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[Críostóir]

CumEater024, just so I'm sure: you do know that this was your brother sexually abusing you, right? No matter that you came to like it, no matter than you like eating cum now. It started as abuse and therefore it was abuse throughout.

I do NOT think your being bi is "his fault," if it's even appropriate to talk about fault for something that isn't bad.

 

[CumEater024]

CumEater024, just so I'm sure: you do know that this was your brother sexually abusing you, right? No matter that you came to like it, no matter than you like eating cum now. It started as abuse and therefore it was abuse throughout.

I do NOT think your being bi is "his fault," if it's even appropriate to talk about fault for something that isn't bad.

That is definitely not what I meant when I said fault. Being bi is great and being gay too. No question. But I never thought about guys before this started, that's all I'm saying. I just mean, that I like to suck dick and stuff. I am not that great with guys sexually when it comes to penetration or ass eating. Both are not really my things, you know.

I know what my brother did was abuse, but what should I do? It sucks... That's all. I don't mean to make this thread bad, if guys had great, consensual experiences with their brothers, awesome. Mine just wasn't so great.
He was using me to get off, not much else to say. He didn't care that I didn't want to or that I, at the beginning, hated it and feared to be alone with him. And now I see him and all is good. Like it never happened. He never even apologized or realized that what he did was wrong and bad.

 

[Críostóir]

That is definitely not what I meant when I said fault. Being bi is great and being gay too. No question. But I never thought about guys before this started, that's all I'm saying. I just mean, that I like to suck dick and stuff. I am not that great with guys sexually when it comes to penetration or ass eating. Both are not really my things, you know.

I think your specific skills and preferences (for particular acts) might be shaped by early experiences. Your brother forced you to get lots of practice sucking dick, after all. But I think you would have noticed an attraction to men sooner or later. (There are plenty of guys who were sexually abused as boys who have no desire to have anything to do with men sexually...and not all of them are homophobes, either.)

The fact that he started making you have sex with him before you noticed such an attraction is part of what makes what he did to you so very wrong.

I know what my brother did was abuse, but what should I do? It sucks... That's all. I don't mean to make this thread bad, if guys had great, consensual experiences with their brothers, awesome. Mine just wasn't so great.

This is part of what this thread is about, I'd say. Though the OP's opinion would be interesting here. OTOH what your brother did to you was not sex. It was RAPE.

As for what you should do about it...I don't know if you've been in therapy or considered it, but the symptoms of PTSD (and other troubles arising from childhood rape) can be subtle and pervasive. Even if you think you're perfectly OK now, you may have troubles later (I'm not a therapist, but I've been treated for PTSD and know it can be complex). Might be useful to do some talk therapy as a precaution. (Don't go to a psychiatrist. Many of them know SHIT about psych and try to fix every problem by putting you on some drug...and all those drugs have nasty side effects.)

He was using me to get off, not much else to say. He didn't care that I didn't want to or that I, at the beginning, hated it and feared to be alone with him. And now I see him and all is good. Like it never happened. He never even apologized or realized that what he did was wrong and bad.

You say it's all good, like it never happened, but then you point out that he never expressed any regret or remorse...which makes me think you're not as OK with it as you say. Might be useful to confront him on it (though I wouldn't take this step without doing some therapy first).

Full Disclosure: I'm pursuing this in part because *I* have a strong sense that he shouldn't get away with it as if he didn't do anything wrong. If my past experience is anything to go by, he'll probably deny remembering doing any such thing, or claim that you wanted it all along (the first being a typical abuser pattern, the second a typical rapist pattern). Calling bullshit on either or both is a good thing.

 

[CumEater024]

I think I might definitely suffer from PTSD. I always wanted to go to a therapist but haven't. I have problems with other people, can't really trust them, especially men. I always kind of think men want me to please them, which of course is totally absurd. Even sexually I am totally into dominant guys who make me suck their dicks and eat their loads.
So I do think that I suffer from this.

I think you misunderstood or I have written it wrongly. I meant for him it's all good, or so it seems. It's not and has never been all good with me. I love my brother in a way, of course, but I hate him for doing that to me. And for such a long time.

