Hi guys, I'm about to tell you about my relationship with this guy.
I'm not asking if he likes me or not -- no mind reading or ridiculously obvious questions. I'm asking for realistic suggestions on what to do next.
A year or so ago. . .
ON MSN Messenger:
Me: John, are you busy after school?
John: Yeah, why?
Me: Ms. Ryan wants to see us after school at her room. Can you come?
John: Yeah.
Next Day:
Friday. IT class. 1 hour until school ends. John is going to come with me to Ms. Ryan's room to see her. However, that is not actually the truth. I setup this plan because Ms. Ryan's room is in a very desolate hallway -- meaning I'll have the opportunity to speak to John in private.
In other words, along the way to Ms. Ryan's room, I'll stop him, and confess to him that I like him.
5 minutes until class is over. My heart beats so fast and hard that I feel like I'm about to faint. Class ends. I go to John's locker and ask "you coming?" and he says "yeah"
He follows me to the other building in the school, we walk up to the staircase leading to Ms. Ryan's room.
"John!" I say in my attempt to stop him so I could tell him.
He doesn't hear me.
"John!" I say again, this time he looks at me and listens.
"It's a trick, I just wanted to say I like you. . . " I say to him.
"I like you too. . ." he says to me.
He obviously didn't understand what I meant by "like". My heart tells me love, but I couldn't gather the courage to actually say that.
"No, I mean I really like you. . . You know what I mean. . ." I say to him.
"Not really, you think I'm funny? Cool? What? Fill me in." he says. What a line
"You know. . . more than the usual. . ." I reply.
After a little bit of that, he asks me to tell him on Facebook or MSN what I mean. I agree, and we say bye. He didn't seem shaken or wierded out at all. He took my confession very well.
I'm usually the one reading peoples lies, faces, emotions, and manipulating others. However, he showed not the slightest emotion that day. Strangest ever.
That weekend I tell him what I actually meant.
His response: "Yikes."
Ouch?
For Christmas, I made him a christmas present. A piano composition. I attempt to break into his locker through the most extraordinary means.
I go to the schools front desk and ask the lady for John's locker number. Then I find John's locker, get the codec on the bottom of his lock, and write it down. Then I go to the administration office, say to the lady there whom I know "I forgot my lock combo, can you give it to me?" and I hand her the codec I wrote down from John's lock. I return to John's lock -- try the combination - and it DOESNT WORK! I try for the entire hour to try and get into it so I could sneak my christmas gift into his backpack, and fail. I had to make an excuse for missing class that day.
I end up insulting his lock on MSN later on. I had to be honest - I did try and get into his locker. I ended up mailing it to him for Christmas.
He doesn't talk to from then on. Even until now. After Christmas -- still no response. He completely ignores me, no hellos or anything. However, he does give me a glance here and there in the cafeteria, and sometimes looks at me for a good few seconds. Makes me wonder.
I called him last week, a few hours after spring break is on.
"Hey John, it's me Jason." (Names have been changed for security.)
"Hi." he says.
"I couldn't find you after school today. . . so I guess I called to say have a nice break." I say.
"Thanks." he quickly says.
"umm.. . can I ask you something?" I ask.
"Why?" he queries.
"Well. . . since Christmas. . . you kinda haven't. . . talked to me. . . why?" I ask him. I actually wanted to ask why he was ignoring me flat out.
"No reason." he says after an obvious, clear, silent, few seconds of hesitation.
"Oh. . . I don't know what to say. . ." I said back. I didn't quite believe him.
Now, what I hear him say next is: "I love you." I seriously couldn't believe my ears. I probably misheard him, so. . .
"What?" I ask in disbelief of what I heard.
"I love you." is what I hear again. I still couldn't believe it.
YET AGAIN I ask "WHAAT?"
He very, very quickly says "I have to go" in a slightly aggressive tone. I say bye, and the conversation ends.
I still ponder if he said "i love you". I tell myself "he probably said f**k you" but that's almost infinitely impossible, I doubt I could mistake the word love for f**k.
Now. . . our relationship remains in tatters. I love him so much, with all my heart, I wish we could be together, but he remains ignoring me. Spring break is almost over -- what on Earth should I do. . .?!
I try to gather courage to talk to him, smile or something at him in the hallways. Unfortunately, everytime that happens I suddenly block up with shyness. Each day I become more aware of standards and socialization, my whole life I've had strange views of what's appropriate. I used to have a super draconian view of "being appropriate." I want to get to know him more at least, but he ignores me.
Anyone have some suggestions on what I should do? Should I say something or anything? Do anything to him? I'm not asking for genius mind-reading things, but rather something you think may improve things.
It can't get too much worse here. I can do SOMETHING at the least.
That's because change produces results, and I'm dying for some results in my stance with him.
