just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[borg69unimatrix]

Hardly. That stuff only really applies to questioning anyway.

I'm going to figure out whether there's recourse for how this happened. It's fucking outrageous that these scumbags can tailgate people and give them a ticket when they go fast.

I swear all cops do in my area is collect revenue for the city. "protect and serve" is not on their list of things to do.

 

[xbuzzerx]

Hardly. That stuff only really applies to questioning anyway.

I'm going to figure out whether there's recourse for how this happened. It's fucking outrageous that these scumbags can tailgate people and give them a ticket when they go fast.

I guess I am naive. I didn't know this was a "thing."

A cop did this to me once and then pulled me over for speeding. And when he asked why I was speeding I said "because I felt like I was being chased?" The patrol car was up my car's ass. And no not in a good JUB way.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

It's definitely a thing they do. Like Borg pointed out, you see it a lot in places where the cops' philosophy is "collect and disturb" rather than "protect and serve."

It's been my experience state cops aren't as bad as city cops for some reason.

 

[xbuzzerx]

grrr...I hate it when I'm trying to find a song or music video online, but can't remember the name or lyrics of said song.

Remember the age where you had to go into a Blockbuster music or Warehouse and try to sing the song or hum it to the employees? lol.

 

[G-Lexington]

I could smoke that one for hours.

Lex

 

[Anders123]

I don't need to re-post a status/like it to show that I care about something or whether or not I am a "true friend."

#shutthefuckupfacebookjerkoffs

"Like if you hate cancer, ignore if you think starvation is hilarious and you want to get raped hard by Satan".

 

[umjreon88]

don't know why the brits call their home a flat for some reason. it sounds like a shack or a cardbox or something like that.

but some reason shit on my mind.
i repeat.i ain't got no worries. i repeat.i ain't got no worries. i repeat.i ain't got no worries. i repeat.i ain't

okay, done.

I don't call it an apartment because of the quality of the flat. I mean, my definition of an apartment is a residential box with state-of-the-art type appliances and excellent interior design (such as mixing the old with the cutting edge). But this flat, well, it's just a flat.

Thank you for being so crazy, made my day and maybe i should read it like a mantra...

 

[umjreon88]

And guys who give feminine men a hard time, in general. It's very pathetic and reeks of insecurity, tbh.


"Femininity is depicted as weakness, the sapping of strength, yet masculinity is so fragile that apparently even the slightest brush with the feminine destroys it." - Gwen Sharp

Totally agree with the quote and you. It is as if masculinity is something you hold on to for dear life coz it's the last bit of your social identity you want taken from you! Labels are just labels so "masculine guys", STOP BEING SO FUCKING INSECURE!

 

[refujiunderground]

not to sound all emo or whatever but the day that i die, i'll be in total peace.

maybe i'm depressed right now and don't even know it.

i saw someone that i knew at whole foods yesterday. he's a cool guy and all. a friend and etc. i should have said hi to him but he was chilling with his daughter and one of his other friends. i was feeling too shy to say anything to him and etc. i want to text him that i'm sorry BUT not unless he mentions it. i still feel bad though. i didn't mean to do that on purpose or to be mean. he's a nice guy and all. i'm apologizing to myself because i feel like i was being a dick even though i was trying to play it off like i'm not.

but anyways, that one moment has been on my mind since yesterday night. i was feeling good last night to tell you the truth. excited and whatever BUT then i went to bed, i had a hard time waking up. i wanted to sleep all day because i felt tired and weak. i was seriously thinking about things last night, life, death, losing everybody around me, the whole world and etc. i was JUST creeped out yo. it wasn't right at all. stomach started hurting, feeling stressed and etc. can't wait til this SHIT stops though.

i want to be left alone to tell you the truth to get some space to think about things. stressed out. might pay a visit to barnes and noble tomorrow just to chill the fuck out. somewhere where there's nobody around and shit.

 

[refujiunderground]

I'm getting mad again. My mom this time is pissing me off once again.

