Thread of Nonsensical Ramblings

[umjreon88]

OMG! I'm a Singaporean, and my first boyfriend was Indian, but of the same nationality of course. He was love and so ultra hot! Tanned skin and all the works, beautiful smile, eyes and cock! I prefer darker skin guys in general, after all, most of my hook-ups have been either Indians or Black guys...

 

[refujiunderground]

how sex changed the world is one of my favorite shows on tv. don't know if that's a good or a bad thing. i love the narrator's voice on the show.

 

[refujiunderground]

man, the WORLD is depressing. TOO FUCKING DEPRESSING. the pic in the avatar is exactly how i feel. i'm a sad clown right now. DEPRESSED!!!

i just want to crawl into a hole and disappear.

 

[G-Lexington]

I'm not sure why I agreed to act in a music video today, but that's where I'm headed. I'm playing the grumpy principal who doesn't like rock and roll. Typecasting.

Lex

 

[JPGhost]

I dont think the background- success- myth, etc influence much of white guy sex appeal marketability,

There is a loop-hole- I want to elaborate that.

Not trying to erase few factual facts on this one. There are types of people who allow themselves to get laid if the status clicking. Imagine the scenario- a white heiress lady; Paris Hilton like- and her cute mexican pool boy. The mexican pool boy- actually fit/kind of fit/interesting to her type of guy, but she didn't tell.
She even bad-mouthing that mexican guy among her friends and never allow herself to be acquainted due to class/level.
^ completely hypothetical situation but if that's not happening in California, then very common in other parts of the world.

For people like that- hands down, dont waste your time with them. I can tolerate unfit mold complain (not my type)- but this is when racism issue went down, detangle everything to a mess...because these people ...are near sighted. Their dating rules were based on surface or "render" level which is..money, fame, class, background, education, power, even fetish..

People might change for the better but Im positive these people actually dont know what relationship is about. They rely at a/some very weak foundation that might crumble/backfire them later at the future and they're usually unhappy/living in fakery.... like Kartrashian.. If you're selfish- either you or your partner will be suffer. If you lie in the beginning of rltship- the actualization-day won't be pretty.

That's a bit rltship on that, but notice- those judgements

money, fame, class, background, education, power, even fetish..

are totally render- material, VERY much on the surface.(E)
How about "loving-fetish?" this is also something that we hold privately. Only us can evaluate ourselves. TBH I think loving-fetish is not harmful.
I give pass for "biological-anti" I also give a pass for fetish- if you ..dislike being fetishized, just remember that your partner do it with love/infatuation to you and they do in full effort . You can simply refuse nicely. Huntneo (jubber ex) once wrote here: "I dont understand why black guys complain when white guys not hitting on them, and I dont get it either when we're complain for being fetishized!?" It's actually true- this is a no problem matter.

Who has white fetish here...?

Back to (E). I wonder should I put "skin-color" on that? For example:..the guy in front of you is black, then you automatically rule him out from your list,
Is that a matter of taste or simply being a racist?

When you use my model- everything is becoming clear. If you're not into black/asian guy- simply because he's not your type then you act according to your biological kick, in my page- you're not racist. But
...if you 'dislike' black guys because of his cultural association, bigots, bias, etc while..HE's completely innocent/dont do anything wrong to you!?- Then mam, you're a racist. If you blame the whole ethnic/community due to act of one person- then you're biased and a racist.

How do we know which on which we fell on? It depends of how you evaluate yourself. Everyone of us can lying on surface and we never know... I'm taking myself cautiously on this matter- as you see, I dissect between taste-mold through render carefully and perhaps this issue between racist and preference is one of my generator to write this long essay.

I believe Im not essentially racist- in "core" you can't count every word I say since my words are often racist. ^^ tee hee. I think nobody should get butthurt with racial tease and taunt- just enjoy the humor, we're not perfect! ^^
If Im eating out and I got 'ching-chong' customer name- I wont sweat it. The lady who suing over this matter on the news was simply over reacted. I might suing them if Im in dire need of money, still the resto obviously being stupid.