I'm not asking if he likes me or not -- no mind reading or ridiculously obvious questions. I'm asking for realistic suggestions on what to do next.
A year or so ago. . .
ON MSN Messenger:
Me: John, are you busy after school?
John: Yeah, why?
Me: Ms. Ryan wants to see us after school at her room. Can you come?
John: Yeah.
Next Day:
Friday. IT class. 1 hour until school ends. John is going to come with me to Ms. Ryan's room to see her. However, that is not actually the truth. I setup this plan because Ms. Ryan's room is in a very desolate hallway -- meaning I'll have the opportunity to speak to John in private.
In other words, along the way to Ms. Ryan's room, I'll stop him, and confess to him that I like him.
5 minutes until class is over. My heart beats so fast and hard that I feel like I'm about to faint. Class ends. I go to John's locker and ask "you coming?" and he says "yeah"
He follows me to the other building in the school, we walk up to the staircase leading to Ms. Ryan's room.
"John!" I say in my attempt to stop him so I could tell him.
He doesn't hear me.
"John!" I say again, this time he looks at me and listens.
"It's a trick, I just wanted to say I like you. . . " I say to him.
"I like you too. . ." he says to me.
He obviously didn't understand what I meant by "like". My heart tells me love, but I couldn't gather the courage to actually say that.
"No, I mean I really like you. . . You know what I mean. . ." I say to him.
"Not really, you think I'm funny? Cool? What? Fill me in." he says. What a line
"You know. . . more than the usual. . ." I reply.
After a little bit of that, he asks me to tell him on Facebook or MSN what I mean. I agree, and we say bye. He didn't seem shaken or wierded out at all. He took my confession very well.
I'm usually the one reading peoples lies, faces, emotions, and manipulating others. However, he showed not the slightest emotion that day. Strangest ever.
That weekend I tell him what I actually meant.
His response: "Yikes."
Ouch?
For Christmas, I made him a christmas present. A piano composition. I attempt to break into his locker through the most extraordinary means.
I go to the schools front desk and ask the lady for John's locker number. Then I find John's locker, get the codec on the bottom of his lock, and write it down. Then I go to the administration office, say to the lady there whom I know "I forgot my lock combo, can you give it to me?" and I hand her the codec I wrote down from John's lock. I return to John's lock -- try the combination - and it DOESNT WORK! I try for the entire hour to try and get into it so I could sneak my christmas gift into his backpack, and fail. I had to make an excuse for missing class that day.
I end up insulting his lock on MSN later on. I had to be honest - I did try and get into his locker. I ended up mailing it to him for Christmas.
He doesn't talk to from then on. Even until now. After Christmas -- still no response. He completely ignores me, no hellos or anything. However, he does give me a glance here and there in the cafeteria, and sometimes looks at me for a good few seconds. Makes me wonder.
I called him last week, a few hours after spring break is on.
"Hey John, it's me Jason." (Names have been changed for security.)
"Hi." he says.
"I couldn't find you after school today. . . so I guess I called to say have a nice break." I say.
"Thanks." he quickly says.
"umm.. . can I ask you something?" I ask.
"Why?" he queries.
"Well. . . since Christmas. . . you kinda haven't. . . talked to me. . . why?" I ask him. I actually wanted to ask why he was ignoring me flat out.
"No reason." he says after an obvious, clear, silent, few seconds of hesitation.
"Oh. . . I don't know what to say. . ." I said back. I didn't quite believe him.
Now, what I hear him say next is: "I love you." I seriously couldn't believe my ears. I probably misheard him, so. . .
"What?" I ask in disbelief of what I heard.
"I love you." is what I hear again. I still couldn't believe it.
YET AGAIN I ask "WHAAT?"
He very, very quickly says "I have to go" in a slightly aggressive tone. I say bye, and the conversation ends.
I still ponder if he said "i love you". I tell myself "he probably said f**k you" but that's almost infinitely impossible, I doubt I could mistake the word love for f**k.
Now. . . our relationship remains in tatters. I love him so much, with all my heart, I wish we could be together, but he remains ignoring me. Spring break is almost over -- what on Earth should I do. . .?!
I try to gather courage to talk to him, smile or something at him in the hallways. Unfortunately, everytime that happens I suddenly block up with shyness. Each day I become more aware of standards and socialization, my whole life I've had strange views of what's appropriate. I used to have a super draconian view of "being appropriate." I want to get to know him more at least, but he ignores me.
Anyone have some suggestions on what I should do? Should I say something or anything? Do anything to him? I'm not asking for genius mind-reading things, but rather something you think may improve things.
It can't get too much worse here. I can do SOMETHING at the least.
That's because change produces results, and I'm dying for some results in my stance with him.
At least I think.