 

[Kristal]

If that makes sense. I also noticed at some point that I am bi, always thought that was his fault. I think I started to enjoy it more when I realized that I like sucking cocks.

It makes sense, I kind of think the same about my brother & I. As in, "if we had never messed around, would I be bi now?"

How was your experience, Kristal?

It started after our Dad died, when he moved into my room because I kept having terrible nightmares. I don't remember exactly how it started, like how he initiated etc, but he was the elder brother and I'm pretty sure it something like him saying "my friends told me about this thing at school, want to try it out?" and as I felt bad that he had been forced to share a room with me despite him not wanting to, so I said yeah, hoping he'd forgive me.

I remember it just started off as blowjobs, me sucking him. We used to call it something really weird so that we could talk about it in front of other people without them catching on.

Over time it progressed into anal, though we'd always be really coy about everything. It would never really be "come over here, and give me a BJ?", it'd be him subtly pulling his shorts down (or whatever he wore to bed) and then me just going over and doing it or me pretending to be asleep, but subtly having my shorts (or whatever I wore to bed) pulled down a little and him coming over and sticking it in me.

He did suck me off sometimes, but I never really enjoyed it. I tried to do him in the ass but I really had no idea what I was doing, so I didn't really enjoy that either so didn't do it often at all. Although now I know what I'm doing, I still don't really enjoy it (although I would say that I am a top). I think I do it because I know, from my experiences, how good the other person could be feeling, if that makes sense.

It ended about 4/5/6 years later when our mum decided that I was old enough to not have nightmares, so she let my elder brother move back into his own room.

We've never mentioned it since, but I'm the only one of our brothers that he never really gets mad with, so I do wonder if its because he remembers what we did together. Or maybe he just doesn't mind me.

I've had emotional + sexual relationships with men + women since, but recently I've started to fantasize about my brother again and its just weird. The men I like are kind of the same type as him, which is why I think he played a somewhat significant role in me being bi.

first time i've ever talked about this

 

[Críostóir]

I think I might definitely suffer from PTSD. I always wanted to go to a therapist but haven't. I have problems with other people, can't really trust them, especially men. I always kind of think men want me to please them, which of course is totally absurd. Even sexually I am totally into dominant guys who make me suck their dicks and eat their loads.
So I do think that I suffer from this.

I think you misunderstood or I have written it wrongly. I meant for him it's all good, or so it seems. It's not and has never been all good with me. I love my brother in a way, of course, but I hate him for doing that to me. And for such a long time.

I think your path to healing may involve confronting him for his repeated rape of you. That distrust of men sounds familiar. Definitely, definitely seek therapy. There is probably free or low-cost therapy available in your area (unless you live somewhere truly horrendous like rural Mississippi). PM me and I'll try to help if you want.

 

[CumEater024]

It makes sense, I kind of think the same about my brother & I. As in, "if we had never messed around, would I be bi now?"



It started after our Dad died, when he moved into my room because I kept having terrible nightmares. I don't remember exactly how it started, like how he initiated etc, but he was the elder brother and I'm pretty sure it something like him saying "my friends told me about this thing at school, want to try it out?" and as I felt bad that he had been forced to share a room with me despite him not wanting to, so I said yeah, hoping he'd forgive me.

I remember it just started off as blowjobs, me sucking him. We used to call it something really weird so that we could talk about it in front of other people without them catching on.

Over time it progressed into anal, though we'd always be really coy about everything. It would never really be "come over here, and give me a BJ?", it'd be him subtly pulling his shorts down (or whatever he wore to bed) and then me just going over and doing it or me pretending to be asleep, but subtly having my shorts (or whatever I wore to bed) pulled down a little and him coming over and sticking it in me.

He did suck me off sometimes, but I never really enjoyed it. I tried to do him in the ass but I really had no idea what I was doing, so I didn't really enjoy that either so didn't do it often at all. Although now I know what I'm doing, I still don't really enjoy it (although I would say that I am a top). I think I do it because I know, from my experiences, how good the other person could be feeling, if that makes sense.

It ended about 4/5/6 years later when our mum decided that I was old enough to not have nightmares, so she let my elder brother move back into his own room.

We've never mentioned it since, but I'm the only one of our brothers that he never really gets mad with, so I do wonder if its because he remembers what we did together. Or maybe he just doesn't mind me.