For me, true racism is the act itself. If you're capable to do crime hate due to your hatred- you're a true racist at heart. If you're an employee and you giving your employer hard time just because he/she different than you- you have an unrealistic hatred/bigot towards them and a racist. If you make one's life miserable because of his race (bullying) you're being emotionally abusive and that's also a racist act.

so NOW...we can get the difference.

 

[JPGhost]

Defeat and redemption.

For this chapter...I turn my head upside down. I scraped so many drafts which many thrown away. I dont want to write negative storm with no end point, I dont want to give false inspiration either.

Now continue from the last sentences:

But there is still more underlying issue ===>

it's related to this:

asian guy penis size=...maybe it's true that stereotype came from corner kettle of truth

because no matter what average my penis winning by a landslide- still it always bring negative stereotype whenever I make a move outside.

I dont really care about dick size, actually. Eversince guys I've been with 'usually' were never be overly big/too small than my size, then Im ok..eventhough I agree that too small isn't a pretty sight, too big also. I've been with a pornstar size: 8.5 inch, dont know what to do with it not good...

I used to be intimidated with muscle size but not anymore- I guess my taste progressed from clean-shaven muscle gods to.... hairy-stocky (muscular the better) scruffy/brawny guys. Notice I start posted a lot of bearded-moustached guy pics here. ^^

However, still have question regarding body image.
I wonder how asian body frame perceived in western world.
Is it true that asian guys always perceived as shorter, scrawny, less meat, physically effeminate?

Everytime Im bar hoping I always feel like...

and they're (white guys) like

it's like I dont belong there!!

Ok, I might exaggerate a bit. With my 5.11 frame and 155 lbs- Im not like that cute chicken, but 'still they seem bigger than me and I never can reach 34 waist size- DAMMMNN tad ass!! , Im size 30 btw. ^^

Sure there are few pocket GWM- I like short guys too :-D
and Im about their height most of time but still the number of short white guys can't beat petite asian guys roaming around in the same room.
That's what I'm concerned much. What if...the ratio of tall asian guys are like 5 every 10 white guys. Big dick asian are like 1:10 and Buff asian are like 3:10 (seriously not too many asian have athletic buff without being overly stocky/fat).
Good news, everybody seems to be able to grow muscle and asian are notorious in producing abs..but how many able to grow to this size

^with healthy package?

or like this:
Jang Byung Ho

Height: 6'1''

Off Season: 242lbs-253lbs

Contest: 220lbs
CRAZY! >o<

if you're into muscle- of course

and how about this hairy mexican?

Surprise surprise people, he's 100% Japanese and IF all japanese/asian man can grow sexy stubble like that...

Case done..

The thing is..whenever we want to stereotype- there must be another god creation carry a revenge from a 'less-than' community- they mind boogling all the hecklers and naysayers. But ..what use if the number of representatives cant pace up to make it equal?

I think the most defeating position for asian guy is to be "hair-less" it's the one that bothers me much (I wanna be hairy!! )
That could be curse or bless for some people. I feel it's not a curse entirely, I heard having insane facial hair could be pain in the a**.
BUTT...the curse is because Im hitting ALOT of hairy guys-- and I notice that they have strong cliche-just to dating their own kind. My chance to be with these kind of guys is very small..
I need to stop overly compare/being obsessive towards them tbh..
http://monstertrucker.tumblr.com/archive/2012/12
The more I looking at that, the more I become 'whitebrained' and defeated..why? The tension of wanting someone you never taste (bear beefcake) is far more psychologically consuming. It seems to make you wanting more- while not appreciating the rest.

Turn back time- simulate yourself when you're 5 yo being seduced with new toy- what would you do with an old toy you're currently grab in your palm?

the old toys- are guys you earn without cheat- happening naturally. He is not a total babe- but equal by any means. For me, the old toys are also means other color than white-- white glossiness seem distract me much, thinking they're "less than" which actually an optical illusion to perceive that. White vixen seduce me much with his bum bum..eventhough Im not entirely sold for white guys..but if you're living surrounded by them, you'll be on spell-unless you're having such defensive resistance/not into them.

and if Im cater to it, that's what I call: defeat...
Defeat means..you ogle/masturbate but your target never comes to you. In the end it's always you and your hand.
Defeat means "beg/fetch" since your green light chance is almost based entirely on 'mercy' of your crush.
It's like high school once again..you think of jock you like never give a chance..and when you met them, you just stutter...
You might have better term but I think defeat is what I honestly fell.

