just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[refujiunderground]

Maybe it was that look you had on your face... maybe she thought you were going to rape her ?

oh hell naw. not with her even though i'll admit i was feeling too happy where i wasn't feeling quite sympathic for her although she locked herself out her own car, was upset that she was stuck at the gym for 5 hours. i'd be annoyed too BUT sheit, she shouldn't take it out on me. it ain't my fault.

Refuji had that face at some point early yesterday if I recall correctly.

 

[refujiunderground]

Yes... during his marathon JO session.

that liquor coming out the bottle reminds me of diarrhea.

 

[refujiunderground]

^RJ, I wonder if you have noticed any side effects to the Zoloft?

(BTW, I don't mean this question to reflect on any of your recent posts. Honestly.)

well, i dunno if they're side effects but i notice that yesterday i had a problem swallowing where i felt that there was a lump in my throat. my stomach has been irritating me for a little bit as well where i feel gassy. sort of naueous. i also at times get a bit tired. i'm also have a harder time masturbating although i'll admit that i've been getting more hornier where i really want to get some ass. i also get very irritable at times.

right now, i'm feeling tired and it's only 5 o clock.

 

[G-Lexington]

After an hour at work, I started feeling crappy. Sort of like a migraine. Kept taking my glasses off and rubbing my eyes. I finally finished all the must-do stuff and headed home, grabbed some lunch, ate in bed, and nodded off for a couple hours. Just woke up feeling mostly better, although my mouth feels like I slept with a salt lick in it. Hopefully, I'm beyond whatever the fuck that was.

Lex

 

[frankfrank]

You two probably picked my two favorite Bob Seger songs. So kudos to you both.

Here's an oddity. When I became interested in the history of pop music over the years, I looked up the music of my youth. And I found the Bob Seger's second highest charting song was "Shame on the Moon", which hit #2 in 1983.

Interesting, now that you mention it. I DO remember hearing the song on the radio (and it is indeed somewhat more of a ballad type), but **I don't think I've heard it, even once, since it was popular**. Why do some songs just fall off the edge of the universe?

But his best songs are;
Roll Me Away
Night Moves
Turn The Page
You'll accompany Me
I've been a Seger fan since the 70's.

Well, this would be my second favorite of his, CLOSE in my mind to "2 + 2"
And I'm not sure I've heard THIS since it was popular, either.

Depressingly enough, Bob Seger's highest charting single was "Shakedown" from Beverly Hills Cop II.

Lex

...AND...I don't remember **that** one!!!!!!! Egad...

 

[refujiunderground]

After an hour at work, I started feeling crappy. Sort of like a migraine. Kept taking my glasses off and rubbing my eyes. I finally finished all the must-do stuff and headed home, grabbed some lunch, ate in bed, and nodded off for a couple hours. Just woke up feeling mostly better, although my mouth feels like I slept with a salt lick in it. Hopefully, I'm beyond whatever the fuck that was.

Lex

hopefully you're okay and that's not a sign of an incoming illness.

i jerked off earlier today and was able to bust a nut. now, i was trying to jerk one off but my dick said NO. i was getting to the promise land for a second BUT my body wasn't having it. i have been denied. DENIED!!! i don't feel bad. much rather annoyed. this didn't happen before. i could jerk off with ease. must be the side effect of the zoloft to why i've been denied entry into the promise land. FUCK!

 

[G-Lexington]

Again, I think this is good for you. Orgasms kick ass, no question. But everything leading up to it is great, too. So if you find yourself unable to reach orgasm, that's cool. Slow down, stop, go do something else, try again later. Expect another great orgasm next time. Watch your eyes

Lex

 

[maxpowr9]

Lesbians on ice skates

 

[loveguys72]

As your brain chemistry normalizes, you don't have the overwhelming need for the rush of endorphins masturbation and orgasm produce. Your body knows this. You're finally discovering what it's like to have a normal libido.

hopefully you're okay and that's not a sign of an incoming illness.

i jerked off earlier today and was able to bust a nut. now, i was trying to jerk one off but my dick said NO. i was getting to the promise land for a second BUT my body wasn't having it. i have been denied. DENIED!!! i don't feel bad. much rather annoyed. this didn't happen before. i could jerk off with ease. must be the side effect of the zoloft to why i've been denied entry into the promise land. FUCK!

 

[refujiunderground]

monitoring the side effects of these pills and there's some noticable things that are happening since yesterday.

i was getting depressed thinking about being single, being unemployed, not being out to my friends and other people in my life and not doing well in life. it all started out from feeling lonely which didn't bother me BUT then it did, that's when it hit me. i tried to go to bed. after awhile, i started to feel a little suicidal where i just had some thoughts running through my head. i wanted to go downstairs, grab the kitchen knife and stab myself in the chest or get one of my father's boxcutters and slit my wrist. i got a little worried that i might actually get up out of bed and do it so i decided to keep myself put and not move. listening to music wasn't helping me out either. it was making me feel worse. i notice that my eyes were getting watery and that's when i was like wow...

i dunno is that normal with SSRI's though.

