep, so I got up to go to the toilet, completely ignoring him. I came back in, and I couldnt believe my eyes. He was lying on his bed, fast asleep (I could tell he was in a deep sleep, as he was snoring, which he never does unless hes in a deep sleep) and he was lying there with his boxers halfway down his legs. Hes blond, and for some reason I just have a thing about blonds that I love, and its the first time ive seen his cock. It was so nice, nice blond pubes and balls, uncut. Anyway, I walked over and then I thought, what the hell and I doing?
Anyway, I didnt do anything, I decided to just go back to bed and try to ignore it. I stayed awake for a little while just staring, but I managed to go back to sleep.
I never actually mentioned this to him. After we got back, I basically came out to him and told him I was gay (this was back in august) just because I felt I was close enough to him to tell him and he reacted better then I expected. He was really supportive, and he knew it was hard for me, and offered to help me out by telling my other friends for me instead of having to go through it several more times.
Ok, fast forward to the other week, I basically had a little bit of an arguement with him. Basically, I thought he was feeling awkward around me because I was gay, and I didnt feel he felt comfortable. So, I basically had a discussion with him about it. He said that he hasnt done it on purpose, but he does feel a bit awkward cos im the first gay person hes actually ever been friends with. The thing i wanted to tell him most was that there was nothing to be ashamed of, and that he didnt need to feel awkward around me. I told him that he could trust me and I wasnt going to do anything to him. I wanted to tell him about holiday and that I had seen his "body" and that he had nothing to hide, although I didnt feel right to actually say that to his face.
He then said to me alot of people have been telling him that they think I fancy him, even his parents have noticed it. He then asked me outright if I liked him. I didnt have the guts to say yes, as I didnt know how he would react, so I said no, I just thought he was a really good friend, which, on reflection I shouldnt have said, I should have told him the truth.
Anyway, another thing he said to me in that convosation which caught my attention again was when we were speaking (I cant remember what it was about) he said to me "Mate I dont feel awkward, I can sort myself out if I want to". Now to me, I wasnt sure if that was a remark to me saying if he wants me to do something to him sexually, I can, or that if he wanted he could find a girlfriend easily, but it sounds like the first one to me.
Now, 2 weeks later, I really feel like I want to tell him. I cant stop thinking about him, and its starting to hurt now after all these months of keeping it quite, and im really considering telling him. I text him the other day saying "Be honest, do u think I fancie you?" and he said no.
The thing is, I dont know how he will react if I say I do. I really want to tell him, but I equally dont want to loose him as a friend, which is whats holding me back. I have taken a couple of days away from him to think, and the more and more I go along the more and more I want to tell him.
Now, im considering telling him about the time on holiday, saying that he can trust me not to do anything, and I didnt try to suck his cock or anything, but if he wants me to I obviously will (wouldnt any gay man
) but, im also considering saying to him that recently I have really liked him and all I want to do is suck him off. I think he will take that better then if I tell him Ive liked him for a while, but still not sure how he will take it.
What would you guys do? There is only 1 person who knows I like him, and strangely, I decided to tell the person he first lost his virginity to (he hasnt had any sexual encounters since this) and shes been very supportive. Im also considering telling one of my other friends about it before I tell him (who is also in our friendship group) and seeing what he says. I know for a fact that my other friend I want to tell thinks I fancy him, but I just want to get it off my chest. Its been making me really depressed and i want to do something about it, because if it goes on for any longer its going to start hurting me mentally, and I dont want that. I sometimes think that if I just told him and he decided not to speak to me anymore, it could possibly be better, as I know I wouldnt have to face up to seeing him etc and I could just get on with my life, however, if that happened it would be awkward round my other friends if hes not speaking to me.
Advice anyone? What would you do?
Basically, I have a really good friend. I met years ago, but never really been good friends with him until mid last year.
