Thread of Nonsensical Ramblings

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[frankfrank]

Maybe talking about gay rights to people in Utah is like talking to waffles.

No, they're pretty steadfast in their beliefs - they don't "waffle" much at all, lol.

 

[JPGhost]

Ok, so 2 days ago was a giant festival for all Seattlelites.

http://www.google.com/hostednews/af...Kw?docId=d8a4f3b6-3a34-4811-8cd4-d7cd52360e44
Seahawks went to victory parade in downtown Seattle. GO HAWKS!!!

That day was big..first estimation of people watching parade on street was 300 k but on Wednesday it was whopping to 700+ and almost went to "a million" when parade happening. How FREAKIN crazy was that?! That's like the entire downtown population multiplying rapidly in 1 day!!!

TBH I wasn't there shame on me, I know, I choose my job first before Seahawks and maybe because my newly grown fascination over them wasn't enough to make me 'bandwagon' them on their victory day

So..no..photos, no me on that parade, cuz that would be fake -_-
But It was a "big deal" for Seahawks fans who were born here and grow up with them.^^ Wednesday was their coronation day from their hometown, Their fans were truly devoted to them, waiting patiently for 20/35 something years for Seahawks to win Superbowl

However, if Im just a little bit younger..maybe in my HS year or early college- I DEF go there It just not "cool" to not coming to parade..why so? Almost entire school went off that day, 60% students in Shorecrests hs went to parade- that's what I heard from my lil sis highschool, idk how big the number from grand total of Seattle school district ..teachers..office workers from all kind of jobs also skip their work ..eventhough..many of the employee or school official didn't especially marked that event as an excuse- so everything was on your 'expense'

Even our mayor, our city mayor was overjoyed and candidly said this on tv "Thank you for the 12th man, thank you for Seahawks because of you guys ...I dont have to work for a day!! And if students want to skip their class for this once in a lifetime experience, let them be! ^^"

Lol^ he reminds me of this cheeky mayor..

So yeah, I watched them from my break room- Tv with few of my un-cool coworkers.
We need paycheck more than Seahawks- Im not a loyal fans.. am I?

Forgive me Wilson, but I think I won't touch or handshake you anyway- the cream of the crop on that parade , so the parade wasn't worthy WIlson was standing on top of tall military amphibian-pick up truck which ...appeared like the "manliest" truck I ever seen..
Willson looked full of zeal and cheeky that day..rarely I saw him like that since he's usually dead-serious on tv..but GOOD JOB Willson!! it was YOU on the truck, not you and your wife!!...'cuz she might ruining my parade -_-

A grown man like me need at least 5 more years of intense fascination to them to make me 'go there' like a maniac

GO HAWKS!

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No, they're pretty steadfast in their beliefs - they don't "waffle" much at all, lol.

I meant their "brain" soft and plushy- like waffles
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[JPGhost]

Know thy enemies...

Know thy enemies also means that we have to think, feel and sense (straight guys) mentality. NOT to completely oppose or ignore and not to be completely sold either because refusal/lack of acknowledging "heterosexual man" and their traits in our life will create beyond repair- damage.

Examples: Russian tyranny against gays
- Should we mock and laugh for Grindr's mentality or we rather cry for it? ~The competitiveness of us, the 'shallow'ness of gay man sexual desire that many of us inhibit.

..those 2 I can think of right now and I bet more examples.

Russian Masculine Bullies: As I said..we dont have to be straight acting/ completely sold but we need to understand their language- at least to some extend. Failure to notice will create extreme clash and hate.The rule of thumb is to 'respect' each other's space.

However, we know their hatred always came first. Bitching and whining isn't the way to react to masculine bully since that just fuel the fire and escalate the situation. We need to dive to their mind and self defense ourselves. I dont want to give specific example because each case has different application..but I just did mine ..in US highschool I survived highschool, being out and free of my sexuality in tender year of 2005-when gay movement wasn't as big as now..and there was still homophobic-lack of understanding of gay people from straight perspective as seen from Chuck and Larry (Adam Sandler, Kevin James) movie- Oh! That was from 2007- still brutally offensive

and perhaps since we're guy..it's not hard to understand how guys think isn't?

isn't??....

