just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[borg69unimatrix]

I had to Google Bantu knots... they look like they would be difficult to sleep on.

 

[MissAnne]

I had to Google Bantu knots... they look like they would be difficult to sleep on.

Right, yes a picture would have been helpful ...and yes its proving to be a little difficult.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

I shave my head... I obviously have no frame of reference here.

 

[MissAnne]

I shave my head... I obviously have no frame of reference here.

Ive thought about that once or twice.

 

[glasvegas]

I am so pissed off that my friend that I used to date with took his new found love to a fancy restaurant while he was seeing me, he was saying he's tired and bullshit. Urgh. I deserve better.

 

[refujiunderground]

I am so pissed off that my friend that I used to date with took his new found love to a fancy restaurant while he was seeing me, he was saying he's tired and bullshit. Urgh. I deserve better.

yes, you do. fuck him.

 

[bankside]

Right, yes a picture would have been helpful ...and yes its proving to be a little difficult.

I love the look.

 

[refujiunderground]

man, i feel apathetic. very, very apathetic. my brother went out of town with one of his friends on a semi vacation. he needed a break after busting his ass at work. me on the other hand, it's the same old song. it's quiet in here without him. i just wonder what it would be like for me to live on my own and have nobody around. just complete silence. it actually makes me uncomfortable where i feel that somebody is in here with me without me knowing it. this sucks. but as for how i'm feeling right now, i am alone, i feel alone and i want to be alone. i'm not mad about it. not sad about it. not even happy. i just don't give a fuck. i actually don't feel like being around other people at the moment. my mom says that she's worried that i spend all day in my room, don't have a job, are not getting busy as a "young man should". well, what can i do other than work? i'm not in school right now so i really can't say shit. oh well, might just masturbate and take my sorry ass to bed.

 

[ElmosToe]

Tired of the cold and the snow, the groundhog lied.

I need to be planting seeds not shoveling snow.

 

[MissAnne]

That's a great protective style. But it's a pain to sleep with it in.

I love the end result, especially when you take it all out-- beautiful curls with a lot of volume. It's worth it.

Yeah, Im starting to hate my hair straight.

I feel like since Im Black, I look better with textured hair. Curls are just more fun anyway.

 

[Axxess]

I had something I wanted to say to HuntNeo, but couldn't because JUB was all messed up and the PM system wasn't working. Of course now that everything's up and running again, I can't remember what it was.

I hate my poor memory.

 

[MissAnne]

but I notice that I am not as easily bothered by people being mean/rude/bitchy/shady to me anymore. I usually just laugh at it, or keep it moving. Even online... I can still kid around with people I have "beef" with... and don't hold grudges as much/as long as I used to. I just don't care anymore...

I havent reached that point yet. I look forward to the day. Proud of you though

Yeah, I prefer curls, too. But I keep my hair straight often because it requires less maintenance. So I switch things up.

Really ? I find straight hair to require more maintenance and Im always messing with it. Everyone's hair is different I guess.

I think many black women look incredibly sexy with short, cropped hair.

A woman I know cut her hair really short and processed it with blond waves. She looked so sexy that I questioned my sexuality for a moment or two.

Uh Oh, let me find out lol

But, yeah...some people just look great with short hair. Halle Berry.

 

[refujiunderground]

It's OK to enjoy being alone, RJ.

They say loneliness is where you're alone, and hate it; soltitude is where you're alone, and enjoy it.

On an unrelated note, are the SSRIs working?

really? it doesn't make me seem like a weirdo or whatever? it seems comes off like i'm avoiding people or basically isolating myself away from everybody. don't even turn on the cell phone in somebody texts or calls. *shrugs* it seems more like i'm just not caring about whatever anymore.

the ssri's are most definitely working with the ocd. i'm not feeling depressed anymore though so i guess it's working with that. however, i feel a bit numb. like i'll see something that makes me get upset and instead, i'll just feel numb and empty instead. it also makes me a bit more brave to the point where i simply are not afraid anymore to say or do whatever. it's all weird.

 

[Scealle]

Right, yes a picture would have been helpful ...and yes its proving to be a little difficult.

Yeah I always thought they look good. I would do it if I am a girl
(I don't secretly desire to be a girl though, despite the wide variety of cloth choices and the effortless need to grace when you dance/skate)

 

[xbuzzerx]

I finished watching, for the first time, The Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal, Red Dragon, and Hannibal Rising. Hannibal, the TV series, will begin airing on April 4th. If I go psycho, that's probably why.

All good movies. Amazingly a lot of people seem to not know they're all related stories taking place in the same fiction world. Red Dragon I think out of all of them is the least known to be related to the others.

 

[Nishin]

The pain of loving
The very sour pain of Love
The cold

 

[borg69unimatrix]

^He's talking about me, thatgirl.

I'm OK with it, though. As I said, I think it's very noble for him to defend his friend.

Loyal friends sure are harder to find than sexbuddies, aren't they?

A-HA! It was YOU!!! I thought it was Medusa, but on checking, she is still banned.

 

[xbuzzerx]

A-HA! It was YOU!!! I thought it was Medusa, but on checking, she is still banned.

I thought it was Medusa too.

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Reviews tended to rate Red Dragon and Hannibal Rising, especially Hannibal Rising, significantly less than The Silence of the Lambs and Hannibal. I don't know why. They were all pretty good to me.

Yeah I particularly liked Manhunter, did you see that? It's based off Red Dragon and predates it. I believe I prefer it to Red Dragon.

 

[refujiunderground]

The numbness is quite normal, and expected, RJ.

Some people don't like that numb feeling.

But others much prefer that numb feeling to that deep, sickening, black pit of depression. Our gentle Oakpope mentioned this. He related that he didn't exactly like feeling numb, but it was better than the black hole.

it scares me because i just feel like i have no emotion even if i see something that upsets me or see something that makes me go "that's so terrible. he needs a hug. let me do the right thing because that's what us human beings do". just ice cold like someone who's a sociopath who can't feel a thing to the point where their moral judgement is dead because they have no emotions of their own where they can empathize with other people with emotions. i just don't want to get to the point where i simply go like "i can't feel a thing anymore so let me go off and hurt somebody. i'm not going to feel bad about it since i won't feel any guilt or sadness that i hurt anybody." that's what scares me. being numb beats being depressed but at the same time, i don't want to be numb to the point where i simply don't care about others and myself because my emotions are dead.

 

[refujiunderground]

The numbness is quite normal, RJ.

You might want to share that with your doctor. Some people find that numb feeling unbearable.

It's possible that he might deem it desirable to lower your dosage.

well, i'm on 50 mgs. i think that's the lowest they can go. the next time i see them, they might up it to 100 mg. scared of what might happen to my sex drive if that's the case. damn thing nearly killed my sex drive. never again. jerking off for like 3 hours and be unable to bust a nut. it was terrible. afraid of what might happen at 100 mg. a decreased libido might really just be the nail in the coffin. damn near snapped during the first 3 weeks.