Jess' Story -- I Thought I Knew, Book 3

[Friend1720]

Friend1720 --- If that little snippet of an interaction has so throughly captured your attention, I can't imagine what your reaction to the rest of this project will be, but I hope you will be totally captivated. Please keep up your reporting. I love seeing comment like t his. Now read on and stay happy. And stay hard!

-- H.R.

Will try to keep following along and letting whatever happens move me appropriately

 

[Friend1720]

“I’m kinda nothing. I’m really undeclared. I like some girls. I like some guys. It just doesn’t matter to me like it does to some people. I am attracted to people I like,” I said.

“I never heard of such a thing,” she said with a hint of disapproval. My stomach sank. Anne was probably not the right person to have asked, I thought as I walked out of her room.

I know what he's feeling. That revelation to an other .... And the ambiguity ... been there. Looking forward to how this develops, especially with Paul, or at least the idea of Paul.

 

[Friend1720]

I smiled at him and he smiled back. My image of the guy started to fade and I needed to sit down and catch my breath. I think maybe I was so into jacking off that I forgot to breathe.

I tried to recapture the images I had just conjured to get myself off, but they were already a jumble that didn’t make much sense. Nothing made much sense. What was Anne up to? And who was that kid? I had to know.

Awesome chapter ... really caught me. Two guys actually moving in the same direction with no idea what the other is doing. Desire and reality coming so close to each other and yet missing. Will this move on to mutual discovery?? How does Anne fit in?? I am eager to discover what happens next!

 

[Friend1720]

Then feelings of regret and loneliness started to creep inside my head. I didn’t want another Tolley. I didn’t want another Billy. And if I kept thinking the way I was thinking then, that’s what I would end up with. Nothing! Nothing but a limp cock and my cooling cum.

If there really was a chance with Paul, and I didn’t really think there was, I had to change. But how? I started thinking and found . . . found it wasn’t easy. Sex was easy. Changing, that was hard.

That was certainly moving. So powerful, but ending with regret and loneliness!! The anguish, the testosterone, the passion, then pain. There has to be a "happy ending" better than this. Eagerly wishing to know more. Jess, I feel for you ... oops, meant that I am so much desiring ... hmmm ... well, I want you to be whole. I look forward to the time of healing ... please???

 

[hornyalltime]

This is SUCH a hot read! I can't stop rereading!!!

 

[Friend1720]

Things were starting to become clearer for me. Reading “I Thought I Knew” in high school had given me hope, made me feel I was not alone. It had changed my life. I guess in a way I thought I knew that HardReader’s story was about to change my life once again.

I was older now. I realized that story had taught me an important lesson. I was responsible for myself. I needed to create my own future. I needed to find my own Jess. Even though he couldn’t be the Jess I had dreamed of when I was younger, he could be my Jess. I had the chance to make it happen. I could make it happen. I would make it happen!

Realizing that the "real" Jess was your choice, your understanding of who you are. That must have indeed been a wonderful moment. I hope that such is still the case. Of course I did not mind at all the steamy cumming to that realization I look forward to more of this saga. in more ways than one.

 

[Friend1720]

Honesty and friendship.

“I don’t know a thing about cars either, but if you want a little company while you look, I can join you.”

He smiled. I smiled back. We each paid for our own lunch. This could work. I just needed to relax. This could really work.

As awkward as it seemed, it was also so sweet!! I loved it. Really wish I could have been a fly on the wall, or maybe the guy they are going to talk to about a car. Anything to stay in their presence. What is this warm fuzzy feeling I have for them. I want to laugh, I want to shout, I want to give them both the biggest warmest hug ... sigh!

Thank you both ... Jess and Paul (and HR). This is a wonderful journey!

 

[Friend1720]

Finally Jess moved beside me, putting a pillow behind his head. I realized this moment was ending. Our moment. My first time. I rolled toward Jess and hugged him hard. He leaned into my hug, but didn’t return it.

I rolled back and lay by his side, as I started to wonder why he had been so passive most of the night. Willing, accepting, but always the receiver. Never the giver. What was that about? Was that what Jess had become? Or was this a different Jess? Was that possible?

I didn’t want to think about it. I wanted to enjoy our time together as our bodies cooled and relaxed beside each other's.

It was a night to remember. I’d done what I’d set out to do and I didn’t regret it. I hoped I wouldn’t tomorrow, but I couldn’t really believe I would.

Omigosh! Omigush! Wow! I could feel everything ... results not as dramatic, but wow! Amazing!

 

[Friend1720]

OMFG!!! I made a Big mistake by reading this latest chapter while still wearing my boxers and sweats! And, I'm not just talkin' "Wet Spot"!!! "Animal" pulsed so HARD that NOW I've got HUGE, messy, GLOBS, to clean up!!! (And, I didn't even have to TOUCH "Him"!!!) WOWF! and Whew!! ("We" don't have a Smilie BIG enough to describe the Splatter!!) !!!

How the HELL did you do that????

You expressed everything I was incapable of saying! Awesome!

I need some Oxygen!! I need to clean this "Mess" UP!! I've got to take some Vitamins!! Holy Jesus FUCK, hr, Paul and Jess!!

You've really gotta Stop this! (NO! Don't you DARE!) This is like FUCKIN' KRYPTONITE!!!

Keep smilin'!!
Chaz

You said everything I was thinking/feeling and was unable to express!! Awesome!

 

[Friend1720]

I turned to see if he was OK with what had just happened. I saw him, eyes closed, but a contented look on his face. I kissed him and began to lick the cum from his face. My cum. The first I had shared with him. But I was sure it would not be the last.

