Re: If you died tomorrow, would JUB receive the ne
I actually did stop going to a forum that was close to me for a year because of complications and me growing/falling and when I came back on messenger first people were like "OMFG YOUR ALIVE?"
I have about two people who are very close to me.
One is a girl whom I've known for a few years online and we are pretty close and I trust her alot. We've bothed helped each other from to time and I she used to be the only one who really cared about me.
Me and her are very much alike. The other person is my ex. His love for me is stronger then my parents. And I know I love him more then my parents or more then I've loved anything. I think in another life we could be together. But for now we just gotta wait and see what happens in 4 years. I might meet someone else. I know that he would cry if I died and be sad. But he wouldn't stop living. I wouldn't want him to.
But I think those are the two people who would really care. Sure some people at YP say they will miss me when I go off to college but I'd just be another face to them. Same as the people in some social groups. While it's true I am slowly making more friends and trying to be more social and human I have only made 2 true connections.
While I am really not as concerned with myself and doubt many would care if I died. It would actually make alot of people happy.
There are many faces that I see everyday that I'd really hate to see disappear.
And there are lots of JUBBERS on here whom I hope to see for a long time unless they take a break or something. I might not act like I care about people but I really do. Just don't really know how to show it. I'm sure there are others like that. I was like that in high school alot.
I don't really know why I am like this. But it doesn't matter. I really doubt this world will last much longer anyways.
In some ways I'd rather have everyone I know just leave and never be able to see them again and know that they are still alive. Then them being here and dying shortly after. If that makes any sense.
Well oh well. Gonna finally get out of this shit hole soon.
Then in a sense i can leave everything but be alive.
But I think I might actually have someone from jub in my address book.
I am sure though that if I die I'm taking my phone with me
But then again my computer has my contact.
I don't really think anyone would take the time to do any of that. But people are full of surprises.
I think for the most part if someone doesn't come on this forum anymore whether they are dead or busy they are happier.
But who knows.
I should stop talking now.