Grinder:
Oh wow! They're so DAMN shallow! But you know, you can rip all of those masculine demand..and be yourself. Be totally indifference, be indiscriminative, be feminine, be an outcast, be out of shape, be open minded, be color blind, be age-friendly. Whatever it is, but DONT be a liar to yourself

If you're content and peace within yourself..I dont suggest you to change to anything else.

What I notice...people with true open mind, they reveal their inner self too..those rarities, they're like gems because they're luminous inside. They bond with their mate inherently with soul, not because of looks, penis size, race fetishism, business prospect or any selfish- superficial- win-win situation.

However there are MANY imitators out there- pretending they're open minded while they hide hidden agenda inside. Those are the hypocrites, serious-mind fucked denials or simply mean spirited teasers. These people are no different than those superficials which I think ..they rather show their true self and stop playing wolf who cries sheep.
>>>>will dissect more about Masculinity and attractiveness later on..to be continue ^^

 

[JPGhost]

U, myself is inherently a dude with all dude characteristic, who likes a dude. A cis? I dont like to use that term but what I learnt from myself through out years..
~ my desire, my bed position, my assertive- aggressive, my competitiveness, my taking charge, my modal..are like a dude.

But am I VERY MASCULINE? No ^^ Of course no..because that would be ridiculous. We are marbled (contain many elements) inside just like this betta,

MANY many of gay guys..are masculine flawed and dont know what masculinity is but they pretending like one (pure strain)

We need to have mirror to each of us and see.."Look! How many feminine/impurity spots I have?"^^

Of course real masculine guys are exist but they're RARE, even straight guys are suffocating/ pressured to keep up with the standard, they often lied to themselves.

Yeah..he could be a real breadwinner, having a white picked fences, SUV car, a cute wife, kids and yards of backyard for summer BBQ. However, dont cuss him mad or he'll become a back-stabbing BITCH, spread rumors like a mean girl you know from your high school.
Dont mess with him or he'll turn Cruella Devill

You see!!?^^..Even the most masculine guy you know could be a major bitch, a submissive bottom, a weak contender, a cross-dresser?

You never know but it's ok..because WE ALL IMPERFECT!! ^^

But-but ...he looks masculine!?
That's why many gay teen guys bulked up with steroids because "the surface" is the most important place to start

And we know...even straight guys are suffocating with the effect and the stressful thing that we're gay man are the most freckled/spotted from pure masculine standard BUT from us (gay guys who fixated over masculinity) came the BIGGEST DENIALS.

No?
I give 5 mins to just take a look out there

Done? ^^

I believe masculinity is 'exist' but there are things that are genderless:

i.e: If you like classic music, you're not gay or feminine
if you like fashion, you're not gay and feminine either

The sense of Art ..is not feminine, nor masculine.
The theme and nature of art COULD be masculine or feminine.

Aside, there are many adjectives that neither masculine nor feminine;
responsible, defensive, apt, grumpy, happy, charitable, poor, smelly, bitter etc, etc...

I swear, when the first time I saw Mucha Alphonse- Artworks..

I thought..these must be made from a gay guy ...too many flowers and gracious vines and how soft and sensitive those artworks... but then again, I checked that he was straight..-_-

Roberto Cavalli is straight..

this dude might already has wife and 1 yo kid
we never know...

^
those guys are artistically given but their orientation wasn't dictated by their arts..
Only masculine myths and close minded bullies like to exercise which one do/ onts..?

However...

American Horror Story- I watched the Coven edition..seemed very eerily 'gay'

No wonder- it was made from a gay guy creator- using female/feminine perspective
http://www.toplessrobot.com/2013/11/ten_reasons_why_american_horror_story_coven_is_the.php

 

[JPGhost]

There is nothing wrong if you think this as masculine:

and this...

