just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[borg69unimatrix]

That's a good idea! It reminds me... a friend with a new house got repair pieces for a floor like that from an under-the-stairs storage space -- took them all out and put much plainer wood in tat space, so now he has a supply in case he needs more, and nothing looks odd because no one ever goes in there except maybe twice a year, and who would expect such a space to have the nice floor?

All those years of watching HGTV paid off.

 

[jdcnow]

Too much pain too much suffering. Tired of it all, and I just want to end this. Now.

Yourself, or the whole world?

Please forgive me everyone. As much as I hate to admit it, bouts of depression, sometimes aggressively dangerous suicidal depression still plague me, that mixed with my older brother's violent temper I fight tooth and nail to keep hidden away. But the keeping it hidden away and stuffing my negative emotions into a closet only served to make my temper even worse and even more like a ticking time bomb when it does come out. It's all a part of the psychological and psychiatric damage from the past and distant past that I'm ashamed to say I'm still dealing with years and years, even a decade plus later.

Sometimes I honestly wish I didn't exist just so I wouldn't even have to consider manually doing it myself. But I am beyond tired, beyond broken, and I do...just, I don't know. I honestly don't know. I'm so sorry.

 

[JPGhost]

I kind of worry with fujie well being , well actually...he might be not as worrisome as I thought:
http://psychcentral.com/news/2012/1...-negative-thoughts-throw-them-away/48160.html

dude had done right therapy here

 

[JPGhost]

My fav music to get high is trance. I meant..masturbate. But Im piss whenever I found nice trance music-
it often come together with female vocal, such a turn off!! There are trance music with male vocal but the way those guys sing is not sexy-more into cuddling session and such. The sexiest sound usually are with female vocals- but I really HATE to listen to female voice when I get high..

still hunting more, I'll less piss if I successfully find sexy male trance

 

[borg69unimatrix]

Physician heal thyself.

 

[mikey3000]

Buying a house in New York state and, man, what a nightmare!! Agents don't talk to each other, neither do lawyers. We are doing all the grunt work ourselves. What the hell are we paying an agent for?

 

[Anders123]

My fav music to get high is trance. I meant..masturbate. But Im piss whenever I found nice trance music-
it often come together with female vocal, such a turn off!! There are trance music with male vocal but the way those guys sing is not sexy-more into cuddling session and such. The sexiest sound usually are with female vocals- but I really HATE to listen to female voice when I get high..

still hunting more, I'll less piss if I successfully find sexy male trance

I'm not sure about male vocals, but you should check out DomitiusTV on Youtube.

He uploads uplifting/progressive/vocal trance mixes semi-regularly. I don't think you'll enjoy his vocal mix uploads as they mostly include females, but you might like the others.

 

[jdcnow]

@Kulindahr - Thank you sir. I actually do feel a bit better now that I've had some sleep. I'll be able to get into a counselor when school starts back in July. My college has counselors that are free of charge once a week for students. I might email her early. And there's always Resources For Living, that just came to mind - the outside counseling company my overnight supermarket job offers as a benefit.

I do have lots of professional help at my disposal. I need to tap into it.

 

[darden]

not really a vent, but I roll my eyes so hard at these guys who constantly complain about not being able to find a boyfriend, but have a list of guys they've had sex with and never called again that's longer than their arm.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

not really a vent, but I roll my eyes so hard at these guys who constantly complain about not being able to find a boyfriend, but have a list of guys they've had sex with and never called again that's longer than their arm.

I never really understood the "I'll Fuck You, but not Date you" mentality.

I've (mostly?) only had sex with those I'd be willing to date.

 

[Scealle]

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not really a vent, but I roll my eyes so hard at these guys who constantly complain about not being able to find a boyfriend, but have a list of guys they've had sex with and never called again that's longer than their arm.

IKR!

I never really understood the "I'll Fuck You, but not Date you" mentality.

I've (mostly?) only had sex with those I'd be willing to date.

Agreed. Sex to me feels like an intimate phenomenon so I probably will never get hookups or one night stands.

 

[darden]

I never really understood the "I'll Fuck You, but not Date you" mentality.

I've (mostly?) only had sex with those I'd be willing to date.

maybe I'm being too judgmental... I've hooked up with a couple guys that I wouldn't date (two off the top of my head... one I just had absolutely nothing in common with outside of bed, and one was too old (hot body, great in bed, but I'd feel weird introducing a guy to my parents almost the same age as them)).

but at the same time, both of those "relationships" were entered into with the understanding that it wasn't going to be anything more than fooling around, and they occurred at times in my life when I actively wasn't looking for a serious relationship.

the guy I'm judging in my head is constantly going out on dates with guys, taking them home after a first or second date, and then stops returning their calls/texts (and meanwhile, constantly seems to whine on Facebook about not being able to find a boyfriend)

 

[Kulindahr]

Please forgive me everyone. As much as I hate to admit it, bouts of depression, sometimes aggressively dangerous suicidal depression still plague me, that mixed with my older brother's violent temper I fight tooth and nail to keep hidden away. But the keeping it hidden away and stuffing my negative emotions into a closet only served to make my temper even worse and even more like a ticking time bomb when it does come out. It's all a part of the psychological and psychiatric damage from the past and distant past that I'm ashamed to say I'm still dealing with years and years, even a decade plus later.

