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I am a little confused. I am a 29 year old single man living in Austin, Tx. I like women. I have had feelings for them, emotionally and sexually. However.. from time to time.. since I am lonely.. I have let men in Austin give me bjs. Basically I see it as a form of masturbation.
When I was in college I had a gay roommate. Most of the time I would stay at my gfs place or crash at the fraternity house. But sometimes I would come back to the dorms. One night I was pretty drunk.. came home and he was gone. I thought.. good chance to jerk off. I was jerking off and he came in. I put my cock away.. but he made a joke about "need a hand? " I laughed and said more like a mouth. A week or so went by and he made a reference that if I did ever need a mouth to let him know. Which I eventually did. for about 5 months a couple times a week I would let him service me.
That all stopped. I moved into the frat house the next year... never had another guy do anything to me. Then years later I move to Austin from California. Here I dont know anyone... and while I am trying to meet girls... I often find myself saying fuck it and letting guys blow me and feeling really guilty about it for some reason afterwards.
Their is a girl in my life, but I am stuck in the friend zone with her. As I type this I am on CL looking for someone to come over to blow me.
Any thoughts, or suggestions, advice or comments?
When I was in college I had a gay roommate. Most of the time I would stay at my gfs place or crash at the fraternity house. But sometimes I would come back to the dorms. One night I was pretty drunk.. came home and he was gone. I thought.. good chance to jerk off. I was jerking off and he came in. I put my cock away.. but he made a joke about "need a hand? " I laughed and said more like a mouth. A week or so went by and he made a reference that if I did ever need a mouth to let him know. Which I eventually did. for about 5 months a couple times a week I would let him service me.
That all stopped. I moved into the frat house the next year... never had another guy do anything to me. Then years later I move to Austin from California. Here I dont know anyone... and while I am trying to meet girls... I often find myself saying fuck it and letting guys blow me and feeling really guilty about it for some reason afterwards.
Their is a girl in my life, but I am stuck in the friend zone with her. As I type this I am on CL looking for someone to come over to blow me.
Any thoughts, or suggestions, advice or comments?





















