just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[darden]

thank god my neighbor's put up a privacy fence this winter... that was the absolute worst last summer.

me and my neighbor's backyards both border the backyard of a bar with outdoor seating in back. when the guys come early in the morning to clean up from the night before, my neighbor's dog would see them, freak the fuck out, and wake up the entire neighborhood with its barking.

on the worst mornings, I thought about marinating a raw steak in antifreeze and lobbing it over the fence.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

no. i've said it before and i'll say it again since you missed it or my point flew over your head. the reason why i don't act out on it is because i know that i'll be in handcuffs and have a criminal record which would be bad for me. as a black male who's past the age of 18, having a criminal record or catch a violent crime charge is basically a death sentence. your life is over. that's why. i'm afraid of the consequences of my actions IF i do decide to hurt somebody. it's as if the police is just waiting to throw my ass under the jail. yeah, getting beat up is a worry. i could lose a tooth, get my jaw broke, catch a broken rib, get killed and etc. of course but to tell you the truth, i'm NOT that concerned about that more so than me doing that to someone else. i value my freedom and have enough problems as it is. i usually avoid confrontations because sometimes, i literally feel like going overboard with it and i might wind up doing something really serious where i'll end up with an attempted murder charge or something. that's why. i would rather get beat down and have my freedom than to do 10 years in prison for putting someone in a coma.

Fly does have a good point, in that it seems like you're reading WAY too much into 'facts' that just aren't there. More then likely, you're seeing signs that don't exist - those people are NOT talking about YOU... you're being paranoid and assuming it's all about you.

I used to do that too, and think everyone was talking about me, and conspiracies were going on behind my back... but ultimately I figured out that in the grand scheme of things, I'm really NOT that important, nearly invisible, and don't really matter to most peoples' lives enough for them to put any kind of effort into the X-Files I had going on in my head.

 

[refujiunderground]

Fly does have a good point, in that it seems like you're reading WAY too much into 'facts' that just aren't there. More then likely, you're seeing signs that don't exist - those people are NOT talking about YOU... you're being paranoid and assuming it's all about you.

I used to do that too, and think everyone was talking about me, and conspiracies were going on behind my back... but ultimately I figured out that in the grand scheme of things, I'm really NOT that important, nearly invisible, and don't really matter to most peoples' lives enough for them to put any kind of effort into the X-Files I had going on in my head.

yeah, dude's right in that sense. it's more of the insecurities that have been haunting me from the past where i've had people basically insulting, making fun of me, and etc where they really hurt my feelings on certain things such as the way i look, the way i walk, the way i talk, and basically me. to some people for some reason, they had an issue with me simply being myself and they had to make an issue about it where they had to belittle me in the process on some disrespect shit. i felt defenseless and vulnerable towards that shit so i feel the need to jump on a situation that i feel MIGHT lead to that before it happens even if it has nothing to do with me. to be honest with you, i just want to be treated like a regular person where folks just show me enough respect not to throw any blatant disrespect @ me. i would love to walk around a place knowing that people aren't eyeing me up on some weird shit like "what's wrong with this dude?" it's that it's hard to put that into my head because whenever i thought that folks were just leaving me alone, it turns out that they're paying attention to me for whatever reason. after dealing with it for so long, it's made me into a paranoid dude where i expect other people to treat me like that. so i basically am paranoid and don't like being around other people, crowds, or in public areas around others out of fear of folks making fun of me and shit. i hate it.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

First, treat people like you want to be treated. Secondly, respect is earned. Thirdly, if someone does offend you, you can stand up for/defend yourself verbally like an adult.

 

[dereperez]

I see that Lefty's memorial thread is already locked and I haven't gotten a chance to pay my respects in that thread. R.I.P. to the guy. He was always wonderful from the little interaction that I had with him and he will definitely be missed.

 

[Kulindahr]

Glad to hear you ain't a pussy lover.

I like dogs too, just not outside my window barking when I'm trying to sleep.

I'd love me a pair of pussies if they'd get that frakkin' crow!

Bammer wants a kitty, BTW.

 

[jdcnow]

Friday and my surgery can't come fast enough.

If I have to smell one more customer with bad breath, bad b.o., or both, I'm going to buy them some soap out of my money and say here ya' go.

I've always viewed personal hygiene as a human dignity issue just like food. If you're hungry, I will gladly spend my last dollar to buy you some food to eat.

Same with hygiene - if you don't have the means to go to the dollar store and get some Crest, a toothbrush and a bar of soap, come to me, and I'll do what I can to help you, even if I can't do much.

