Jess' Story -- I Thought I Knew, Book 3

[Friend1720]

I opened my mouth as I kissed Paul and struggled with myself to tell him I
thought I was falling in love with him.

I pulled away from our kiss and looked into his eyes. I wanted to speak, but couldn’t seem to find the words.

Paul was staring so hard back at me as though waiting for me to speak.

Finally Paul spoke filling the silence between us. “I know. I know. Thank you.” And he took me in his arms and held me.

I am beside myself ... Do I laugh?, do I cry?, do I shout?, do I stay silent? I am so happy for you two!!

I so wish that my own life had at least some of that when I was so much younger! Passion with real tenderness! Awesome!!!!

 

[Friend1720]

His response was so simple I found it hard to argue. "If it's "Jess' Story," then Jess should get to decide these things." In the end I was outvoted 2 to 1.

So that is how it seems it's going to. Regardless, until next week's episode (whatever it is)

Hahahahaha! I love it! Jess and Paul, it is your story ... wow, the last chapter!! Whew! Whew! HR I look forward to seeing into a small window of the you that is you. I'm sure it will be wonderful ... er weird ... er wild ... warped! Love ya!

 

[DonQuixote]

The devilish delights we get to *share* vicariously as Jess cums into his own full glory!

 

[Friend1720]

HR: If they are truly the two they seem to be, adding you in will simply sweeten the plot. I would have traded places with you, but while this was being written I don't think it would have crossed my mind. I look forward to this tiny window into "HR".

 

[Friend1720]

H.R. finally stopped staring at my wood and looked at Jess saying, “Now I see why you like him so much. I think I’ll like him too.”

My head fell back in embarrassment and shame. I didn’t want to look or speak to either of them. I wanted to vanish and never be seen again.

“Come on in and make yourselves comfortable,” Hardreader said in the most casual of tones as he turned away to lead us inside. He acted as though guys with boners showed up at his door everyday. “What can I get you to drink?”

Books are never quite the same as their covers. I am happy to note that you, HR, did not measure up to Paul's expectations. Mine either. I was thinking darkly handsome and sexually alluring. Nothing evil, just oozing animal magnetism. I'll bet it's actually true but Paul has not noticed because his expectations were so skewed.

Looking forward to more windows ... maybe I need to be better at reading between the lines. What State are you actually in?? I am in Oregon, so things don't always move the same as the rest of the continent.

 

[hardreader]

Thanks for that, HR. I was also thinking about Trevor's Story - do you have a link to that as well?
I tried to go back every so often and bump them so they were nearer to the top.

Click the title here to go to Trevor's Story ... one of the best ever posted on JUB!

 

[DonQuixote]

Thank you so much. I thought it had been lost. I did a complete re-edit with Tantiboh at his request.
I think there are still some errors in there, but yeah, along with your boys' stories and a very few others, it if a great story.

 

[hardreader]

Books are never quite the same as their covers. I am happy to note that you, HR, did not measure up to Paul's expectations. Mine either. I was thinking darkly handsome and sexually alluring. Nothing evil, just oozing animal magnetism. I'll bet it's actually true but Paul has not noticed because his expectations were so skewed.

Don't get your hopes up. I was never meant to be the star of an erotic novel. And writing about myself, especially together with one of my friends, was an incredibly difficult task.

And don't keep me in suspense. I have always been hypersensitive about how I come across in this book. Jess and Paul both held me to the same standards I used when writing about them. It certainly wasn't easy or fun to write about. I much preferred living the real life adventure with them than reporting on it. So how did I do?

-- H.R.

 

[Friend1720]

As H.R. casually handled my cock I quickly got hard because I was already worked up over him and all he has meant to me for years of reading “I Thought I Knew.” Who knows all the other reasons I was hard. I guess I have to admit, even though he is going to be the one to write this, that he is pretty sexy for a guy his age. Anyway, he had me plenty hard in like a minute. And I was happy. Really happy.

Between the awesome condo, the spectacular views and the obvious sexual tension, what's not to like about this encounter with HR? Of course I am not certain I would find "for a guy his age" terribly appealing if I were, say, 35 or so. At my age I would really feel great! Swim trunks are certainly interesting .... more later, I'm sure.

 

[hardreader]

Friend1720 -- Since Jess and Justin and especially Billy said essentially the same thing about and even to me too many times to count, it was something I'd learned to just let slide off of me. There are more important things to focus on.

 

[Friend1720]

I looked at Jess to see if he was OK with what I had just done. He was still smiling up at me. “What are we going to do about you?” I asked him. “You want me to suck you now?”

