So I have this friend that I'm head over heals in love with. He's a very sweet guy. And for the most part he's had this girlfriend since I've known him who he's had on and off trouble with as they would break up constantly and get back together constantly. Usually their break up was due to her doing things like cheating on him, finding some other guy that she was interested in, or just them plain not getting along. But, I found out once through my roommate that this friend told him that he was bisexual.
Since then, I had noticed (whether it was my imagination or not) that this friend seemed to possibly have interest in me, though he was dating his girlfriend and he's not the type to cheat or anything and despite the fact he doesn't know that I'm gay. And he never admitted to being bisexual to me, despite the fact he had confided in me many other times about other things going on in his life.
But in the end, when it seemed his relationship with his girlfriend was getting more stable he started sticking to saying he was straight, and that once his girlfriend tried to convince him he was bi but it just wasn't true.
Well, recently his girlfriend broke it off for good with him and she moved on with some guys she met online. and they've been broken up for almost a month and he's been a wreck lately. But he and I had been texting each other alot. Alot of the time he would just text me to say hi or ask what I'm doing. And once again, I started getting the feeling that he might be interested in me.
Well, last night, he, a friend of his, and I got together at my place and we got drunk, played video games and pretty much hung out. But at some point during the night (and I can't remember what possessed me to do it) I started teasing him and I put my arm around him with my hand rubbing his shoulder. Now I was wasted at the time, but he only had a couple of drinks so he had to be pretty close to sober. Now that escalated to me running my fingers through his hair, and he ended up putting his arm around me, on and off through the night we just sat on the couch either holding hands or with me having my hand on his knee or stroking his leg. And he didn't seem to mind it. I even asked him if this was okay and he said he didn't mind. And we were doing this in front of a friend of ours who didn't seem at all surprised by this.
Well 5 am rolled around and I went to bed and one of my friends crashed on the couch, the other on the floor. Well when morning finally came, I woke to the sound of my front door slamming shut and I realized that my friend and his friend both left, without saying anything.
Ever since then, I've been paranoid if I freaked him out and that's why he suddenly left this morning without any warning. I mean even if he's bi, I never told him I was gay so when I started pawing at him, it may have been surprising. And throughout the whole time I was holding his hand, had my arm around him or my hand on his leg, he didn't seem to mind at all. But I don't know. I have a gut feeling that he likes me back, but I don't know what to do from here. We haven't had a chance to talk to each other since last night and I have no idea what's going on in his head. I don't know if I should bring it up. Make it clear that I have feelings for him though I'm sure there is no doubt in his mind about that since last night. Or maybe I should just let this go like nothing happened, and hope he makes the next move if he's interested. I don't know... I mean I think he likes me, but I'm paranoid that I scared him off especially since it was only a month ago that his girlfriend broke up with him and he's still coping with what happened since they've been together for so long.
Since then, I had noticed (whether it was my imagination or not) that this friend seemed to possibly have interest in me, though he was dating his girlfriend and he's not the type to cheat or anything and despite the fact he doesn't know that I'm gay. And he never admitted to being bisexual to me, despite the fact he had confided in me many other times about other things going on in his life.
But in the end, when it seemed his relationship with his girlfriend was getting more stable he started sticking to saying he was straight, and that once his girlfriend tried to convince him he was bi but it just wasn't true.
Well, recently his girlfriend broke it off for good with him and she moved on with some guys she met online. and they've been broken up for almost a month and he's been a wreck lately. But he and I had been texting each other alot. Alot of the time he would just text me to say hi or ask what I'm doing. And once again, I started getting the feeling that he might be interested in me.
Well, last night, he, a friend of his, and I got together at my place and we got drunk, played video games and pretty much hung out. But at some point during the night (and I can't remember what possessed me to do it) I started teasing him and I put my arm around him with my hand rubbing his shoulder. Now I was wasted at the time, but he only had a couple of drinks so he had to be pretty close to sober. Now that escalated to me running my fingers through his hair, and he ended up putting his arm around me, on and off through the night we just sat on the couch either holding hands or with me having my hand on his knee or stroking his leg. And he didn't seem to mind it. I even asked him if this was okay and he said he didn't mind. And we were doing this in front of a friend of ours who didn't seem at all surprised by this.
Well 5 am rolled around and I went to bed and one of my friends crashed on the couch, the other on the floor. Well when morning finally came, I woke to the sound of my front door slamming shut and I realized that my friend and his friend both left, without saying anything.
Ever since then, I've been paranoid if I freaked him out and that's why he suddenly left this morning without any warning. I mean even if he's bi, I never told him I was gay so when I started pawing at him, it may have been surprising. And throughout the whole time I was holding his hand, had my arm around him or my hand on his leg, he didn't seem to mind at all. But I don't know. I have a gut feeling that he likes me back, but I don't know what to do from here. We haven't had a chance to talk to each other since last night and I have no idea what's going on in his head. I don't know if I should bring it up. Make it clear that I have feelings for him though I'm sure there is no doubt in his mind about that since last night. Or maybe I should just let this go like nothing happened, and hope he makes the next move if he's interested. I don't know... I mean I think he likes me, but I'm paranoid that I scared him off especially since it was only a month ago that his girlfriend broke up with him and he's still coping with what happened since they've been together for so long.
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