Im not here to educate anyone. However, for me..masculinity is nothing but a very strong ideal (imaginary bubble) which value reflected back in reality and became EMBEDDED inside human mind, therefore it's real..just like a word can describe meaning.

Masculinity works in 2 realms:

Physical (Mars&Sun) Red/Orange

and Abstract (Jupiter&Saturn) Magenta/Purple

a TRUE masculine guy is a guy who reflects both of worlds. 24/7 PERFECTly...without fluctuating, without bitching and moaning- 'cuz that would be feminine. -_-

There are SO MUCH exhausting demands to be a true masculine guy:

~He couldn't be overcritical/ discriminative either..because that's feminine qualities. Idk I think perfectionism is inherited to both genders but those perfectionist, snotty and over critical people tend to appear like they came from inside one mold. -_-

~He can't even say Awwwwww how cute!!- to this puppy

^
I heard he can't utter word-"cute" if he's a true masculine guy. I read many youtube comments from self-described' tough guys reported that they lose some part of masculinity when watching those kind of videos.

~If he has to deal with difficult client tomorrow but he back-off...because he scares..
You're not being manly! Now man-up!!

~If he hides from his wife

~If he screams like a girl for a harmless itsy bitsy spider..

~If he's tough and he's submissive- call me maybe
Submission is NEVER in masculine dictionary.

~If he likes Mariah Carey for her songs-sake. Nothing gay/feminine with that...but masculine fight club presents: "Do not listen to DIVAS..!" -_-
If you gravitating towards, idolizing strong female icons - of course, that reflects SO MANY things inside of you

~Be a good listener, touchy-feely and being emphatic are neither masculine/feminine IMO but masculine rule forbid men to cry except for big league sports team

 

[JPGhost]

The interesting thing and what makes masculinity annoying, sexy, repulsive and wonderful at the same time is because how "FIXED" that is!! ^^

It's more fixed than wide range of feminine influence- just say they (society) have broader acceptance of what is considered 'feminine'
prove:

Not the same as when men wore a dress other than comedic reason 'still even for today.

But if you think about it, because it's SO DAMN fixed..therefore it's very fragile isn't?

Awwww.....
^so many unnecessary mess, false assumptions, heartbreaks and even blood spilled from masculine bubble..

I choose not to care for the mishap- at least he looks like a guy- that's my foremost attraction and that what makes me gay. And perhaps because we're all 'marbled' anyway even those straights. ..


Gay for pay...

 

[JPGhost]

Until now, I never quite find a female superstar whether actress, singer or idol whom I can relate/identify.
I like to watch their glamour side- actually really easy to be distracted with shinny things

Love whatever Gaga wears, she's entertaining my eyes but "Do I feel soulfully related to her?" Nope.
Rihanna- quite some time but she's inconsistent .
However, a new singer: Lorde. I think she's something different

Maybe Lorde is my Diva? Who knew? I like what she did so far..like her first album, been playing that all day long.
She's not too glamorous, maybe my diva isn't like femme pop star bitchess with faux female empowerment like Gaga, Britney, Xtina, etc.
Lorde reminded me with my gay friend; Adam. Adam's diva is Alanis Morrissette? She's just a musician for being a musician, not a "devine" feminine archetype. Is Alanis has huge gay followings? Idk

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And
This girl band

Actually have pretty masculine aura about them, I can switch their vocal to Matchbox 20 lead singer: Rob Thomas, I think he's fit that song Haim is quite different than regular girl band which usually appear too "girly"

like this one -_-

 

[JPGhost]

As long Im living in USA (AMERICA FUCK YEAH!! )

I think American National Song is something special. It's so beautiful, emotive and intricate. Not too mention, difficult to sing! x_x

Over the ramparts we watched
Were so gallantly streaming

Read more: Kelly Clarkson - Star Spangled Banner Lyrics | MetroLyrics

^ the streaming line- idk what key is that? So freakin low ^^ lol!

but the amazing thing is how that song really capture the spirit of America while being timeless-ly beautiful.