“I already came,” Jess said. “All over your legs.” He leaned away from me so I could see. My leg was covered with his dripping cum. His own abs and chest splattered too. Our mess was far bigger than I had known.

“I’m sorry,” I said and I meant it. “I would have . . .” He put a single finger to my lips to silence me.

“No. You have no need to be sorry. I love you,” he said.

Those words almost stopped my heart from beating. When I recovered from my shock I said with all sincerity, “And I love you more than you’ll ever know.”

HR: You had me going ... I most certainly would have liked to be a fly on the wall during the whole episode from the arrival of Karl through the above quote. Even better to have been a participant (not that there wasn't some visceral participation from afar).

Paul and Jess: You are amazing! To be so in love and be able to show it in every thing you say and do! Alas, not so with me, but certainly enjoy virtual reality and the dancing of my mind and heart, and ...

Thank you for making these insights possible. I now continue to journey with you through your story. Ah! To be there!

 

[DonQuixote]

The classic white speedos and yes, the hot passion, including Karl and Paul on the couch.
What an erotic rocket launch, indeed!

 

[Friend1720]

“But it wasn’t what I expected. It was just sex. I mean no emotion or excitement. It was like jacking off alone, only I was using his hole instead of my hand. Don’t get me wrong; it felt a hell of a lot better than just jerking off. I know you’ve never been inside a guy like that, but even a bad fuck is incredible. The way it makes your cock feel. Oh my god! But what was going on in my head was about the same as if I was jerking off alone.

Just sex ... in a way I can feel with him on this. If there is no real connection, what is the essential difference between sex with another and jerking off?? Of course this is in the midst of a conversation between Jess and Paul, so there are all sorts of other emotional responses being triggered.

Thank you again for wonderful writing about characters we can care for! Thank you Jess and Paul for sharing so much intimate detail.

 

[Friend1720]

I thank you all, once again, for being willing to share these most intimate of emotions and actions with us.

HR, this cuts a lot closer to home than any of your previous forays into biographical erotica. It undresses you and shares your intimate moments
with the world. Thank you for allowing this openness.

I know, for an almost speechless guy, I put a helluva lot of words on the e-page, lol.

Amen to all the above!! Bravo!

 

[Friend1720]

rain09 – “If anything turns me on, it's kissing, caressing, and just the kind of love and mutual attraction I see between Jess and Paul.

That is the passion I like to see/experience. Can't get enough of it. Envy of Paul and Jess is deep. Admiration is even deeper.

 

[Friend1720]

I heard Jess asked, “Can I try yours?” But I didn’t know what he meant. I only understood when he stepped behind me and pulled my right hand out of my pocket. Slid both of his hands deep into my jerk-off pockets. And started stroking me with his right hand and caressing and playing with my nuts with his left. Oh my god! That felt even better. I was getting so close. My breath was catching. My toes were curled. My nuts were tight.

I'll never complain about pjs again! Do they really exist?? Where??

 

[Friend1720]

I so much want to be Whoopie Goldberg in "Ghost" as Patrick Swayze enters her body -- only to be inside your corporeal body as you made love to Jess for the first time - to experience the full range of emotions and feelings - phsychological and physical both.

That quote had me going, but then I read the next chapter.

I think I am going to have to ask for some of those heart pills mentioned so much earlier!! Now is the time for those .... WOW!

Oh, to be Paul ... or to be Jess!!

 

[Friend1720]

I only wish the night had ended right then. It should have, but it didn’t.

Aaaargh! You cannot do this ....

 

[Friend1720]

I just couldn’t do it this way. Paul had tensed up completely. As much as his images of our perfect first night together demanded that we do this, his body didn’t agree.

I pulled back and looking down at him, I said as gently as I could, “I can’t. Not till you’re ready. I don’t want to hurt you.”

Paul began to cry.

So tender on Jess' part and so tragic in the abrupt end of what was so beautiful. I'm floored!

 

[hardreader]

Friend1720 -- You can't say I didn't warn you that real life doesn't often play out the way fairytales do? But then you already know that. BTW, Rain09, whom you quoted a few comments earlier, was one of the nicest young guys I ever chatted with working on this project. I feel certain you related to his comment because you two have so much in common that outsiders would never guess.

As for thePJs with jerk-ff pockets, I am virtually certain they no longer make than and haven't for some years. But they were fantastic, as described by Paul. I can't believe they weren't a great success. I think what they lacked was a good marketing device like battery-powered vibrators demonstrated in TV ads by women stroking them against their cheeks. They never said how they were really intended to be used, but everyone understood. How to do the same for jerk-off pockets?