No one should have to go through life smelling like what I've come across earlier tonight.

 

[refujiunderground]

trying to manage my anger BUT i can't seem to shut my mind off or isolate myself away from what is pissing me off.

nothing has happened to me where folks have pissed me off directly. it's that i'm just getting very irritated @ the things that i see when i'm web surfing. it's basically the everyday things that i see which are basically circulated off of BULLSHIT. the same bullshit that fuels the ignorance that folks seem to live and thrive off of WITHOUT realizing it and the same ones that causes folks to hate themselves. folks talk about "peace this, peace that" but the honest truth is that they don't mean anybody but themselves well. then they wonder why folks are angry as fuck, passive aggressive, walking around with health problems, or going nuts and etc. it's NOT okay. it never WAS okay. if you are content with the way things are where as you turn on the tv and you see commercials, tv shows and you basically get the message that "this is what is acceptable. this is what's NOT acceptable. if you don't match this right here, you are a have not", then you're either ignorant or you really need to read up and pay more attention.

man, i hate to say this but just reading some books, being aware of certain things and seeing how certain things work simply because of the LITTLE things that shouldn't matter just gets me RAGING mad. how does one not become depressed or simply withdraw themselves from the world seeing this shit? geez. someone is born into a world who they are and they're basically told that "you have to be this way, compromise who you are and what you want for yourself in order to SURVIVE or you'll get punished for it". the fucked up thing is if you're gay, you're black, you're a woman, you're short, you're handicapped, and etc, you're already @ a disadvantage because society looks DOWN on that as being "unacceptable" for whatever reason. you simply are put in a box and are told that you have to accept it. FUCK THAT. they say folks are crazy when they rant and get mad BUT seriously, who in their right mind can be comfortable knowing the REAL reason why things are the way they are and being told to "deal with it". it's NOT right. just because i'm a guy doesn't mean that i have to watch sports, drink beer and do "masculine" things. i have the right to do whatever i want WITHOUT being judged or shitted on. if i want to watch "my little pony", "play around with barbie dolls", "listen to hard rock and metal", "drink pink lemonade", and drink a broke down car, can i do that SHIT in peace?

if i ever have a son or daughter, i'm going to tell them to be who they are. i'll buy him a barbie doll, a truck and whatever. i won't push him into a gender role, race role and etc and like them be who they are without societal influences but i'll teach them to be aware of the world around them SINCE this world tends to eat people alive and shit.

 

[refujiunderground]

just saw "true life: i'm beautiful" and , some people are truly delusional. not saying that those females are beautiful or ugly, me personally, i don't think any of them are attractive. i just think it's all in poor taste and basically shows that THEY are the ones with the problem making their looks to be a bigger deal than what it really is. it reminds me of how some gay guys place everything into their appearance where they think they're the shit, think they're so beautiful to the point where they have to insult other people or that everyone and their mother wants to date them. it really doesn't matter if they have a bunch of cosigners or not gassing their delusional asses up. they aren't shit and they need to quit thinking that the world feels the same way about them like how they do. the only thing that is big is their ego which has them acting out of place. let it go.

but back to the true life: i'm beautiful episode. why do folks feel the need to either build themselves up as if they're the sexiest or hottest person alive where they have to take 600 self photos and make themselves into "sex god or goddess" or they have to do the exact opposite where they swear on their dead dog's grave that they're superugly or the ugliest person on the planet? can ya at least focus on a different aspect of yourself besides your looks? like if you want to diss yourself, diss yourself for being a lazy ass or for being too energetic. fuck all that "i'm too pretty" or "i'm too ugly" shit. get over yourself.

 

[maxpowr9]

This bitch of a underling is now jealous of me. I have lost 4lbs in the past week on my "natural" diet. I even joked that "it feels good to be regular".

 

[refujiunderground]

This bitch of a underling is now jealous of me. I have lost 4lbs in the past week on my "natural" diet. I even joked that "it feels good to be regular".

what natural diet?

 

[Scealle]

I had this constant discomfort pn my heart area/ chest area for a while now and decided to get it check today. Luckily it's nothing. Though the doctor thinks it's probably muscle pain or exposure to the pc for too much. Hmmm I should go out more.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

I had this constant discomfort pn my heart area/ chest area for a while now and decided to get it check today. Luckily it's nothing. Though the doctor thinks it's probably muscle pain or exposure to the pc for too much. Hmmm I should go out more.