There is psychological defeat on the matter like "how to?" get their attention? But the most difficult/impossible thing as asian guys to break through is because most of us are hairless..therefore we dont cut- We have physical defeat.
Maybe facial hair transplant could help- but isn't really that tedious? Hair transplant? like to be real?...

Type of hairy I want is not like this:
http://formanz.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/04/tob06mq2.jpg
but I wanna be...JESUS FREAKIN CHRIST ..

I want to be like..or to fuck him, so confusing really. Actually I less care of what I look like...- it's the desire, the desire is overwhelming.
If I looking like that resulting me get much chances hooking up with muscle-gay bears, then please presto-chango me
http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2s7vuRDa21qhu1c4o1_500.jpg
He is too...I think he's an anomaly

Question is: How many of asian can cut like that? ^

Take a look if you will: http://www.flickriver.com/groups/1043716@N25/pool/interesting/
I like their frame and their asian-ness isn't brought me down a bit. It's not asian thing- it's their mold, some have FANTASTIC MOLD!! Fuck'em all!!



but the thing is how many of them can be found in latino, arabic/ white? My logic runs like this: some people dont hit asian guys because of physical limitation asian guys seem to inherited, like we're lacking in some aspects. It doesn't mean they're racist but they just stick to their preference while keep "open mind" when some of asian bear/muscle strikes.

Another form of defeat is to emulate/copy your fav look in order to impress people/uplift your ego (vanity) but unfortunately..you dont have a base to do so. For example: all plastic surgery victims.-- and if I decided to grow hair transplant, maybe/

I know this guy spent so much time watching his male models catalogue until he wants to be like them. Unfortunately, he doesn't has basic to look like them. I think he might look like a descent daddy without all the junk if he didn't push himself and he might be hairy naturally-

Donatella too- might be pressured watching her goddess models all day, then she tries to be in same level with them.

Defeat also related to esteem as I mentioned earlier.
I've encountered a black or south asian poster here who loveeees...to stroke ego of white guys while selling himself short.
I just smh with them, I get the humor ^^- sometimes very funny and right on inappropriate... but in the same time, after we've done, the effect is not too funny. It's dark, sick and absolutely need help.

 

[JPGhost]

Whether they want to have esteem or not is not my business. But dont you think low self esteem is unattractive? But what if THEY DO HAVE AND IM DONT!?

You can't change that..just like you can't change your face without faking it with surgery. There is fine line between exercise enhancement to cosmetic enhancement. I prefer exercising- I think exercising is victorious, not a defeat. but back to: what if THEY DO HAVE AND IM DONT!?

You still can't change that..you can't change who you are. The only way is to accept yourself with all your defeats- turn them out to be your advantage. You think you're less than this and that..how 'bout you asked your partner/bf why he choose you? Because you have something they dont.
Like my ex before- he's a 40+ yo bear, he just hitting asian twink like me.. cause I have things he likes, he can't get from his collagues.
Lol..I complained that I never hit a bear over that age- white man usually grow old like same and they're usually hairy, so it's very common to get silver otter/silver daddy but actually there are only a few that still (naturally) hairless. Yes but still- I wish younger- hairier muscular cub around my age please, that's the hardest to get.

They seem put up price/expectation too.

At this moment right now..Please dont think Im throwing outcry 'cuz I cant grab these babes.

Perhaps I rather look at myself in mirror and see what I look like before I hitting them.

and I won't lash them as "racists" because they're not into me..

because they might rejecting other whites who can't keep up on looks with them and many..are "defeated" on their eyes- not qualified suitors I meant..

Like I said here: Im ok with healthy dynamic in gay dating world. What I really try to erase from the surface of earth is the ugly slavery inside of it.

