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Chapter Forty-Seven
I was only semi-awake when Frank whispered he was taking Merle back to the country. The room was beautifully cool with the window open and quiet. The rest of the household must still be asleep, I decided. I had to wonder if Frank and I were the only people who actually had jobs. After a few more moments of luxury in bed, spent thinking about Frank, I got up and hurried into a hot shower.
Last night was the first time in … how long? How long had it been since we went a whole night without sex? The amazing part was I felt just as good. Proximity wasn't totally satisfying, of course, but just being there, wherever Frank was, meant a lot of contentment.
Tip-toeing my way to the kitchen, I surveyed the scene in the living room. Carter and Lucien were on the air mattress, sleeping peacefully with Lucien's arm very possessively draped over Carter. That was new. And on the sofa there was Jeremy with Euie behind jammed in behind him. What? Wait! Euie didn't have a fuzzy mop of hair. I looked more closely at the hidden body. An eye opened.
“Yo, Refo,” the voice called softly.
“Jawan??? When did you get here? Never mind, I don't have time ...” I gulped some orange juice, swished it around like mouthwash, and wondered where the hell Euie had gone. Maybe back to Delaware, or into the arms of Arcuri, or up the chimney in his Christmas underwear like Santa Claus. I left the glass in the sink and got my coat. I needed to get to the lab early to work on my paper.
“Refo,” Stan whispered urgently from his part of the house, as I was about to exit our common front door.
“Stan, don't worry. The dog is gone.”
He shook his head dismissing that problem. “How often do you get tested for AIDS?”
“What?” What kind of question was that? And then I saw a flash of “Everyday is Christmas” underwear in Stan's hallway.
“Hey, Reef!” Euie called out brightly.
“You fucked Euie? I thought you were straight!” I whispered.
“Not exactly. How often?” Stan hissed urgently.
“Not exactly about the fucking or about being straight?” He just glared at me. “Not very often. Every few months. I can do it myself at work. You need a test?”
Before Stan could answer Euie joined him at the door in the red underpants and a t-shirt. “What's so important at this hour, huh?”
“Just talking about the dog, Euie. I'll see you after work, Stan.” I turned and left.
I shouldn't have rushed to work. Not only was the Mazda making expensive-sounding noises again, but a fiendish Sarah Felsen was already there, lying in wait, ready to gloat.
“ 'S up, oh creature of the night?” I greeted her.
“If you're referring to Woodie, he's a little problem, well, not so little, if you know what I mean. But you, Refo. You have bigger problems – MUCH bigger.” She leered ominously. My only consolation was the knowledge that every day she was growing older and pretty soon those lush boobs would be down around her knees and on that day she would need a steel-belted brassiere to hold them up.
“Do they even make steel-belted brassieres?” I wondered aloud.
“Hah!” She retorted reading my mind and pushing out her chest. “Check out the latest Nature in PubMed.” It sounded like a challenge.
I called up the data base and scanned the table of contents of the prestigious journal. My heart sank. A Japanese lab had published ahead of me. I scanned the abstract and then read it carefully. Their paper was so much more elegant than mine, more comprehensive, with better data, answering questions I hadn't even thought of yet and indicating paths for further inquiry. And you can bet the Japanese were already far down those paths.
“So, Refo, saggy tits are a minor matter compared to no professional future, wouldn't you say? God! And I almost married you.” Her used her cackling laugh, sounding like the Witch Hazel on MDMA.
Wouldn't you think an aborted pregnancy would make a person more compassionate? In Sarah Felsen's case it was embittering. Cue Woodie to come in at that moment all cow-eyed and worshipful. He headed directly for Sarah Felsen. I might as well not have been there.
“I can't find Carter; but I'll tell him today, Sarah. I promise. It won't be so bad. I can see that now. We can make it work.”
I watched him leave. “What sordid compromise have you forced him into?”
“A series of interdependencies among four adults, all leading to universal harmony,” she cooed.
“All leading to you, you mean.”
“Same thing, Refo. Same thing ...” She breezed out of the lab humming some tuneless hellish anthem.
She left me a mess. The critical wound wasn't just that I had been beaten into print - it was much worse; and if Sarah Felsen could figure it out, everybody else would see it, too. The fact was that Japanese paper was immeasurable better than mine was or ever would be, no matter how many revisions I went through, no matter how much extra data I appended, no matter how visionary my conclusions might be. My paper represented competent research; theirs was an almost sublime contribution to science.
