Arghh!!! So, it's been more than a week now. Looking back at this thread, the last time I called was November 16th. That day I decided that I needed to move on. I had a little setback a couple of days ago - I texted him "Hey, how are you? Hope things are OK". He sure did not reply and I've not done anything since then.
But guess what? After all this time, he suddenly reappeared today. I logged on to AIM and called out to me instead of me saying HI first. Was I excited? Yes, to an extent, but I wasn't hopeful. One part of me tells me that "enough is enough" but there is still that one little part of me reminding that I should give him a chance.
I tried to be a lot less enthusiastic in my conversation with him. I made it sound like I wasn't sitting down there just to chat to him. In the past, he would have been the one giving me all the "pauses" in between but today, it was me. He had a lot more to say than he had before in our previous IM conversations.
It's Sunday and I know what he's up to. He'd be hanging out with his friends and gaming and stuff so he must have just logged on to chat a bit. He's not a serial internet person or freak like I am. So I must say that I was taken aback by him calling out to me first, and with his long conversations. It ended abruptly though, which has of course happened times before.
This was our conversation (the times are fucked up)......I'm copying it here so I'll be able to look back if and when I need to.
HIM (2:45:51 PM): heya'
ME (2:45:33 PM): hey how are you?
HIM (2:46:28 PM): im alright enough, how are you doin?
ME (2:47:00 PM): i'm doing good. been working and not much else. did some shopping just the other day. how's things with your roommates and stuff?
HIM (2:48:08 PM): things are alright
HIM (2:48:12 PM): a little more settled
HIM (2:48:23 PM): they were both gone for abot four days or so
ME (2:49:11 PM): so what really happened? i mean you just sort of "disappeared"
HIM (2:53:33 PM): there was work and insanity and electrical fires and not funnness
ME (2:53:41 PM): huh? what fires? like a real fire or just human issues?
HIM (2:54:32 PM): no, there was an electrical fire in XXX’s room, her outlet caught fire
HIM (2:54:47 PM): the fire dept had to come and shut off our electricity to most of the apartment
ME (2:55:00 PM): and that was while i was there?
ME (2:55:33 PM): i'm glad you're all ok though
HIM (2:56:13 PM): yeah, it sucked balls
HIM (2:56:15 PM): but im fine
ME (2:56:53 PM): well as long as you're ok. i did call you last thursday or something and you didn't answer.
HIM (2:57:35 PM): more likely than not, i was at work
ME (2:57:15 PM): that was like 1pm
HIM (2:57:47 PM): since that is where i spend almost every moment of my life
ME (2:57:24 PM): last last thursday not thanksgiving
HIM (2:57:53 PM): ah, then i was sleeping
HIM (2:57:55 PM): hah
ME (2:57:42 PM): ahh....and did you get my text message just a few days ago?
HIM (2:58:24 PM): my phone's been off
ME (2:58:36 PM): uh huh. so you didn't get them?
HIM (2:59:33 PM): no, my cell phone was shut off by the company
HIM (3:00:01 PM): i didnt pay my bill, because i refuse to pay for that $400 bill that i got for the calls that stupid bitch made on my phone
ME (3:00:16 PM): yeah i know about that. i thought you had it all settled and stuff.
HIM (3:00:52 PM): hah, yeah right
ME (3:00:28 PM): so you don't have a phone now? or have you got a new number?
HIM (3:00:57 PM): they told me i had to pay it
HIM (3:01:05 PM): currently, my phone is in shut-off limbo
HIM (3:01:13 PM): but im getting a new one
HIM (3:01:18 PM): and cancelling my service
HIM (3:01:22 PM): cuz i ain't payin that
ME (3:01:13 PM): yeah that's the way to go then. so are you going to tell me your number?
HIM (3:01:50 PM): you have it already fool ay
HIM (3:01:59 PM): im gonna try and keep the old one if i can
HIM (3:02:09 PM): but if i get a new one, i'll give it to you
ME (3:01:47 PM): LOL
ME (3:01:56 PM): i thought when you cancel a service you got to get a new one
HIM (3:02:46 PM): sometimes you can keep it if you switch, or at least i know there are some that you can
HIM (3:02:47 PM): but
HIM (3:02:53 PM): more likely than not ill have a new one
HIM (3:02:54 PM): ugh
HIM (3:02:57 PM): stupid phone
ME (3:02:36 PM): i hate changing numbers!!!
ME (3:03:16 PM): well do you still have my number then?
HIM (3:04:38 PM): yeah, its in my old phone
HIM (3:04:40 PM): lol
HIM (3:04:40 PM): duh
ME (3:04:45 PM): duh! you left me freaking out!
ME (3:04:55 PM): i guess you're ok now....
ME (3:05:09 PM): and for a moment i thought i've lost another friend..........
HIM (3:05:54 PM): nonsense
ME (3:05:51 PM): well well.....i just hope so. guess i'll wait and see.
HIM went away at 3:07:20 PM.
ME (3:08:16 PM): hmmm............you've left?
HIM signed off at 3:08:20 PM.
HIM is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back in.
So he left just like that. Maybe he had to go back to his game or something. I don't know but I don't really care. Maybe I do.
I know I shouldn't be reading too much into this whole thing today. I'm still trying to move on....... Only time can tell if he really is a friend.......