I know what the fuck i'm doing wrong but i'm sick of being around people that never bother to listen or understand me for how long and are only fucking interested in hearing what they think or what the fuck they have to say. They want to tell me how it is to be in my shoes better than i can even when i fucking tell them whatever. For real, just shut up for real.

You know, you don't do this. You don't do that. You don't clean the stairs. You don't have a job. You don't do whatever the fuck. Shut the fuck up already. Talking about i don't have a fucking conscience. I'm sick and tired of having to explain myself and whatever the fuck and it always falls on deaf ears. Since fucking high school, i just can't wait to move the fuck out the house or whatever the fuck else because yo... If i didn't know any better. I would have fucking snapped on my moms already. I'm really getting tired of explaining myself to people that don't listen. I just equate that to someone not giving a fuck about me or whatever. I don't fucking need you to talk shit about me making me feel worse than i am. I know i don't do the things that i'm supposed to do.

 

[ixthrock]

... I know i don't do the things that i'm supposed to do.

The beatings will continue until morale improves.

(hugs)

 

[refujiunderground]

The beatings will continue until morale improves.

(hugs)

at this point, i've given up. she's not interested in listening, for the most part, she never has been interested in it and it's always been like that so why try to explain. i'm just going to handle it my way instead of doing it her way because her way doesn't work. she's in a big mess herself from listening to herself and acting like a damn know it all.

i'm not saying that she's wrong because she has every right to be frustrated with me BUT @ the same time, she's choosing to live under a rock. i wouldn't be on the internet ranting about my problems for 12 years if one of my parents were interested in hearing me out in the first place. i'm a grown ass man though so i'm handling my issues my way and getting help instead of following whatever my mom advice is because to tell you the truth, she's just making me worse. she's going to say that i'm blaming her BUT yet she didn't seem interested in helping my ass when i was down in the dumps, trying to fix myself up. NOW here i am trying to figure shit out and she's basically kicking me when i'm down. if i pick myself up and get myself sorted out, that's because of me. NOT HER.

she's probably going to be the one trying to take credit if i land a job. "if i didn't jump on your case", naw, she ain't the reason why i found myself a job. in fact, she's the reason why i'm not running up to any job that is available because i damn sure don't want to feel the same way i felt for 6 years, basically doing something that i didn't want to do, basically listening to her so she could just shut up and get off my fucking back. the same way she doesn't want me to go to any of these therapist or shrinks so i can go and get some help BUT yet she never was trying to be an ear or run to me whenever i was dealing with the same issues that i was dealing with since i was a teenager. i'm not on that woe is me shit. i'm just trying to become a better fucking person BUT it seems like the people around me want me to fucking fail. they DON'T think so though.

 

[ixthrock]

... if i pick myself up and get myself sorted out, that's because of me. NOT HER.

This is me shoving my righteous fist into the air and hollerin, "YES! YOU THE MAN REFUGI!!" really. you have no idea how it warms my heart to see you recognize the validity of this statement.

... i'm just trying to become a better fucking person BUT it seems like the people around me want me to fucking fail. they DON'T think so though

In my experience, this always seems to be the case. The real trick here is to not hate them for it, but realizing they are just trying to do their best, while feeling around in the dark just like you, just like the rest of us. Love yourself for fucking up the way you do, because it is who you are and it just confirms your membership in this funky thing we call humans-being-alive, and it will teach you to love the fuckups of others.

 

[refujiunderground]

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK MOTHERFUCK ITUNES, MAN!!!

i fucking wasted all that motherfucking time FUCKING putting the motherfucking number on songs AND THIS MOTHERFUCKING PIECE OF SHIT FUCKING UNDID EVERYTHING AND PUT THE MOTHERFUCKING NUMBER 15 ON THAT SHIT!!! FUCKING ITUNES, MAN!!!

it had to be like about 200 FUCKING songs that were marked under the number 15 and i don't know what the fuck i did.