I finally let myself go completely. Let myself do just what I wanted to do. I kissed him deeply, sharing the cum I had just licked from his face. My cum. Playing with it in our mouths. He was almost passive, in a cozy relaxed sort of way. Finally I rolled over and lay beside him. I savored my cum one last time and swallowed.

Thank you, Jess. Your tender response to Paul moved me deeply. I kind of figured you wanted him to be in charge, I failed to see why it was so important to you. I have a much deeper respect for you now. I also envy what happened between you two. Thank you!

 

[DonQuixote]

Friend,
I was on vacation last week, and didn't have a chance to get out here, but I saw some of your posts in my email notifications.
I am SO enjoying your discovery of Jess and Paul and their budding love.

It brings back all of those emotions so delectably echoed by Chaz - our KY Animal!

 

[Friend1720]

As we lay blissfully together, all I could think to say was, “I have so much more to show you.”

“I’m sure you do,” he said, his eyes opening again. And we kissed. ...

OMG! I could almost feel every twitch and spasm! And so tender! You guys discovered something awesomely splendid! Thank you so very much for sharing this.

 

[Friend1720]

“Got a favorite place to find gay porn to read?”

With that question I rolled onto my back, Staring at the ceiling. I don’t remember exactly what was in my head at that moment but I probably couldn’t bring myself to look into Jess’ face when I said the words. “Yeah, I really like some of the stories at JustUsBoys.” My confidence was wavering, but I’d said it.

Jess was silent for a long time and so was I.

AAAAARRRGG!! No, no, no .... it's not supposed to end with suspicion and dread! Help! I'm going to cry, just after having, again, a most uplifting session! :

 

[hardreader]

So much revived interest in "Jess' Story"! It's wonderful to see. There is not only the insightful and entertaining posts (almost chapter by chapter} from Friend1720, but also HornyAllTime's brief comment that makes a wonderful promo for this project: "This is SUCH a hot read! I can't stop rereading!!!"

I have heard through PMs from a few others also making their ways through "Jess' Story." Plus the number of views has been climbing steadily of late.

Thanks to all of you for your interest and, if you haven't left a comment yet, please consider sharing your thoughts with others enjoying the project.

Stay happy. And stay hard!

-- H.R.

 

[DonQuixote]

Friend,
I have to find the time to start at the very beginning - a very good place to start.
I can picture the scene you just mentioned - but since I am not currently reading, I'm not sure what is exactly where so I can only react to your reactions!

It was absolutely fantastic reading it as it played out - and occasionally hearing from one of the boys.

Man I wish another author were still around - his story got lost in an upgrade. He and HR played with each other behind the scenes and decided to share their musings with the rest of us. Tantiboh was his name, sexploits was his game...

 

[Friend1720]

“Can’t I talk to you . . . face to face?”

“Tell me what you have to say, or I’m hanging up and that’s the end of it!”

There was a long pause.

“I should have told you right away, but I didn’t know how. I know who you are. I know about your story. I’ve read it. And I think I love you.”

I remember it was like a bullet piercing my brain. Pain. The words actually hurt. My head hurt and I felt dizzy. I think I hung up without saying anything. Just hung up. I’m not proud of that moment, but that’s what I did. Paul said he loved me and I hung up the phone.

Throughout my life there have been similar instances ... not as dramatic and heart wrenching ... I'm sure others have experienced the moments of doubt and confusion that can arise when the integrity of someone you'd learned to trust was "bent" a little, then everything get heavy examination, the relationship is awkward until trust returns ... never until the first "bump" is somehow resolved, even if that means simply forgotten. In thoughts of love these blips can become mountains, and that is what you are experiencing Jess. When you and Paul resolve the blip, bump, whatever, things will naturally repair. I look forward to seeing how you accomplish it. Good guys. Love reading about you. Many lessons to be learned, much love to explore ... and then there IS the sex

 

[Friend1720]

Instead I smiled my special smile. The one I had reserved for Billy for so many years. My best smile. And I said, “Paul, I . . .”

I stopped myself and thought for a moment.

“Paul, you’re the best.” That was enough.

Reality is so much better than supposition!! Congratulations Jess and Paul for moving into a more comfortable re-imagining of who you are for each other. Gives me goose bumps! Bravo HR in your presentation, especially the reminder that much has been telescoped to maintain the story ... the real people there OK, but not just as presented ... much more complex. Very good read.

 

[Friend1720]

I so wanted to tell him I . . . but I didn’t. He’d told me not to. He didn’t tell me either.

But I felt it. It was like it was all around us, but we couldn’t say it for fear of wrecking it. We had to move forward carefully.

As I lay cuddled behind Jess, I though we’d done pretty good today.

“You’re the best,” Jess said and moment later we had both drifted off.

I am awash with emotion. Tears of joy flowing down my cheeks. It is so beautiful what you two have together! What else can I say ....

HR, your writing style is killer good!

 

[hardreader]

Friend,
I have to find the time to start at the very beginning - a very good place to start.
I can picture the scene you just mentioned - but since I am not currently reading, I'm not sure what is exactly where so I can only react to your reactions!

It was absolutely fantastic reading it as it played out - and occasionally hearing from one of the boys.

Man I wish another author were still around - his story got lost in an upgrade. He and HR played with each other behind the scenes and decided to share their musings with the rest of us. Tantiboh was his name, sexploits was his game...

Tantiboh can still be found. The story was call Two Private Fantasies and is still accessible through this link. We really did enjoy pushing each other's buttons. It was never meant as a story to be posted, but with a little extra work from each of us it has its appeal.

 

[DonQuixote]

Thanks for that, HR. I was also thinking about Trevor's Story - do you have a link to that as well?
I tried to go back every so often and bump them so they were nearer to the top.