I've had emotional + sexual relationships with men + women since, but recently I've started to fantasize about my brother again and its just weird. The men I like are kind of the same type as him, which is why I think he played a somewhat significant role in me being bi.

first time i've ever talked about this

I totally get you, this was my first time talking about it too.
So I guess we both have really bad experiences. But you seemed to like it? Or is that wrong?
Or at least you miss it now?

 

[Kristal]

I totally get you, this was my first time talking about it too.
So I guess we both have really bad experiences. But you seemed to like it? Or is that wrong?
Or at least you miss it now?

I think I liked it. I've never been really close to anybody (no friends nor family) and I guess that I enjoyed the 'closeness' that it gave us. Not physical, but emotional. Like, having a secret relationship made me feel included and part of things for once. I don't know if I genuinely got pleasure from it though.

There have been times where I've been so close to bringing it up with him and talking about it, but I don't because I'm afraid of how he'd react to talking about it.

Although I sometimes 'fantasize' of it happening again, in a positive way, I don't know if I'd enjoy it if it happened again though. But the fear of rejection is the main problem.

 

[CumEater024]

So is your brother gay or bi? Or straight? Does he have a girlfriend?
What's your relationship like now? Is he also treating you like it never happened?

 

[Kristal]

So is your brother gay or bi? Or straight? Does he have a girlfriend?
What's your relationship like now? Is he also treating you like it never happened?

He hasn't said anything so I assume that he's 'straight'. He's had girlfriends and has been sexually involved with them. But then again I have had relationships with girls too. He doesn't have a girlfriend right now, and hasn't had one for a year or so. He and his last one had a nasty breakup.

We have a good relationship, I suppose. Like I said, I've never been really close to anybody. We're friendly. We talk and joke, but we don't really have much in common, so don't spend masses of time together. But we have a good relationship, I suppose.

It's never a topic of conversation, really. There's never a time that either of us have hinted at it. I do wonder if he ever thinks about it when we talk like I do though. He doesn't 'treat me like it never happened', its jsut never came up.

 

[tomhrdhat]

My top fantasy is to be with 2 brothers

 

[jtb24689]

Re: Ever sucked your male realtives dick

So I have read many of the stories here and find so many of them hot. I guess it's because many remind me of my own personal experiences growing up. I have had many sexual experiences with other male relatives. One of my cousins and I used to play the "I'll show you mine if you show me yours" game many times...which eventually led to us jerking off together. We were a couple of years apart and we didn't even have pubic hair at the time, but I remember our dicks would get rock hard and eventually it led to us trading blow jobs. Once when my Aunt (his Mom) left us in the car while she ran into the grocery store, he quickly pulled down his pants to reveal his hard dick and didn't have to say a word. He just motioned for me to suck it so I did....we didn't have enough time during that particular incident to get him off but it was still fun nonetheless.

I have also had experiences with my older brother, who is about 3 years older than I am. Once when a relative came to live with us I had to give up my room and my brother and I shared a bed. I remember one night I woke up (I was sleeping with my back to him) to him pulling down my underwear and pajamas and playing with my ass crack and then my hole. I pretended to be deep in sleep. Before long he stuck his hard cock in my crack and started humping my crack until he came. He didn't penetrate me though, and looking back I wish he had.

We used to get together with a couple of brothers from the neighborhood...one was about my brother's age and one was about my age. We used to go off hiking in the woods and it wouldn't be long before we'd be taking turns sucking each other's dicks. It was mostly me with the boy closer to my age, who was able to cum already and he would jerk off for me and show me cum all the time. His older brother was hung with a fat uncut dick...I didn't suck it much because I remember for some reason being sorta afraid of it. But he got his dick in my brother's mouth several times. I had a very sexual childhood...and enjoyed every bit of it.

 

[Storybook_Man]

I saw my neighbor getting head from his son in law behind their garage one day. I thought they would both be really fucked if they were caught by either wife or daughter.

Blackmail!!!!!!

 

[BoyJ88053]

Oh god no! BUT does having sex with your professors, who were in their late 40's to early 60's, counts? They were the perfect "daddy" type of men and they were my EX-professors - 3 of them, at different times. One with him in his office, the other two at home - teacher/student "visit."