I just voicing the pressure I've experienced as GAM in United States. Voices that silenced because of too much pressure..because it seems..everytime we want to address our frustration it's like an open wounds to rub salt in, to be laugh, to be make fun of. But I won't silenced and I dont mean revenge either. It seems we're (asian guys) boxed- sardined inside bento box while not having a choice.
It's enough!!
And if you read thoroughly, it's not only about GAM- it's for all inequality in gay dating world.
As long people hiring and rejecting by the book- then Im fine.

Some of you might smh reading my long letter..."I dont experience what you think/experience, you might think too much."

Let me tell you, how my arguments could be sounded off/ invalid
if:~
1. Your taste is twink
2. Your taste vibe at you back mutually
3. you aren't idealist- you hv easy going sex life, you aren't hold onto specific type. A whore is a free man- I think
4. You dont have baggage in rlthship, you never been hurt/cheated/dominated/racially humiliated by other race particularly white, therefore you always in clean slate of everything.
5. You're fine and love living in stereotypes on role of what society perceived. If you encounter restriction- you dont try to break or analyze it because you worry it might ruin everything you earned/built. A state between hopelessness/complacency.
6. Like no.5 only because you're honestly at ease with the world, not against it.
7. You're the ultimate sex bomb and all types just fetch over you. ^^
8 ??? other?

Ok how to close this without I spilled out my personal guts on public? The ending....?
Thanks for reading :hugz:

it's confusing really...an extreme feeling between huge fascination and to be totally defensive.

Actually, ..esteem can't be bought/rent..
you need to find it inside yourself.
there are great things being asian and I dont wanna sound like butt hurt or anything but it's true, there are plus and minus. And also, accept your limitation. Gawd created me with asian limitation for some reason.

Im not fetch 325 lbs white bodybuilder, rareboy ^^ never.

Maybe I should let go of my lust ...mom said: If it's not for you, that means it's not for you, let it go...
if it's for you- then the sky will give you sign

The most important thing to me right now is to get equal partner by it means- not in physical level- but to your essence. Like Im a geek- I admit that O_O, I will exhausted/shocked to date a circuit gogo dancer- for sample. Be realistic to what's in front of you- your expectation vs. reality. You can agree/disagree- but to be equal it's the strongest way to keep it going harmoniously among other things


and remember..

dont be defeated, dont fetch, stay true to yourself

 

[refujiunderground]

your mind will grow bigger, your dick will grow smaller, escape to learn (cause penis is power), fuck a schoolhouse, schoolhouse rock, it's bout schoolhouse schoolhouse cock.

 

[refujiunderground]

if fucking you is right, then i wanna be wrong.

 

[JPGhost]

Things that unseen (because I always avoid it) but highlighted in vegas thread:

A sexual role isn't just a sexual role in dominant vs. passive culture but a pure form of symbolism. Those Asian woman automatically enrolled to be bottom with all the sticky-stereotypes feminine related issue. Gay guys are having a bit of freedom because gay rltship can swap role easily, even in sexual intercourse but still the result is almost similar.

I think the biggest element is ego (visible) while secondary element would be "escape"
those white man can't woe highly advance white woman- like the tricks aren't working. They need meek audience without having their ego crashed/ measured like with those (might) high demand white woman.

"escape" because all his tricks are wonderful to this innocent Asian woman.

"escape" because all his tricks are wonderful to this innocent Asian man.

It's not always working that way but the stereotype hurt my prospect BADLY! It seems there is a hush hush between white guys and GWM that it's a "weak-sauce" to date traditional/authentic Asian guy like me because the whole dating scene cries desperation. (from both sides)

Idk- nobody ever told me that---but I sniffing...

therefore- even with those who might secretly ok with me, he canceled out because he thought I might look shameful next to him.

ah..life.

What can I do if they think Im not his type? I can't change that.. but I wish that hassle^ could end in mid 21st century.

that's why maybe they wait until their prime time over to nail Asian guys...like it baffles me really. Sometimes I want to ask my old stan in tagged ( I had stalker in myspace era)--- when you start into Asian guys? Is it recently? then block him because he's too creepy.


sometimes Im sooo tired over this thing- to keep guessing intention of wg who apply, like I wanna give up this whole interracial thing.
No question for my bros, absolutely.