 

[refujiunderground]

As your brain chemistry normalizes, you don't have the overwhelming need for the rush of endorphins masturbation and orgasm produce. Your body knows this. You're finally discovering what it's like to have a normal libido.

it's starting to effect me in a negative way though as what happened last night.

 

[refujiunderground]

I'm pretty sure antidepressants/psych drugs are (ironically) noted for spurring suicidal thoughts. Were you given any advice as to what you should do if that happens? (i.e. stopping taking it?)

that's what's scary. they're supposed to be antidepressants but they bring about the same things that they're supposed to stop. weird shit. as for what to do, i was told to call the doctor. i gotta talk to her anyway because i notice that i have trouble swallowing. it's going away now but it started happening two days again. weird how i felt a burst of energy on sunday-wednesday. yesterday was the exact opposite.

 

[refujiunderground]

The very moment I heard antidepressants can cause suicidal thoughts/tendencies/actions, I thought it was so fucked up for that very reason.

Good luck with everything man. Hopefully you can just psych yourself out if you ever have thoughts like that again.

thanks, man. the sad thing is this is only just the sixth day i took these meds and it's supposed to be six weeks until the effects are really supposed to kick in. it's controlling the ocd BUT for the most part, i'm NOT feeling the fact that i can't jerk off like how i used to. i love masturbation too much to not do it. it's all i have because i know i'm not going to have sex or be dating anybody anytime soon or at least for the foreseeable future.

 

[G-Lexington]

thanks, man. the sad thing is this is only just the sixth day i took these meds and it's supposed to be six weeks until the effects are really supposed to kick in. it's controlling the ocd BUT for the most part, i'm NOT feeling the fact that i can't jerk off like how i used to. i love masturbation too much to not do it. it's all i have because i know i'm not going to have sex or be dating anybody anytime soon or at least for the foreseeable future.

Hey, jacking off is great, but if you're doing it four times a day, maybe you need to slow down in any event. Try doing it once a day, keep it measured, make it last. See how you feel. But yes, keep them informed about any other side effects.

Lex

 

[refujiunderground]

RJ, if those suicidal feelings re-occur, I'd inform your doctor immediately.

As Razzie has said, sometimes SSRIs have a paradoxical effect, inasmuch as they can actually make the depression worse.

you know, i have this on my mind just thinking about a whole lot of things from these meds, the side effects, my mind and how i think, and etc. the fact that i'm getting stressed out thinking about not closing the curtains and all this stupid irrational bullshit and etc is starting to annoy me.

the whole experience from actually having to be on meds by the doctors where i can't even talk to somebody about how i feel and then seeing how i was before i was on these meds is pissing me off. you know, i just want to say why or wonder how i the hell i got myself into this situation where i have to do this to begin with? why can't i just be like everybody else? no ocd, no depression, none of this bullshit adn live a normal life. i know everybody has problems and deals with them in their own way BUT man, i don't even know how to deal with mine without turning into a straight up bitch, being stressed out and falling on my knees like a fucking victim. even the way i look at myself physically, i look and feel weak.

i just want to be able to live a normal life, in my terms, call it a day and just live but wtf do i do? i'm slowly letting my fears, my mind and etc kill me. i don't want to die and all. i do believe that things will get better where i'll be at total peace with myself and i'll be happy BUT today ain't the day. sometimes, i wish i was dead where i wouldn't have to deal with this fucking bullshit any longer. i have nobody to blame but myself for how i came out. can't blame my parents, can't blame my environment, can't blame the people in my past, can't blame shit besides me.

i can't even fucking masturbate. i want to study my LSAT book and am about to BUT i want to masturbate first and i can't even do it. even when i write this, i sound pathetic like i'm whining about bullshit where i should shut the fuck up BUT here, i am feeling stomach pain from not eating enough and my left shoulder is bothering me BUT i know that even if i do eat, jerk off or whatever, the problem will go away momentarily BUT it'll still be there. there's still 99 fucking problems which are eating me up. sometimes, i wonder what's the point. meds or no meds. job or no job.

i was going to say something BUT i'm not going to say it because it might be taken out of context as it's not something that is taken lightly. that's my rant.

 

[refujiunderground]

Hey, jacking off is great, but if you're doing it four times a day, maybe you need to slow down in any event. Try doing it once a day, keep it measured, make it last. See how you feel. But yes, keep them informed about any other side effects.

