Remember your first homoerotic feeling?

[heir-to-the-wind]

Can you remember your first homoerotic feeling, even though you may not have recognized it as such at the time?

I had a crush on Johnny Crawford who played ‘’Mark’’ on the TV series ‘’The Rifleman,’’ although I attributed the attraction to envy because of the fame he got for being the cute son of Lucas McCain.

I also got that funny feeling whenever, in a cowboy show on TV, the contrite handsome buckaroo gets mixed up with the bad guys, confesses his complicity to the sheriff, then says, ‘’I guess I’ll have to take my medicine.’’ It was corny moralizing in early television, but to me it meant pulling down his pants to get a whipping. And the thought of seeing his naked butt turned me on, even though I had no idea why. It was certainly jack off material for me.

 

[rareboy]

I was four.

I just fell in love with my uncle's best man at their wedding.

And then it was every handsome man after that.

 

[Cormac135]

Primary school crush on Paul Nardino.

 

[eastofeden]

The first one I remember nurturing was Joe D'Allesandro....I thought he was the sexiest man alive....I liked everything about him....

I still have all his movies...got rid of most of my movies when my digital libraries online became easier but not Joe's movies...

 

[heir-to-the-wind]

TV and movies seem reasonable. My first ''live'' attraction was a neighborhood boy who had a summer job at the library down the street. I wished I could become invisible, follow him home, and see him naked -- and especially whether he jacked off.

 

[peeonme]

When I was young I remember taking pleasure in looking at "Boy" in the TV Tarzan series back in the late 50's. I didn't see it as an attraction, the first time I had a physical attraction I was 13 and my friend had some tight pants on, as we set talking my eyes were glued to his crotch, he smiled and told me to go for it.
We became very close

 

[heir-to-the-wind]

I would have been horrified at not knowing what to do sexually if someone had said ''Go for it.'' My cousin and I were thrilled to play a card game with the winner getting to put his finger in the other's butt. The thrill came from doing something naughty -- the pull down your pants thing.

 

[Charon]

Back when I was six, I started to feel attracted to other boys in my school, and shirtless men in underwear ads and fitness mags.

 

[heir-to-the-wind]

^^ Oh, yeah. I forgot about looking at guys in underwear in the Sears-Roebuck mail order catalog. In one edition, the tip of a guy's dick was showing, and it had to be recalled.

I also liked the pictures in men's pulp fiction magazines, mainly cowboy action.

 

[G-Lexington]

Not really but kinda sorta?

I recall, in my pre-sexual years between the ages of three and ten, having vague sorts of...thoughts and feelings. I don't really have a name for them, but let's call them "adult" feelings. And it's a very broad range of thoughts and feelings, not all of which were homosexual or even sexual. They often had something of a sensual feel about them, but separating out what was (homo)erotic and what wasn't is pretty tough.

Some examples? OK.

I grew up in the 1970s, which was sort of post-sexual revolution/pre-AIDS era. Although I never assumed that I was supposed to "become" anything in particular, I was surrounded by a lot of images that seemed appealing. Looking at everything from print ads for cigarettes and liquor, to album covers, to variety shows on TV...they sort of indicated a sort of lifestyle that appealed to me. I could easily picture myself grown up and living in a hip modern (circa 1975) apartment, with a bear-skin rug in the living room. I'd wear those clothes that showed off my hairy chest (I apparently assumed I'd have one). I'd have parties where everybody drank complicated alcoholic drinks, and laugh about wonderfully witty things that I hadn't figure out yet. And I think even then, I knew that I'd have sex with somebody (or a succession of somebodies), and it'd all be so awesome being an adult.

But again, these thoughts were both far-reaching and nebulous. So when I'd see something even rather overtly erotic - like this:

I wouldn't necessarily react to it in any overtly sexual way. It didn't make me think "I want to have sex with him", or even "I want to have sex". It just added to that image of being a confident adult living a sensual and bon vivant lifestyle...and perhaps while wearing this underwear. I reacted to it the same way I reacted to liquor ads from the period.

Lex

 

[GreyUnderscore]

Before I began puberty I always wanted to spend time with a neighbor of mine. We would play video games at his house and I would always try to get him to play "show me yours and I'll show you mine." It happened a couple of times but then he wanted to stop. I didn't.

 

[heir-to-the-wind]

^^ Lex, always a pleasure to read your posts.

 

[peeonme]

I would have been horrified at not knowing what to do sexually if someone had said ''Go for it.'' My cousin and I were thrilled to play a card game with the winner getting to put his finger in the other's butt. The thrill came from doing something naughty -- the pull down your pants thing.

We were in an all boys residential school, it was no secret when it came to what to do.

 

[heir-to-the-wind]

Before I began puberty I always wanted to spend time with a neighbor of mine. We would play video games at his house and I would always try to get him to play "show me yours and I'll show you mine." It happened a couple of times but then he wanted to stop. I didn't.

Yes, he discovered girls. Damned twats always spoil the fun. Cowboys always stopped fighting when a girl got out of the stagecoach.

 

[Hotrich]

I was about six, and always looking at other boys, and wishing I could be with them, playing with them. I always got hard when in that situation, although I did not know what it meant.
Then I would read comics with Superman in them, and I would be hard whilst reading them, and wishing he was with me, cuddling me!
And I always found whipping scenes in movies, as mentioned earlier, to be so arousing. Again I did not understand why at that early age.
Now I have the answers, and could not be happier to be gay. I find it all so liberating and fulfilling.

 

[72-Jay]

I really don't remember, but was probably sometime when I was highschool age...

 

[Aron9000]

I think I was 4, it was at a baby sitter's house, she ran a daycare type of thing out of her house with several kids. I might have been 5 or 6, maybe it was a summer type thing when I was in grade school, not really 100% sure, but I remember being at her house all day. Anyways, it might kind of sound sick, but I can still picture that other boy's face, his cute blonde hair and bowl cut, don't remember his name though. I remember during nap time sticking my finger up my butt as well, can't recall if the other boy and that were connected though, that was a really long time ago. I didn't figure out what those feelings meant until many years later when I was 12 or 13.

 

[heir-to-the-wind]

I was about six, and always looking at other boys, and wishing I could be with them, playing with them. I always got hard when in that situation, although I did not know what it meant.
Then I would read comics with Superman in them, and I would be hard whilst reading them, and wishing he was with me, cuddling me!
And I always found whipping scenes in movies, as mentioned earlier, to be so arousing. Again I did not understand why at that early age.
Now I have the answers, and could not be happier to be gay. I find it all so liberating and fulfilling.

Enjoy the whipping scene. Youtube has lots of them-

 

[Cumlover91]

I was 10 and I saw a classmates dick in the bathroom. I thought about it all during the day until I got home. I didnt know what I was feeling so I went online and started researching about it. One thing led to another and before I knew it I was watching porn for the first time. Obviously it was gay porn. When I went into the shower, I masturbated for the first time while fantasizing of that kid fucking me in the ass. I came so much that I was shaking and arched over in complete bliss. I knew from that day that cock was all that I needed.

 

[heir-to-the-wind]

^^ A precocious 10-year-old. How lucky.