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[valle12tom]

Middle of the week guys and what are you doing this week? Are you having fun yet?

A friend I met on JUB a while back was gone and then today showed up again and reconnected. That is the thing I hate about the internet and relationships on the internet. You just have no way of knowing where somebody went to and how they are doing or even if they are are sick or well or OK. It is frustrating to say the least. But I was glad he was OK and stopped back by JUB and said hello. It is always nice to reconnect with an old friend.

But it got me thinking about my writing and why I stopped. I was addicted to my stories and my writing and what I was writing was taking over my life. I was just like an addict of alcohol or drugs. I needed the rush my writing gave me. I had to have it and I was stopping much of my life to feed the need the writing gave me. I was living in my stories and my life was suffering. My work and my social life was going downhill because I could not manage my need and craving for writing and what I had to do for a living and to make money.

I needed to be in each of my stories and it was so hard to write about a life I could never have but wanted so desperatly. I was starting to hurt deep inside my soul and that was not good.

So I quit and went Cold Turkey. I had to do it that way. So now I need to look deep inside myself and find a way to write and not let the stories take over my life. That is what is taking me so long. I haven't found the balance yet and life has to have balance or it gets out of wack and that is not good for anybody. I need that harmony.

I also have this desire to please those around me and that means you and all my readers. I want to please people. that comes form a childhood of neglect and beatings and abuse. My basic human instincts are to please everyone so as not to get hurt. And this craving to please people made me want to write stories that appealed to all kinds of people. I kept writng as people kept reading and asking me to write and telling me they liked what I was writng. I wanted to tell stories that would resonate with people. Fat people, the outside people, the nerdy people, the abused people and the popular people (of which I was never one). I wanted to tell them the story from my side of view. Does that make sense?

Does anyone understand my ranting today? These thoughts?

I mean if I had no life outside of writing it would be OK and I could and would spend all my waking hours doing research and writing my stories but I don't have that luxury yet in my life. I have to earn a living.

So there you have it guys. My life in a nutshell.

The temperatures are supposed to drop 30-40 degrees this afternnon. We may get some snow showers and it is supposed to be down in the 20's. All will freeze tonight so I must get out and enjoy the tulips and other flowers toady while they are still able to hold their heads up high.

peace and lots of hugs today as I wrestle with this craving inside.

 

[valle12tom]

Oh my what a roller coaster ride of weather we had here ove rthis past weekend.

Friday night after a gorgeous but cool day around 10 PM it started to snow and snow it did for the next couple of hours until we had about 5 inches of the white stuff on the ground. The green green garss was poking through here and there for quite a contrast but it was a white out the next morning. We ended up with about 7-8 inches of snow. I was off so I got to sit in my easy chair and watch it snow and read my book and drink my latte. I baked cookies and got some stuff ready for the Easter reception at my church.

Very cold and windy all day but later in the day the sun did come out but everything is frozen solid and all the blooms and buds are zapped.

I did get a friend in Asheville to brave the cold and the slight snow down there to stand in line and get me tickets for the Ben Harper concert at the Orange Peel in June. I am going with 2 other friends and it should be a great concert. That is real friendship to do that for another friend. Would you? Would I?

The Easter Vigil service is so moving. I love it. candles and darkness and then the fire is lit and the candles are lit and the readings and songs in the semi darkness untill the Alleluia is lifted and we get to break out our noisemakers and ring the bells and shout and make lots of noise. It is so much fun. Great sermon and great service and great breakfast afterwards.

Then home with my Sunday paper and my latte and just a quiet easy day of naps and reading and movies and of course a few wanks in between all that other stuff!!!! LOL!

Hope your weekend was a good one.

peace my friends

 

[valle12tom]

It is Tuesday and today has started out cold with frost covering the ground and then the sun has been out all day. It has been chilly and cold most of the day but brilliant sunshine.

I have gotten so much done today it is amazing how somedays it all just clicks together you know and today was one of those special days.

This woman who lives near us and I must say has to be one of the most butt ugly people ever placed on the face of this earth went today to have her eyelids and eyebrows tatooed so she does not have to pluck or use blush. Why would anyone do that? I can't even fathom. I know it is horrible of me to call her ugly but it is the God's honest truth.

Oh my isn't that mean of me. I am sorry sometimes I just have to tell it like it is.

Time to go home almost so see you later.

peace

 

[valle12tom]

Yeah it's really Friday and I am working and will be working all weekend. Such is my life and I really don't mind as my life is so freaking boooooooooring that one day is the same as the next most weeks.