Sometimes I honestly wish I didn't exist just so I wouldn't even have to consider manually doing it myself. But I am beyond tired, beyond broken, and I do...just, I don't know. I honestly don't know. I'm so sorry.

A way to deal with the temper:

find a place where it's safe to scream, jump up and down, break things.... I liked out in the woods by a river. I'd go out with a notebook, and write down whatever came to mind that made me mad. After writing, I'd throw rocks (sometimes into the river, sometimes into the brush), break driftwood, yell, curse, say whatever came to mind "to" whoever I was mad at. When the anger about that ran out, I'd hit another item. Then when I ran out of things I was angry about, I'd make a fire and throw in all the things I'd written.

I'm to the point I sort of need such a place again.

 

[travis82]

You're lucky to still be alive !!!!!!

Thank you. I guess unattended fire can be very dangerous.

 

[travis82]

Since money is in short supply, you could just cover it with a rug, as you said, and repair it later when you are flush with cash.

Or....

Find someone who will repair just that spot, even if the end result is not perfect. You could always have the entire room sanded and refinished at a later date. New flooring is not likely to be a perfect match, that is why they need to do something with the entire floor. Unless, of course, you have to have some remnants of the original flooring.

Thanks for your advice.


I spoke to two repairmen and both said that they can repair that spot, but will need to also sanded the entire room flooring to make it even.

Otherwise, the floor will not be smooth and even.

 

[travis82]

I think you could sand it out yourself and splash on three coats of finish sometime when you're bored. That service man is just looking for a bigger check; he doesn't have to do the whole floor, not if he's good at what he does.

Thanks for your advice. I'm not really a DIY ( do it yourself) kind of person. I may end up doing a terrible job out of it.

The servicemen insist he needs to "smoothen" the entire flooring after replacing new wooden parquets.

 

[travis82]

If you're handy at all, you could probably pull up those burnt pieces, and replace them with a few from the back of a closet where no one would miss them.

Thanks for your suggestion.

 

[travis82]

Talk about a streak of back luck. Back in college after almost a month of break, and the Insurance didn't completely cover/fix my car, with some minor set backs for the engine. (Gonna cost more$$) and my desktop corrupted when I use my editing software.
I just hope they can restore my files. I had tons of assignments inside there Off to the rink for stress relieve. Please lord no more knee injury.

Why is your desktop corrupted? virus? malware? spyware? Maybe you should get an anti-virus software or firewall.

How about using public computer? If you use the computers at a library or school or computer lab, you can surf freely , knowing that even if the computer gets corrupted.........it's not your computer and you don't have to worry about it.

What happened to your car?

 

[travis82]

Ugh to coffee dates with NO chemistry. But I was hungry and had sandwich. He was in a hurry anyway. SO...just minor vent. He didn't feel anything special and nor did I...But the lunch was kinda expensive for what it was. I just figured out that they make like a 1000% profit on a cup of tea. $2.50 for a 25 cent teabag. OK they had to boil the water...so...950% .... and then they have to pay the server...but even after ALL possible overhead still OUTRAGEOUS PROFIT on a cuppa. Yes, I was more concerned about that then the guy in front of me cause I wrote him off after a minute or even less.

So it was a coffee date but you had tea? Would it be called a "tea date"?

Is it at Starbucks? Their beverages are very expensive.

 

[Scealle]

Why is your desktop corrupted? virus? malware? spyware? Maybe you should get an anti-virus software or firewall.

How about using public computer? If you use the computers at a library or school or computer lab, you can surf freely , knowing that even if the computer gets corrupted.........it's not your computer and you don't have to worry about it.

What happened to your car?

Not sure tbh, I was listening to a youtube video and 5 seconds later the whole screen froze and pix-elated @_@ I did have defensive software measures so it's not malware infection. The servicing centre told me the graphic card malfunctioned, thank GOD I had warranty, I bought one of the more expensive graphic cards at the time. Though the warranty needs at least a month of repair @_@
So bought a cheap 100 bucks graphic cards for now.

Well I can always go to school to do work, there are hundreds of PC in the labs and most of my classmates and friends are there. Just that usually when I see them I would not stop talking to them lol (I am very chatty lol), so it's a big distraction on my part and hence why I chose to do work at home generally.

I was rammed by some jerk who refuse to pay up @_@ it took quite a while for the insurance to fix, but they do not cover some of the damages so I have to shelf out quite a bit of $$ With so many property damages at the same time, my wallet cries bloody murder