I wanted to be fucked by my college professor. He was one of my older men fantasies!! So masculine, silver-haired and a very healthy bulge

 

[WIZZARD101]

Re: Ever sucked your male realtives dick

a few years back i went to a family reunion. i am out to the family so a cousins boy ( just had turned 18 so its was legal) starts asking me about being gay and we talk and he say he wants his first experience to be with a man who is experienced. it was at a series of cabins on the lake . we went to mine and damn he was a hony little fucker and loved to suck and fuck. i guess he liked it cus over the weekend he came back twice. i still am in contact with him and he is out and having fun now and thanks me for being his first

 

[Storybook_Man]

Re: Ever sucked your male realtives dick

a few years back i went to a family reunion. i am out to the family so a cousins boy ( just had turned 18 so its was legal) starts asking me about being gay and we talk and he say he wants his first experience to be with a man who is experienced. it was at a series of cabins on the lake . we went to mine and damn he was a hony little fucker and loved to suck and fuck. i guess he liked it cus over the weekend he came back twice. i still am in contact with him and he is out and having fun now and thanks me for being his first

I know a few people now that have had experiences with their cousins. Its like a non issue. Love it

 

[tastywalnut]

Sex with my dad? Never in real life but quite often in my fantasies. Dad is the man of my dreams. My sexy dad: Salt and pepper bushy hair, bushy moustache, mischievous grin, very masculine. Sharply dressed (the man doesn’t even own jeans): linen pants, dress shirts, smooth silky dress socks covering his big slightly hairy lickable feet, Heavenly smelling Perry Ellis boxers. My dad’s used boxers smell fucking amazing. Not at all smelly but very musky sweet and masculine. Sniffed a lot of men’s undies in my life but none have even come close to smelling as good as my dads. Never had sex with him in real life but I know what his penis and nutsack smell like. And inside the boxers hides the penis of my dreams. The cock I want to suck most in the world Dad’s cock: Unut. Large. Simply beautiful to behold (recently saw it for the first time in a while). God damn I would suck that thing. Slip my tongue underneath that foreskin and give it a thorough cleaning.

Me and my Dad I have an very active steamy sex life together-in my fantasies:
Dad and I in bed. Under the sheets. Cuddling. Naked. Our mouths locked in a sloppy passionate kiss. Our lips never separating. I love the feel of dad’s tongue exploring my mouth. I suck in greedily. While dad’s tongue explores my mouth his phallus rubs lovingly against mine and our hands explore each other bodies. My body melts under his as he squeezes my cock and massages my nut sack. Ooh dad yes. Our lips separate and we look into each others eyes. Ooh dad. Our mouths meet again and dad gives my cock another squeeze. Ooh dad yes. I stroke Dad’s pecker. Rock hard. Warm. Smooth foreskin. Need to feel it on my lips. I need dad’s manhood in my mouth. Ooh dad. Now. I pull away from dad’s kiss and quickly pounce on his pipi. I work to suppress the gag reflex as Dads sizable erection fills my mouth. I take his pipi out of my mouth and push my nose into dad’s scrotum. Dad smells unrea. Ooh dad! I bury my nose into his bushy pubes and inhale deeply. OOH Dad! I bring my lips to the tip of dads weiner. Foreskin covers is cockhead. I use my hand to peek open dad’s foreskin and jam my tongue underneath. My tongue slides inbetween his foreskin and glans and I move it around. Dad moans. My mouth starts to feel thicker with the taste of dad’s foreskin secretions. Ooh dad! I engulf dads pipi and start sucking again. Dad moans. I need to have my mouth ill with his jizz. I rub my tongue against his pipi and move dads cock in and out of my mouth. I feel it tart to swell and dad moans. I take his cock out of my mouth and push back his foreskin. I rub the tip of my tongue against his piss slit. I slurp his pecker back in my mouth and my mouth starts rubbing against his shaft as I move his penis out of my mouth. Dad’s cock swells. He moans and his pipi explodes in spasms of excstacy and squirts his sperm into my waiting hungry mouth. OOOH YES. I roll it around in my mouth a bit and swallow. His sperms coats my throat as I swallow and my mouth fills with the funcky taste of sperm. I bask in the flavor of the jizz I most want to taste most in the world. My dad’s sperm. In my mouth. Life is perfect.