 

[JPGhost]

Not a true fan of Britney but this makes me love Britney and the video editing is mint

'bet could make proud few of Britney stan here ^^

 

[JPGhost]

If you around JUB for years..you might be already familiar ...

^you can show the booty but you can hid the face...there
Im proud that some jubbers are actually really fly.

got the pic frm tumblr when I browse by under category of UNF ^^

 

[JOHN B]

on a totally different note......does JUB have an app?...since my computer went the other day...my phone is my computer...leani g that I can do just about everything with this phone that I did with my computer.... but.....this place would be so much more easily accessible if it had its own app!! lol.... though I am learning my Firefox browser app on here is amazing!..

 

[JPGhost]

This is a famous parody of "Call me maybe" that has 7million view..with the lead guy- I think you know whose the cutest ^^

not my type though- but pay attention to his hair, his thick helmet straight-cropped hairdo..
I think his hair is awesome..

this look..is very youthful-looking..especially if combined with warm (contrasting color), stubble and clean hair look in overall..
it's super attractive.
I know..not everyone of us has thick bangs/ needle straight hair but for those who can pull and you're still in 20 something...try this look, work it, flaunt it ^^ It looks really good, Im not lie.

 

[JPGhost]

I hope I won't experience mid-life crisis when I hit 30 ^

Miu, 31, student...


* source: http://www.justusboys.com/forum/thr...learnt-today?p=8915662&viewfull=1#post8915662

 

[JPGhost]

she's..surprisingly.. on 86 team SHE LOOKS SO OLD omg

alongside with Lana, Gaga and Lilo

and Amanda Bynes...

 

[JPGhost]

Who cares if Valentino such a horrible bottom?

LMAOO!!

http://www.gaynet.tv/play-1220631-Hot_sex_gay_Hot_Video_356___adriano.html

*so happy to find his freebie vid

in other note: Only an Italian can expect us to pay $4 for his lame shitty ass video
http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=yQjWr-G451-

 

[JPGhost]

I made 3 chapters-long post about racism-related issue and it just need 1 thread to tumbling that:
http://www.justusboys.com/forum/threads/404291-Are-you-too-choosy-about-looks-for-your-own-good
Srsly..if more and more people think and feel like that, then all hypothesis would be invalid.

It seems Im making it sound difficult, harsh and cruel just like what happen in natural food chain

Did I saw Bear? and think Wolf- are like husky type brawny man and Cougar like Abercrombie pretty guys...

I don't know where I put myself in that food chain- I hope not the insects. maybe Im the raccoon/weasel. ^^
The thing is...unlike food chain- Those on top usually stay intact with their pact and don't wanna interact with the lesser.
That's what I always felt when Im put myself on the market. Im all alone and Idk why those on top don't wanna play with me?
I think because JUB is more warm and we're not intentionally hitting on another so people might getting more ease to say...yah, Im ok with gut feeling but that's what Im not feeling it outside! It's very systematic indeed although..
People (outlook) are nice here in my area- there is no bitchiness trend, people respect each other online and offline, that's good, maybe it's Seattle-polite but impersonal.
But I don't think that simple...because there is no heterogamous interaction, we're just pretty homogenic- don't you think?

However this thread have shown many people have willingness to grab hand by hand then together sing: "We're the World, we're the children..."
Im still skeptical...but deep inside- prove me wrong! ^^ If people are more likely to get attraction based on gut feeling, Im more than 100% support that

How about me? Would I get to know guys below me? (On market- don't get me wrong) I will...^^
but lemme taste Italian Beefcake on my table first, plz

 

[JPGhost]

and Amanda Bynes..

and Mary Kate- Ashley Olsen

but ditch the tramps..hello hunk

Alex Martee also born 1986 ^^

 

[JPGhost]

Old News..but just put 2 and 2 together..^^

http://health.yahoo.net/articles/cancer/superformula-turns-child-cancer-patients-superheroes





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