Don't get me wrong I love my life and relaly enjoy it but it would seem boooooooring to most guys I would think. I mean I am not a bar fly and I don't go out much. I have my small circle of friends and movies and reading and dinner with friends but that is mostly it. Work, errands, church and back home.

Today has been wonderful. Cool but sunny and nice. Yesterday was awesome and very very very breezy and sunny. They say it will get colder and we may have some snow agin by Sunday. hey everything has been zapped so far so bring it on and do what you gotta do I say.

Hope yours is a good weekend filled with fun and all things good for you and your friends no matter what you choose to do.

Peace and love always and everywhere

 

[valle12tom]

So what are you doing today?

I have been working all morning on some reports that I needed to get down. It was satisfying and I am finished so now I can play this afternoon.

I think I will take a walk in the woods and see what is happening up there.

It has been cloudy today with sprinkles of rain and it seemks to be getting a bit colder as the day moves on. Still nice.

Peace today and always

 

[valle12tom]

Well we had some weather yesterday.

It started out cooler and drizzly and then the sun came out and went back in and came back out.

Around 3:30 it started to snow and I mean snow hard. I mean it was a white out and it was blowing hard and the wind really picked up and was blowing everthing around.

It got cold and and we ended up with maybe about 2 inches of snow but the wind kept up all night long. I heard parts of the East Coast really got hit hard. We had about 15 trees blown down around the place so this morning we cranked up the chainsaws and have been out clearing the roads. I am TIRED! At least we get some firewood out of it and none of the trees hit anything.

Supposed to be in the 60's by tomorrow!

I had an amazing and very telling dream last night. It was so real I felt as if I was awake while it was happening. I can't remember all of it but I will tell you what I can remember.

I think it may have been inspired by the movie Shortbus that I watched on Saturday night. There were lots of of people around and I guess we were in some kind of club or big house. I kept going from room to room and finally was staring at this guy who looked very much like RoanRocker or Corey. Sorry Corey for putting you in my dream but it was the way I remember it. Hope you don't mind.

Anyway this guy was dancing with this other guy who was very good looking and had long black hair and the sexiest eyes I have ever seen. He had these lips like Luke Hamil a BA model and a great smile. He was maybe around 40 years old. Nice body. Tanned and smooth upper body.

Anyway these two guys were just dancing slow but not touching but then they started to strip and soon were naked. Corey had this huge mother of a cock just like his pictures on his thread show with this huge vien running up and down its hard tight shaft. He kept squeezing it hard at the base which just mad eit seem as if it was exploding and he kept wagging it around. I was mesmorized by the sight of that cock it was so beautiful. The tip was huge and he was not cut.

The other guy was equally endowed but he didn't have a large vein on his cock but he had these really low hanging balls which he kept grabbing and squeezing until he would cry out with the pain. But he seemed to like it and kept squeezing his balls as he gryated and dnaced. He was cut and his knob was so purple. His shaft was not as fat as Corey's but was long and slender.

I watched and watched and wanted to go over and just touch one of them but my feet were cemented to the floor and I couldn't move. They would look over at me from time to time but never specifically said anything to me or beckoned me over. I felt inside me that they wanted me to or at least they would not have minded if I did come over but I couldn't.

Like my life being a older closeted virgin who only gets to watch porn but never actively particpate.

Anyway this went on for a long time and then I was in another room and wondering where these two guy were and finally the Luke Hamil look a like came and said follow me with his eyes and head but no words came out of his mouth and I did and there was another room with lots of guys dancing and moving and we walked through it until we were in this really long hallway. The music was amazing and there were so many great looking guys. Like walking through the Bel Ami archives.

I saw the guy who looked like Corey at the other end but then I stopped and couldn't move as I watched Luke walk up to him. Luke put his hard dick in between Corey's ass cheeks and started to slowly fuck the cheeks with his large hard throbbing cock. I could see it pulsing. The look on both of their faces was pure exctasy as they moved against each other. He never entered his ass hole. Corey was gyrating and pushing back hard against Luke as Luke ran his hands up and down Coreys chest and across his abs as he squeezed his nipples and finally he grabbed Coreys hard cock and squeezed it in the cirlce of his fist. Corey screamed out but I couldn't hear him I could only see him open his motuh to scream as Luke squeezed and squeezed that hard huge shaft and with his other hand squeezed Coreys balls.

Then they were gone and I woke up with a pee hard and had to pee really badly. I wanted to go back to sleep and I did but I never found the dream again. I didn't have a wet dream. I wanted to find that dream again but you can almost never find your dream once you loose it.

So that was my dream early this morning.