 

[kmere44549]

Blackmail!!!!!!

that what cellphones are for. record or pics

 

[purina]

I think my mother did - several times.

 

[tastywalnut]

Since moving back home dad and our nightly routine. When every else was asleep we were at play. Dad would come visit me in my room at 2 in the morning. And would stay till about 4. Those two hours were our time. I liked to think of it as our father son bonding time. And bond we did. I would be staring at the clock waiting. Waiting or the time he would be in my arms. Waiting for his kisses. Waiting to pleasure his hard throbbing manhood. Staring at the clock. 12:49, 1:10 AM, 1:35, 1:48. The time was getting near. I hungered to feel his touch. I hungered to taste his sweet lips. I hungered to pleasure with his throbbing manhood.

Tonight was going to be special. Since we started our late night session our lovemaking focused on making out, rubing our cocks together and of course lots and lots of sucking. But lately dad had seemed more and more interested in my ass. Caressing it, kissing it. Last night he was fingering it, sliding his fingers inside me as I sucked him. I was more than ready to allow dad to have his way with my ass. I made sure to shower before bed and paid special attention to being extra clean down there, fingering my asshole with a soapy finger to make sure it was clean for dad. I glanced at the clock. 1:53. A bottle of lube waiting near the clock. Dad would be here soon. I usually just stayed under the covers and waited for Dad to come join me. We would make out and he would slip off my underwear.

But tonight was different. I pushed the sheets and blankets off the bed. I took off my undies. I lay on my stomach and slid a pillow under my crotch so my ass was propped up in the air. The moonlight shone through the window and illuminated my ass. I couldn’t wait to see how he reacted. I thought about dad’s cock. More than anything I wanted to be penetrated by dad’s big pipi. Almost instinctively I spread my legs. And my asshole twitched in anticipation. Of dad.

1:56 AM. I hear the door open. Dad comes in. I feel his hands on my ass. He squeezes my ass cheeks. And kisses them lovingly. Then he spreads my cheeks apart. And kisses my asshole. Ooh dad! He pulls back and then buries his face in. His probing tongue feels ticklish on my asshole. I lay there motionless, cock throbing while dad’s tongue eagerly probes my asshole. Ooh dad! After a while he changed position so he was ontop of me. His rock hard pipi throbbing in my asscrack as is hands moved from my chest to my cock to my balls and he bit my neck. “Dad put it inside”. “Are you sure” “YES, just go nice and slow” I quickly grabbed the lube and slathered a bunch onto dad’s cock and a bunch onto my asshole. I grabbed his cock and guided it to my hole. Gradually dad’s cock started slipping inside me. Soon his glans was inside me. Dad gently thrust in and out “go slow dad”. Two inches of Dad inside me, then three then soon all 9 inches. Dad was inside me. “Ooh dad” “Ooh son” he kissed my cheek. Dad moved in and out of me while massaging my cock and balls. He was moaning and tarting o pick up the pace. But I wanted to switch things around. I wanted dad to fuck me face to face.I wanted to gaze into his eyes as he penis moved in nd out of me. “Dad lets change position” Dads cock slipped out of me. I maneuvered us into missionary position. I guided dad’s cock to my asshole. He slid inside me effortlessly. Dad put his mouth on mine and slid his tongue inside. He fucked me as I sucked his tongue. As dad picked up the pace I started jerking my own cock. Our lips parted and I gazed into his face. “Dad” “Son”. I clenched my asshole as hard as I could and dad let out a moan. It wouldn’t be long now. “Fuck me Dad fuck me” Dad was breathing heavily now and I continue to jerk. Dad moaned and thrust inside me. “Ooh dad, fuck me” Thrust. Dad suppressed a gasp (we had to be careful to not wake up the entire house with or antics) and I watched his face contort. I could vaguely feel his cock spasm and fill up my insides with warmth. I was close to the edge and gave my cock a few more jerks. I jerked and squeezed down on his cock with my asshole and suppressed a scream as I came and covered us both in jizz. “Ooh dad” “Oooh son” That was the first time he fucked me. But not the last.