DAMNIT!!! i was hoping to put this onto my ipod to MOTHERFUCKING DAY and what the fuck happens. THIS IS BULLSHIT! BULLSHIT!!!! BULLSHIT!!!! WHAT THE FUCK. COME ON, APPLE. YOU MEAN TO TELL ME THAT THE UNDO BUTTON IS NOT AVAILABLE. COME ON MOTHERFUCKERS. FUCK STEVE JOBS AND ALL THOSE OTHER MOTHERFUCKERS FOR FUCKING CREATING SOME FLAWED ASS SHIT.

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! i really need to FUCKING hit something because this is FUCKED UP!

 

[G-Lexington]

Wait, what? What's under "the number 15"? Calm down. Explain. It's fixable.

Lex

 

[refujiunderground]

Wait, what? What's under "the number 15"? Calm down. Explain. It's fixable.

Lex

how? i'm not going to waste another 7 hours doing it again.

 

[G-Lexington]

It won't take seven hours. What do you want done? PM if you want.

Lex

 

[refujiunderground]

That is why I label my mp3's myself. Last time I let a program do it, fucked everything up.

doing it the regular way is also long and time consuming too. actually tried doing it manually last night but it didn't appear on itunes so i ended up having to do everything on itunes. hope the dry cleaning place isn't closed early today or i'll even be more annoyed than i am. everything seems to be going wrong today.

 

[refujiunderground]

It won't take seven hours. What do you want done? PM if you want.

Lex

just trying to figure out how to arrange the songs with the track numbers on them the way i had them before. actually trying to undo the damage that has been done if it's possible. it's the gta san andreas soundtrack along with the commercials which is about a good 200 songs. unless you knew a shortcut to do it. i wouldn't wish rearranging this mess on anybody and i don't think i would want to burden you with pain in the ass task. that would be just wrong.

i guess this is my punishment for downloading illegal but fuck it.

 

[refujiunderground]

thanks lex for offering to help.

anyways, i'm going to vent some more because i think that there's two reasons why i'm more irritated than usual. i'm stressed out thinking about some things and i'm also tired for whatever reason so there it is.

anyways, i'm in one of those worked up moods where i'm easy to set it off. the littlest things annoy me. my father is sick and he's using his ailment as a means to get attention. that's nothing new BUT at the same time, not in the mood to deal with that shit. i also can't stand being around my father either. he tries to act like a fucking prison warden. he'll be questioning me about where i'm going and shit yet he doesn't show anybody the same respect in here when he decides to walk out and do whatever the fuck he's doing. he is an annoyance. him and me don't have a father and son relationship and that's simply his fault. i'm not taking the blame for my father basically doing whatever he felt like when i was a kid so now that i'm a grown man, i can't respect him as a father. if i have kids, i promise to never do the same shit he did or does. even now, dude is coughing and it's clear that dude is just doing that shit for the attention. someone said that the qualities he has is that of a narcissist. funny roaming around internet forums where folks are talking about having a narcissist parent and how some of those folks are fucked up. i don't know BUT i don't like being around my father though. never did to tell you the truth. there was always something about him that didn't click and as i got older, he just confirmed it by the way he acted.

also getting irritated thinking about certain things in my life. you know, i feel that i've done a good job keeping those thoughts concerning certain things that have bothered me in the past BUT i'm not going to lie, when i get bombarded by that every single day when i turn on the tv, when i walk the streets, even when i come to this site, it's HARD to escape it or for my mood to not go down south. it may be a bit insecurity going on BUT at the same time, i would rather not be bothered by it. what can i do besides try to play it off? but the truth is, i am still bothered by it although i'm learning to manage my feelings towards it. it's NOT that bad though. even talking about the subject, i would rather not say it because then it brings back the past such as 10 years ago, where i made it a big deal and i'm NOT going to do that again. now, i'm leaving it alone and going to try to divert those feelings or reasoning my mind out about that shit.