A shadow of my reality. Always looking but never touching. For those of you who can touch please don't take that for granted. Please never take your lover or lovers for granted. Treasure those times and those feelings. You are blessed among men.

peace and thanks for listening

 

[valle12tom]

Wow what weather we have been having. Out in our valley it was so windy last night and it lasted all night and todya has not let up at all.

I went into Boone to do some errands and the wind seemed like 20 times stronger in Boone than out here in our protected little valley.

But it is warm today and almost 60 degrees and just yesterday and the day before it was freezing and snowy. Just blows my mind what little I have let that is! ROTFL!

Hope your day is going well.

Love to you all

 

[valle12tom]

I have had meetings and travel and more meetings and today is a big one and I just have been otehrwise occupied or "out of pocket" as they say around here.

So sorry. And now I need to be off.

Lots of rain yesterday but they are predicting a beauiotfully warm and sunny weekend for our little slice of the earth.

Hope your weekends are fileld with love and joy for all those around you and espeically your own selves. We all need a little love don't we?

peace

 

[valle12tom]

What a week. Have you ever had someone you don't know and don't really like invade your space and your office and your world and turn it upside down??? Well that has happened to me this past week. He will be gone in 2-3 weeks but this is HELL and I mean HELL and I am not used to it and it is driving me to disctraction.

The weather has been beautiful and spring and perfect and all that. A few high wind days but overall it has been wonderful.

I am on JUB for the first time this week and that has been hard but I have a few minutes so i thought I would check in and cath up with all of you. hope you missed me but perhaps not.

Peace my friends as I see my nemesis has returned and I had better find something else to do.

 

[valle12tom]

It is very windy and sunny and breezy and cool today but gorgeous none the less and my shadow is not here this morning so here I am on JUB sneaking around and writing in my blog.

Oh shit there goes the phone. I had better answer and then I have lunch.

Maybe I can get back later.

peace

 

[valle12tom]

Gosh it has ben a week of all weeks. I still have my "friend" NOT who is following me everywhere which has put a huge dent in my lifestyle and I hate it but it is life and he is not going away for probably 2 more weeks so I have to sneak around.

The weather this past week has been just awesome. Really aamzing. Hot for this time of year and then yesterday a huge front moved through and the temps dropped and lighting started and we had a huge rain storm.

Supposed to be cooler and wet this weekend and I have to work but hey what else is new and working is better than not working unless I was so rich I didn't have to work and then I could spend all my time writing and looking at porn on the net! LOL! Now wouldn't that be a life? My banana would be dancing all the time then! I would probably wear the thing out.

peace guys and gals

 

[valle12tom]

Today started out with huge rain storms and lots and lots of great rain which we needed very much around here. Yeterday was rainy but intermittent all day yesterday.

Then the rain moved through the sun came out and the blue skies were everywhere. Awesome. Beautiful.

They say we may get scattered frost tonight and tomorrow night but that is OK as I haven't planted anything in my garden yet.

Hope you all have had a great weekend. My shadow is off right now making reports on all he sees and observes and here I am sneaking onto JUB to write in my blog.

peace and thanks for being here and allowing me to rant and report on my weather etc.

 

[valle12tom]

Yeah its true but so much is happening right now that I barely have time to sit on the pot and take a crap in peace.

My shadow is still hanging around and I am getting more used to him and he is not such a bad guy but it is just the fact that he is here and he is putting a cramp in my style.

It is so hard to explain.

Frost last night and the night before. The days have gotten up in the 70's but the nights have been cold. Perfect spring weather for the mountains. I am so blessed in so many ways.

Good friends here in my montain valley, a few good friends on JUB and you knwo who you are.

Awesome to be alive.

Peace

 

[valle12tom]

Hey it started out as a cloudy and misty day in the valley but then the sun came out and it looks like it may be great. Nice and cool this morning.

Lots going on in my life and in my work life so I think I had better get the hell off JUB as I just saw my shadow drive up and he wasn't supposed to be here for another 30 minutes. Holy shit I better log off.

See you friends.

Peace

 

[valle12tom]

Sorry to have been away for so long but a lot has been happening in my life right now and my shadow is still here and well it has been weird and strange.

Great weather this past week. Sunny, cool, warm, breezy, some rain but not enough.

Wish I could expand more on what has been happening to me but not today so please bear with me for a little while longer and maybe things will get back to normal.

I don't like it but there it is and I need to deal with it for the time being.

Overall life is good and I need to remember all my many blessings. I am blessed and that is good.

peace

 

[valle12tom]

What a beautiful Saturday it is today. WOW! Perfect.