Lex

i don't even jerk off as much as i would like to. when i was jerking off to women, i might be able to jerk off 3 to 4 times a day. ever since i masturbated to guys, that number has gone down to once or twice a day. however, the orgasms have been way more satisifying compared to when i was jerking off to women. you know, i use masturbation as a destressor and simply to control those feelings which keep me from falling for whoever, developing crushes on guys that i know i'm not going to get with and etc. it hasn't completely stopped it BUT for the most part, it works. when i don't masturbate, i get stressed out, very irritable where i'm angry, ready to snap, get a bit hyper, ready to pull my hair out, start checking out guys where i want someone and etc. it prevents me from acting like an ass.

i felt that way awhile ago BECAUSE i wasn't able to pull one out just now. i started to get mad where i wanted to hurt somebody, felt like taking out my anger on somebody where i did an armed robbery or something of that nature. you know, i pretty much use masturbation as one of the tools to keep my mind right where i'm not tempted to do anything retarded that could get my ass into serious trouble such as turning to marijuana smoke.

man, this fucking sucks.

 

[quasar]

thanks, man. the sad thing is this is only just the sixth day i took these meds and it's supposed to be six weeks until the effects are really supposed to kick in. it's controlling the ocd BUT for the most part, i'm NOT feeling the fact that i can't jerk off like how i used to. i love masturbation too much to not do it. it's all i have because i know i'm not going to have sex or be dating anybody anytime soon or at least for the foreseeable future.

RJ, I've been taking Zoloft for the last 6months, (and have previously taken it three years ago) so what I say is both from experience and from my own research. I should add that I researched it purely because there's a good chance that I may have to take it for the rest of my life - so I wanted to know as much about it as possible.

Although it may take a number of weeks before you may notice the benefits of it, as with any drug, the side effects can be pretty swift in showing themselves. The sexual dysfunction and the swallowing issues are fairly common side effects. Whilst not necessarily life threatening, you DO need to let your doctor know about any side effects you notice. They can either try to alleviate any concerns you have, or even change you onto a different drug or dosage.

However, the suicidal thoughts are extremely dangerous and your medical team need to be informed immediately - NOT the next time you're due to see them. It IS pretty fucked up that a drug designed to remove the desire to harm oneself can actually induce a desire to harm oneself - but that's one of the side effects of SSRIs, and appears to be particularly more likely to occur in younger patients taking Zoloft.

If you haven't got the information sheet that comes with Zoloft, THIS is the info. Of course, you're more than welcome to PM me, or Skype me if you need to talk further.

 

[refujiunderground]

RJ, I've been taking Zoloft for the last 6months, (and have previously taken it three years ago) so what I say is both from experience and from my own research. I should add that I researched it purely because there's a good chance that I may have to take it for the rest of my life - so I wanted to know as much about it as possible.

Although it may take a number of weeks before you may notice the benefits of it, as with any drug, the side effects can be pretty swift in showing themselves. The sexual dysfunction and the swallowing issues are fairly common side effects. Whilst not necessarily life threatening, you DO need to let your doctor know about any side effects you notice. They can either try to alleviate any concerns you have, or even change you onto a different drug or dosage.

However, the suicidal thoughts are extremely dangerous and your medical team need to be informed immediately - NOT the next time you're due to see them. It IS pretty fucked up that a drug designed to remove the desire to harm oneself can actually induce a desire to harm oneself - but that's one of the side effects of SSRIs, and appears to be particularly more likely to occur in younger patients taking Zoloft.

If you haven't got the information sheet that comes with Zoloft, THIS is the info. Of course, you're more than welcome to PM me, or Skype me if you need to talk further.

thanks quasar. beginning to regret taking these ssri's. now my stomach is hurting.

but here's a random rant on something entirely different altogether on something i see on the board concerning other posters or whatever.

sometimes when i see these threads or replies with posters that basically have talking about their boyfriend, their partner or whatever else every single post, reply or whatever, i'm like fuck your boyfriend, husband, hubby or partner. fuck that dude. i'm tired of hearing about your man or whatever's going on him with every single post of yours or 5 minutes. fuck him, okay. i don't wanna hear that shit. go spend time with him if he's on your mind so much.

you know, i'm single, i'm not dating and have been single for 26 years, 3 months, 25 days, umteen hours and whatever the fuck the seconds are. for the most part, i don't care about it BUT then there's sometimes where it bothers me and i certainly don't need people rubbing it in my face. right now is one of those don't bring that shit around me moments. don't mention it. fuck your relationship, marriage or whatever. now is not the time.

 

[Lefty]

FUJI....
drop the fucking attitude. You poor baby, you don't have a partner,boyfriend or FWB. If you read
those whiners, for the most part..They wish to fuck they didn't have one/two either.

Read, learn from their stupidity so when you fall in the pit you will at least be able to tread water.

Want something positive to look at? Look at this thread, your baby is about 5 posts from

PAGE 26....and in how long? Your experiment in personal venting has gone EPIC Dude and with

out major porn pics et cetera.

 

[xbuzzerx]

It takes a few relationships to appreciate being single can be a lot of fun. At the very least it's a lot less (emotional) work on a daily/weekly basis.

I'm HAPPILY single right now. I'm enjoying the alone time.

We definitely as a people/culture glorify not being single and castigate being single. Being single sometimes is the best thing in the world for a person. I know no one sees it that way at the beginning, but there will probably come a time you will.