Basically, I know for a fact that hes straight. We went on holiday and I shared a room with him and another mate. This was before he knew I was gay. One night, we all seemed to get pretty smashed and I couldnt sleep, so I got up to go to the toilet, completely ignoring him. I came back in, and I couldnt believe my eyes. He was lying on his bed, fast asleep (I could tell he was in a deep sleep, as he was snoring, which he never does unless hes in a deep sleep) and he was lying there with his boxers halfway down his legs. Hes blond, and for some reason I just have a thing about blonds that I love, and its the first time ive seen his cock. It was so nice, nice blond pubes and balls, uncut. Anyway, I walked over and then I thought, what the hell and I doing?
Anyway, I didnt do anything, I decided to just go back to bed and try to ignore it. I stayed awake for a little while just staring, but I managed to go back to sleep.
I never actually mentioned this to him. After we got back, I basically came out to him and told him I was gay (this was back in august) just because I felt I was close enough to him to tell him and he reacted better then I expected. He was really supportive, and he knew it was hard for me, and offered to help me out by telling my other friends for me instead of having to go through it several more times.
Ok, fast forward to the other week, I basically had a little bit of an arguement with him. Basically, I thought he was feeling awkward around me because I was gay, and I didnt feel he felt comfortable. So, I basically had a discussion with him about it. He said that he hasnt done it on purpose, but he does feel a bit awkward cos im the first gay person hes actually ever been friends with. The thing i wanted to tell him most was that there was nothing to be ashamed of, and that he didnt need to feel awkward around me. I told him that he could trust me and I wasnt going to do anything to him. I wanted to tell him about holiday and that I had seen his "body" and that he had nothing to hide, although I didnt feel right to actually say that to his face.
He then said to me alot of people have been telling him that they think I fancy him, even his parents have noticed it. He then asked me outright if I liked him. I didnt have the guts to say yes, as I didnt know how he would react, so I said no, I just thought he was a really good friend, which, on reflection I shouldnt have said, I should have told him the truth.
Anyway, another thing he said to me in that convosation which caught my attention again was when we were speaking (I cant remember what it was about) he said to me "Mate I dont feel awkward, I can sort myself out if I want to". Now to me, I wasnt sure if that was a remark to me saying if he wants me to do something to him sexually, I can, or that if he wanted he could find a girlfriend easily, but it sounds like the first one to me.
Now, 2 weeks later, I really feel like I want to tell him. I cant stop thinking about him, and its starting to hurt now after all these months of keeping it quite, and im really considering telling him. I text him the other day saying "Be honest, do u think I fancie you?" and he said no.
The thing is, I dont know how he will react if I say I do. I really want to tell him, but I equally dont want to loose him as a friend, which is whats holding me back. I have taken a couple of days away from him to think, and the more and more I go along the more and more I want to tell him.
Now, im considering telling him about the time on holiday, saying that he can trust me not to do anything, and I didnt try to suck his cock or anything, but if he wants me to I obviously will (wouldnt any gay man
) but, im also considering saying to him that recently I have really liked him and all I want to do is suck him off. I think he will take that better then if I tell him Ive liked him for a while, but still not sure how he will take it. What would you guys do? There is only 1 person who knows I like him, and strangely, I decided to tell the person he first lost his virginity to (he hasnt had any sexual encounters since this) and shes been very supportive. Im also considering telling one of my other friends about it before I tell him (who is also in our friendship group) and seeing what he says. I know for a fact that my other friend I want to tell thinks I fancy him, but I just want to get it off my chest. Its been making me really depressed and i want to do something about it, because if it goes on for any longer its going to start hurting me mentally, and I dont want that. I sometimes think that if I just told him and he decided not to speak to me anymore, it could possibly be better, as I know I wouldnt have to face up to seeing him etc and I could just get on with my life, however, if that happened it would be awkward round my other friends if hes not speaking to me.
Advice anyone? What would you do?
Sure that's not what it sounds like to you because that's what you want him to mean? Sounds to me that he's either a) talking about finding a girlfriend or b) talking about jacking himself off.
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and you are still his friend.... (which means you haven't said anything...) he will come to you first! 