I went to see my boss. “Arnold ...” I began.
“Perhaps you should call me Dr. Bloch,” he said. “The new clinical director is interested in putting a little distance between senior staff and fellows.”
“I'm not a fellow. I'm tenured, Dr. Bloch.”
“Really? Are you sure, Reno? Or is it Rollo?”
“How about Dr. Fitzjohn? Would that establish the right distance?” I shouldn't have said it. I knew it before the words were even uttered. This was not going well at all.
“Yes, I see. Well, what is it you NEED, Doctor?” He emphasized that fact I needed something, not him.
“I wanted to let you know that a lab in Japan has beaten me to print.”
“Oh, that. Yes, I knew, Dr. Takeda called last week to tell me.”
“And you never told me?”
“You weren't here, Doctor. There was 'something more pressing' you told my secretary.”
“There was, actually ...”
“So, is there anything else?”
There wasn't and I left. His secretary gave me a pitying look and a little smile. “At least he didn't call you Rocco again,” she consoled.
Glum would be painting my mood wildly better than it was. As I approached the coffee machine, I caught the tail end of an annoying conversation.
“So I figure it'll be ok, you know, … now and then. Sex is sex, right? It's all good, right?” a very uncertain Woodie said to Carter.
“No it isn't all good,” I butted in. “Compromise sex is about as good as this coffee machine.”
“I'm getting tea,” Carter said giving me a warning glance. “The tea is pretty good.”
“So you're gonna let Lucien and Carter fuck you so you can fuck Sarah? Is that the deal?” I said to Woodie.
“Fuck me? Who said anything about fuckin' me? Sarah said I'd be fuckin' them! ” Woodie was astonished.
“Well, the first time, maybe ...” Carter temporized.
“Nobody's fuckin' ME!” Woodie was adamant.
“Woodie, it's not that big a deal,” Carter suggested.
“IT IS! It's a HUGE deal!” Woodie sputtered briefly. “I'm talking to Sarah!”
“Sorry,” I said to Carter.
“I told Sarah it was a risky negotiation,” Carter shrugged. “Now Lucien will jump the track and Sarah is SO demanding ...”
“Carter …” I began. “Never mind – another time.” I wanted to ask him about how things were really going with Lucien, but the time didn't seem right. I punched double latte with milk and took the cup back to the lab. The cup's content proved to be some kind of ramen soup; but it tasted pretty good - too salty, perhaps, but probably better than the latte would have been.
“Not a word, Sarah,” I warned her as I entered the lab.
“Rugs,” she said. “Rugs … ok to talk rugs?” She pulled up next to me and opened a folder. “Look at these. Wouldn't they look great in a barn?” She was suddenly full of charm and it was working.
I had to admit any of the rugs she had selected would look great in Frank's bedroom. “What about Woodie? He's pissed?”
“Let's say you didn't help matters. But I can handle Woodie. And if he complains I'll smother him with my saggy boobs. Now, look at this Tabriz, Refo. You couldn't go wrong with this. The abstract floral is perfect for the country, don't you think?”
She was right. I ordered two five-by-eights from her cousin. I had to smile as I listened to her extract a commission. She didn't want cash, though; she accepted a small silk rug for her boudoir, as she called it. Spider's web would have been more accurate.
I spent the rest of the day trying to see if I could salvage something from my work. A supporting paper, amplifying the work of the Japanese was a possibility. It wouldn't make me famous, but people would know that my work was original if I could publish soon enough, not just a derivative spin-off from the Japanese paper.
I mapped out a couple of possible papers but still felt shitty. I left for the day a little sooner than I normally would have and wanted a shower and a drink before driving out to the barn. I could make it in time for a late dinner and bury my pain in the company of Frank and Merle. I chuckled to myself. And Merle? Had that goofy dog really wormed his way into my affections so quickly?
“Refo,” Stan hissed.
“Oh, Stan, right. You want to have a drink and we can talk?” He followed me upstairs and I poured a couple of single malts into the last clean glasses in the house. We sipped. He started his story slowly.