PC exposure??? wtf kind of Voo Doo Witch Doctor are you seeing???

 

[Scealle]

Lol a normal doctor. He asked if I was in front of the Pc for too long. I told him I am a video editor so I have to be in front of the PC often. (Sounds cooler than a 3d animator, I mean some people didn't even know that is a job lol) I suppose it makes sense.....past few weeks I haven't gone out or seen any of my friends/classmates. I am either in front of the PC or Tv lol. Yeah I have no life

 

[paintact]

trying to manage my anger but i can't seem to shut my mind off or isolate myself away from what is pissing me off.

Nothing has happened to me where folks have pissed me off directly. It's that i'm just getting very irritated @ the things that i see when i'm web surfing. It's basically the everyday things that i see which are basically circulated off of bullshit. The same bullshit that fuels the ignorance that folks seem to live and thrive off of without realizing it and the same ones that causes folks to hate themselves. Folks talk about "peace this, peace that" but the honest truth is that they don't mean anybody but themselves well. Then they wonder why folks are angry as fuck, passive aggressive, walking around with health problems, or going nuts and etc. It's not okay. It never was okay. If you are content with the way things are where as you turn on the tv and you see commercials, tv shows and you basically get the message that "this is what is acceptable. This is what's not acceptable. If you don't match this right here, you are a have not", then you're either ignorant or you really need to read up and pay more attention.

Man, i hate to say this but just reading some books, being aware of certain things and seeing how certain things work simply because of the little things that shouldn't matter just gets me raging mad. How does one not become depressed or simply withdraw themselves from the world seeing this shit? Geez. Someone is born into a world who they are and they're basically told that "you have to be this way, compromise who you are and what you want for yourself in order to survive or you'll get punished for it". The fucked up thing is if you're gay, you're black, you're a woman, you're short, you're handicapped, and etc, you're already @ a disadvantage because society looks down on that as being "unacceptable" for whatever reason. You simply are put in a box and are told that you have to accept it. Fuck that. They say folks are crazy when they rant and get mad but seriously, who in their right mind can be comfortable knowing the real reason why things are the way they are and being told to "deal with it". It's not right. Just because i'm a guy doesn't mean that i have to watch sports, drink beer and do "masculine" things. I have the right to do whatever i want without being judged or shitted on. If i want to watch "my little pony", "play around with barbie dolls", "listen to hard rock and metal", "drink pink lemonade", and drink a broke down car, can i do that shit in peace?

If i ever have a son or daughter, i'm going to tell them to be who they are. I'll buy him a barbie doll, a truck and whatever. I won't push him into a gender role, race role and etc and like them be who they are without societal influences but i'll teach them to be aware of the world around them since this world tends to eat people alive and shit.

yes!!!

:=d:

 

[maxpowr9]

what natural diet?

Basically give up all meat, dairy and "processed foods" [mostly "junk foods" and carbonated drinks fall under that category]. The first 3 days are tough when your body gets cleansed but after that, it feels amazing. It's not a "diet" that's for everyone as you have to make some necessary substitutions to keep your nutrients up like soy milk and tofu or other "vegan" products for protein.

 

[refujiunderground]

Basically give up all meat, dairy and "processed foods" [mostly "junk foods" and carbonated drinks fall under that category]. The first 3 days are tough when your body gets cleansed but after that, it feels amazing. It's not a "diet" that's for everyone as you have to make some necessary substitutions to keep your nutrients up like soy milk and tofu or other "vegan" products for protein.

you're going vegan????? really, max???? never thought you out of everybody would be up to do that.

 

[whitedavo]

As I get older, the only opinion of mine concerning gay people that hasn't changed is that I can't stand "elite" gays. We don't have equal rights and you're really gonna care about what I'm wearing? Be gone you waste of life.

What's worse is that it exists in bear culture as well. I wanna go to Bear Week to have a fun gay vacation but me and rich areas don't mix. I dress for comfort and I can't stand that nose-up face that just screams "please turn down your negro music".

So much pent up resentment and disgust lol.

 

[darden]

I don't trust gays who won't eat beef.

 

[maxpowr9]

you're going vegan????? really, max???? never thought you out of everybody would be up to do that.

LMAO! Fuck no. I personally think that PETA = People Eat Tasty Animals. The reason I am going vegan for a month is because I have to lose about 10lbs to fit into my suit for my good friend's wedding next month and there is no fucking way I am dropping money [about $200] to rent a tux for it. Besides, losing weight is a good thing.