Chapter 858 - E
“Gees, you in a hurry or something?” I asked, trying to get my breath and bearings.
“Oh, I need this so badly, Josh. I can’t wait to have you inside me. I need this terribly,” he said, again smothering me with kisses as he got on top of me and jacked our cocks together. He looked so hot and desperately needy. He moved down and started sucking my rock-hard cock, practically swallowing it all the way to the base. Needless to say, I was impressed and extremely stimulated.
“Damn, Mal, I swear your cocksucking has improved tremendously, not that it wasn’t good to begin with. You been sucking on that dildo of yours to practice or what?” I teased, hoping to slow him down a bit, but he seemed to be on a mission. I began to think it was going to take giving him an orgasm to settle him down some. I swung myself around in a 69 position and grabbed his cock and balls then inhaled that big cock of his. He sighed greatly.
“Oh, Josh. You do know how to please me for sure. Careful that dick has a hair trigger right about now,” he warned. I thought to myself that might be a good thing. Again, he swallowed my cock as I swallowed his, both of us going at each other with what seemed to be a vengeance. Mal stopped me several times. Although he felt fantastic sucking my dick, I was more concerned about him and taking care of that business to get him to settle down that I evaded pressure building in my own balls and warded off what should have been an orgasm flooding his mouth by now. I could feel his cock throb even harder, giving me an indication he was right there but trying to avoid it. He pulled out of my mouth frantically, but I grabbed onto his dick and furiously milked him of his seed, his legs shaking and his cock spewing his first load of love juice my way. His penis finally quit convulsing and he fell over to my side, his hand still gripping my cock. I swear I had cum everywhere on my face, neck and breast.
“Damn, Mal, when was the last time you got a load off?” I asked. He looked over at me, breathing heavily.
“This morning I guess. I was so horned up needing you so badly that I had to get a load off this morning just to make it until you arrived. Spending all this time with you today, and not having had sex yet, just made it worse. I’m sorry, Josh, but I couldn’t hold it back any longer,” he said in short gasps. I chuckled.
“Come here and kiss me, you crazy Amishman,” I told him. He grabbed me and pulled me to him and kissed me passionately again, tasting some of his own cum in the process. Finally, he got a wipe and cleaned me up so I wasn’t so sticky. “Wow, this is fresh,” I said, acting like I was tasting his cum. We both chuckled.
“Feel better now. I’m not going anywhere for a while anyway so you don’t have to cum back to back. We can cuddle some and relax a bit,” I told him. “You’re concerning me lately because you never used to be needly like this. We made love and had fun doing it when we could, but you seem obsessed with it today. I’m not going away. I’ll always be here for you, Mal, Jake too for that matter. Is every thing okay other than you’re just horny?” I asked. He sighed.
“Yes, but lately I’ve been so horny and not for Amy. She’s starting to bug me. She asks me what’s wrong also, why I’m so uptight all the time. I can’t talk to her about any of this. She thinks the sex has been good between us. I guess it is for her as I fuck the hell out of her as I’m dreaming about you fucking the cum out of me. I swear you’re the only one I can talk to about this, Josh. The dildo has helped, but I’m thinking there has to be more to my life than just a job, fucking Amy and then making passionate love with you when we’re able. I’m missing something. It never used to bother me, but now it’s starting to. What am I going to do?” he asked me.
“Do you think you want to come out as being gay, Mal, so you can start dating guys that you think you might like? Being your true self might be a huge step to helping you emotionally,” I suggested. “Leading a double life is not an easy thing to do and can be rather traumatic.”