“Awesome photos, Refo.” Stan admired Carter and Lucien as depicted on my wall. “And Frank. I recognize him.”
“I thought you were straight, Stan.” Cut to the chase, I figured.
“Mmm, yeah. That wasn't working out so well. As in I was never getting laid. What's the point of being straight if all you do is jack off?” He sipped. “And here you were with hot boys running in and out all the time, getting way more sex in a week than I was in a year. The walls aren't very thick you know. And everybody up here was loving it. And I just got hornier and hornier every night, you know that feeling? No, I'd say you don't that feeling.” He chuckled again and sipped again. “This is good stuff.” He paused while deciding what to tell me. “So last night, when the guy with the Delaware plates was leaving, I stopped him and asked if he was driving to Delaware. We got a little chat going and well … he stayed over.”
“You had sex?”
“It was a lot easier than I thought it would be. Not too weird at all, really. And then, when it was over, I thought, what about precautions? We didn't use any.”
“Well, it's a fairly minimal risk if all you did was fuck him.” I waited for Stan's agreement that that was all they did. He didn't say anything. “So, uh, he fucked you?”
“We more or less did everything, Refo, except I don't think I'm into cocksucking at all.”
I nodded sympathetically. “It takes practice.”
“But what about disease?”
“Lesson one, Stan: You should have taken precautions. But Euie is new at this himself - plus he's a veterinarian. He's well aware of disease and risky behavior and stuff like that. I think you're safe with him; but still, if you're concerned, get tested. You'll have to wait a couple of weeks for the cheap test to be effective.”
“He's coming back this weekend. What should I do?”
“Stan, you dog, you ...” He actually blushed at my words and I'm pretty sure he's over fifty. “Talk to him about it. There's an RNA test that's effective after a week.” No need to bring up Euie's engagement, let Euie do that, I decided. We stood. Impulsively, Stan hugged me and then went downstairs. I felt good about the hug; simple human contact is amazingly restorative. It was the first time all day that I felt even a little bit good since reading the Japanese paper.
The drive to the barn went by quickly, probably because my mind was turning over a thousand things. Was Dr. Bloch pissed? We'll take that as given. How pissed? Was my tenure iron-tight? Since it involved the civil service, I had a feeling it wasn't. Government loopholes always have their own loopholes.
My phone buzzed a text message, but once I saw it wasn't from Frank I ignored it. I drove a little faster and listened to the hum of the Mazda. Was there a little ticking somewhere inside that hum? An expensive sounding ticking? Like a new transmission needed ticking? My ears played tag with the sound. Sometimes, I could count the ticks and sometimes I couldn't hear it at all. Maybe I could ask Butch about it.
Merle greeted me extravagantly, as if my mere presence had made his day. Dogs are nice to have around – good for the ego. Frank was even better. He picked me up off my feet and nearly squeezed the breath out of me.
“I have missed you all day, Reef. I just felt a vague absence, like I should have been near you. Did anything terrible happen?”
“Nope. Nothing,” I told him wondering how big a lie that would make. His smile in return told me it was no lie at all. Frank mattered more than any job trouble and Frank was here and Frank was fine. And thus there couldn't be any trouble. “You want an asparagus frittata?” I offered.
“Good. I was worried. Not sure why. Yes, to the frittata.” He hugged me again and kissed me. “Actually I was worried because of something Butch said. I guess he and Mike are having problems.”
“How can those two be having problems? With what?”
“Oh, you know, the usual things. Love, sex, and money.” Frank grinned at me.
I laughed but I had a feeling Frank was serious. “Well, they'll work it out, I guess. Love, sex, and money,” I mused. “That covers about everything … which reminds me. I got you a present today.”
“Really? What?”
“It's coming this weekend. You'll have to wait.”
I poured the eggs into the pan and relaxed while Frank came up behind me and kissed my neck. “You know I hate waiting.” He wrapped his arms around my waist and pushed his pelvis against me. I could feel every contour of his body.
“Frank, the eggs … Wait ...” But we didn't wait. About a half hour later Merle got the eggs for his dinner and I made a fresh batch for Frank. While we waited, I glanced at my phone. The text message I had ignored was still highlighted.
It was straightforward. “Interested in taking pix of pigs? Call M. Grimsby” A few simple English words, but I had no idea what it meant.