When I smoke and I lose control there's only One man I want: my father.
It's weird because I wouldnt do it sober but regressing cause of the high probably Wakes up something unconsciously.
He's very attractive, my type. Hairy, dad bod, tall, thick hairy cock, thicker than mine and big feet. I desired him a lot when I was a teen. I would sniff his White underwear with yellow stains because of the piss. The smell of real man. We are southern Italians and in Summer its very hot so we always stay in underwear and I can look at his bulge and I often Spy him when he pisses.
Once I caught him pissing After he came. The dick was semi hard, the head still wet and Red. He noticed I was looking at him so I ran into my room.
We have a difficult relationship, he was often distant and very patriarcal. So this desire Is probably Born from that. I Wish I could suck him, sniff his cock after some day he didnt was It, sniff his pits. Letting him penetrate me and use me and cum inside me.
I probably have a foot fetish because of him. When I was young he would put me on his feet and elevate me up and down, "the airplane". What I would give for his feet to touch me agin, have them on my face.
This Will never happen but I find this to be my ultimate fetish and my father is the manliest man to me.