“I can’t do that, Josh. I just couldn’t do that, at least not yet. If I found someone I thought I could truly love, say like Greyson, then I would want to live an honest life with that person ,and I’d be more than excited to declare I was gay and proud of it. Right now, I’m not sure who the hell I really am. What if this is just a passing phase of horniness that might switch, say tomorrow, after my ass if full of your sperm. That might be just enough to satisfy me for a while anyway. I just don’t see myself living a gay life at the moment. Gay sex, with a straight life outside the bedroom, would be wonderful, but not a true gay life anywhere I was. Believe me, I’ve thought about it a lot ,and no matter how much I try to convince myself I could do it, it just doesn’t seem right to me. I mean, I don’t have a family to hide my sexuality from, just basically business associates and mainly, Amy. I keep thinking I’m not doing her any favors by trying to be the loving boyfriend and stud she yearns for if this isn’t ever going to happen. As crazy as it sounds, I’ve tried to figure out ways to break up with her so she can move on with her life with some kind of a no-fault breakup, but if I complain or act the least bit upset about anything, she immediately capitulates. I keep telling her it’s my fault, not hers, but she says that’s why we work on things together because we love each other that much. Gees, Josh, I feel like I’m cornered and can’t break out no matter which way I go,” Mal told me. I hugged him then kissed him tenderly.
“Why didn’t you tell me you were having problems? You should always tell me your true feelings, Mal. I don’t want you harboring all this concern by yourself. It helps to talk things out with those that love and understand you,” I assured him. He smiled and kissed me again.
“Josh, you’re like the world’s busiest man with all kinds of friends and business associates to take care of. You don’t need a sexually frustrated, needy Amishman craving your dick night and day. I can’t bother you with all my problems,” he told me. I gave him another hug.
“You can bother me with anything you want. The fact that we care enough about one another to have sex together gives you access to me day and night, Mal. I’ll always be there to help you or listen to you. Do I need to call you daily to you to reassure you that you’re fine?” I asked.
“That makes it sound like I am really needy, Josh. I don’t want to be that guy or a friend that’s a burden on you. I want to make you proud of me for what I can do for the company and love me for what we can do together to show each other how much we care about one another. See, I can talk to you like crazy and already feel better because I can be open and honest with you, pour my heart out and you care about me, not thinking I’m some kind of an emotional midget, but truly caring and concerned about me. You are the most important person in my life, bar none. I mean that sincerely,” he said with tears in his eyes. I wiped a tear from his eye, then kissed him.
“Oh, I do care about you, Mal. You’re very important in my life too. I just feel somewhat helpless in that I don’t exactly know what to say or do to help you feel more positive about life and your part in all of what we do. I feel sad right now about your state of being,” I told him.
“It’s not your fault, Josh. It’s all mine and mine alone. I just feel grateful that I can talk to you about all of this and you not think I’m crazy, but can understand what I’m going through and listen to me to try to help. I love you so much for that. There is one very important thing you can do for me to make me feel one hell of a lot better though,” he told me. I looked him in the eyes as if to beg what that might be. “You need to fuck my ass good and hard and cum inside me. That will make me feel one hell of a lot better,” he said with a cute smile.
“Were you putting me on with all this stuff you said was bothering you when all you wanted was for me to fuck you?” I asked suspiciously. He smiled, then kissed me.
“Actually, no, I wasn’t putting you on, but it’s not as bad as I let on it might be. At least not yet. I can still function, but I am growing increasingly concerned that I’m going to have to change something as I worry about disappointing Amy and not being true to my own life. But, if you fuck me from time to time, I’m pretty sure I can cope without a shrink for a few months maybe,” he said with a smile. I hugged him tight and kissed him passionately, his cummy hard cock pressed up against me. I rolled him over on his back then slid between his legs as I sucked his cock clean of all cum giving him a fresh start. As I lifted his legs to eat his ass, there was a hug smile on his face. I shook my head smiling back at him.
“Oh this is what I’ve been waiting for, and I can’t wait,” he chided. I told him to watch out.
I ate his ass viciously making him finally beg me to fuck him. My tongue loved his hairy ass crack. I was precuming like crazy, enjoying the feast my tongue was having on his asshole. I had him writhing all over the bed, eventually screaming out for me to give him my dick. I spit on my cock then slapped his asshole with the head of my ass prober. Gently, I popped the head of my penis inside his ass then started to slowly slide inside him, but he wanted me fast. He grabbed my thighs and pulled me balls deep inside him in a hurry.