As long Im here, I've heard SOO many verses...I think every singer has different interpretation of how that song is suppose to be. It might be there is no certain rule of how that song is supposed to be carried? Idk It seems Star Spangled Banner is always changing since I never heard the very basic original version of that song ^^
So..from lots of interpretation, hands down! I think Demi Lovato sung THE BEST!!

Dont believe me? ^^

 

[JPGhost]

Marbled

How do you like your eggs in the morning?
I like my eggs scrambled with ground beef and goat cheese!

A song that makes your heart skip a beat?
Bonnie Raitt's 'Feels Like Home' and Mariah Carey's 'Always Be My Baby'.

 

[JPGhost]

A song that makes your heart skip a beat?
I always find it hard to say one song as I like so much music. One off the top of my head is The Doors' 'Love Street'.

What never fails to make you smile?
Paddling out for a sunset surf session in 6-8ft warm water waves always has me beaming.

A guilty pleasure you can't seem to quit?
I would say Mary Jane is a guilty pleasure I cannot seem to quit.

http://www.bet.com/shows/being-mary-jane.html

http://www.myportiswaspsays.com/2013/08/5-questions-with-seth-fornea.html
http://www.myportiswaspsays.com/2013/03/5-questions-with-christopher-camplin.html

 

[Essex Boy]

Heart skips a beat: 'Waterloo Sunset' (The Kinks); also 'Say You Don't Mind' (Colin Blunstone). I've heard both those songs hundreds of times and never get tired of either of them.

Makes me smile: Don't do much smiling. I'll get back to you on that one.

Guilty pleasure: 'Benidorm'! Just watched the last episode. If you ever get to see it watch out for Adam Gillen as Liam. He's a star.

 

[JPGhost]

Im just started to learning this "beaoootiful" song : http://vocaroo.com/i/s0MAysC7qWGN

 

[JPGhost]

As long Im here, I've heard SOO many verses...I think every singer has different interpretation of how that song is suppose to be. It might be there is no certain rule of how that song is supposed to be carried? Idk It seems Star Spangled Banner is always changing s

When Im thinking about that again. I think the unique-ness of American National Anthem lies in the "individuality" of that song itself. Maybe that song created to be versatile, timeless and can be sung in any type of vocal and music genre. Try to sing my first national anthem "Indonesia Raya" in melisma/vocal acrobatic version and suffer the consequences ..especially on national tv- you might get pelted with stones- kiddin my Indonesian national anthem has only one way to sing and everybody just follow.

However, Americans need to forbid Hillary Clinton to sing national anthem- since one time I overheard her singing in one of formal event on Tv- few years ago and I can't forget how horrible she sings..
made me wanna kill myself

 

[frankfrank]

There's people in here, too, who would atrociously butcher the Star Spangled Banner, too.

 

[JPGhost]

^


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This dude really look like a bulked version of Channing Tatum and his instagram pics are even better...I watched from the news the other day

Too bad we ain't his type
http://www.bellinghamherald.com/2014/02/14/3477581/jblm-soldier-charged-in-repeated.html

 

[jdcnow]

Now..lets celebrate the beauty, cutesy of Zac Quinto!

The dreams I've had of Zac...

(especially the Magic Mike dreams...)

 

[JPGhost]

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He's all yours ^^
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And now...
White chicks and baseball special edition

Nearly kiiilledd!!

 

[Scealle]

The dreams I've had of Zac...

(especially the Magic Mike dreams...)

OMG YESSSSS I lovessssss him in his Heroes days. (I feel bad for liking a villain character so much). But that man is pure *hotness*

 

[JPGhost]

^ You and JD can have 3 some with him x_x

The interesting thing and what makes masculinity annoying, sexy, repulsive and wonderful at the same time is because how "FIXED" that is!!

Like..how irky they're with female football player?
http://www.thepostgame.com/blog/men...woman-makes-history-playing-pro-football-game
I can't lie, I got irked too ^^