We had a frost last night and the temps were down in the lower 30's but today the sun is out and we are in the upper 60's. Tonight it may frost again but for now I am getting out of this office and heading out into the woods where I will try and find a nice quiet spot to sit and meditate and then JERK off!

My latest fantasy person is a BA model namjed Jean or Jan. Cute and lithe and medium long hair with gorgeous drop dead eyes, an Adam's Apple, long thin limbs and a great cock. Nice smile and wearing a hat. Wish he were really here with me and we could go into the woods together but alas he is not so I will have to just take him in my dreams where he will be the perfect lover for an old man who can only dream about what life might have been.

Wish you all were here to help me. We could have a circle jerk or maybe an orgy.

Love you all and peace today and always

 

[valle12tom]

It is Monday here in my part of the world and while it is chilly this morning we did not have a frost last night and I left all my plants outside and they did not seem to suffer at all.

The weekend was gorgeous and beautiful and all of the superplatives one uses when somehting is GREAT!

I spent time out in my beloved woods walking around and looking at the emerging plants. teh trees are so green. thet early green of a new leave. That spring green that is so light and beautiful.

Then yesterday afternoon I was sitting in my easy chair reading the Sunday paper and I looked out my large glass doors to my view of the valley and watched these birds swooping and diving in the sky. Suddenly I realized what they were and it was 2 eagles and a blakbird. I shit you not!!! Two freaking beautiful eagles gliding in the sky with this one lone blackbird swooping and diving around them. They seemed to pay no attention to the blackbird as if he did not even exist. It was so awesome. I have never seen that before.

OMG it was incredible. I wish I could describe it better so you could see it as well.

Today looks to be sunny and gorgeous and it may get up into the 70's.

Love to you all and above all peace

 

[valle12tom]

Another in a series of incredibly gorgeous days. Sunny and bright with a touch of a breeze. Cool to cold at night.

But do we need rain? YES WE DO! Our pond has gone down about a 1 and a half in a little over a week. I hope my catfish don't croak. they can bury themselves in the mud I guess or so I have heard but it is dangerously low at this point.

But also perfect for wlaking in the woods and enjoying all that spring and nature has to offer.

I think I will do that. At least my shadwo doesn't follow me in the woods. LOL!

Oh yeah. Have you ever followed a guy on a bike and just watched that tight butt encased in spandex move and thoise calf muslces as they push to turn the wheels! Awesome and so freaking sexy!

Peace now and always

 

[valle12tom]

Another in our series of beautiful days. Sunny and brisk and it promises to be be hot as the day progresses.

I spent some time up on our mountain sitting by the creek and just enjoying the day yesterday. It was beautiful and the water was amazing. I love to just watch the water and wonder where and how it gets there and the amazing fact that we have so much of it while most of the world lacks in this basic human need.

I need to start working in my garden. It is about time I think.

Hope you are well.

peace to all everywhere and always

 

[valle12tom]

I am going to see the new Spiderman movie this afternoon I think if all goes well and then dinner with a friend afterwards.

Have you seen it?

Another gorgeous day. It was cool and cloudy this AM when I woke up and I thought just maybe we might be getting some rain today but alas it was not to happen.

Oh yeah I had to go to Wal-mart yesterday to get some prints made and this new young guy was working in the photo department. I don't usually see good looking guys in Wal-mart but this guy was hot in my book and I couldn't keep my eyes off him. Maybe about 19 or 20 and thin, not to tall and so thin his pants kept falling down letting the world see his boxers shorts from time to time. Incredible long arms with these amazing veins running up and down and across his hands with really long sensual fingers. I love those viens and they make me leak in my shorts.

Nice looking face with spiky brown hair and 3 earrings and a rope necklace around a gorgeous long neck and one of those little goatees that are so popular with the young guys today. Oh yes he was hot and I think he knows he is hot.

His name was Cody and the machine ran out of paper so he had to come over and help me and he was so nice and friendly and his smile made my heart melt. he did seem genuine but I am sure he never gave me a second thought.

I am such a romantic old perve to fall for a young guy like that but he sure did make for some great fantasies which in turn produced an overabundance of sweet creamy gooey cum later that evening when I jerked off.

Also as the weather has turned warm again you know what that means. Lots of great guys with great legs walking around in shorts showing off those legs. Some are hairy some are smooth but wow they are all a turn on and then there are the beautiful feet in their sandals and flip flops. Damn I love to look at guys legs among other parts of their bodies.

They haven't started to take off their shirts on a regular basis just yet but of course that is aways hot.

Well enough of this talk. I need to go to town and see what I can see! ROTFL!

Peace to you all and thanks for all you do