When growing up did you know you were gay or did only everyone else know

[BisexThomas]

Playing kiss catch in the school playground in the 90's aged 9 chasing the boys... I knew

Married to a woman rn.

 

[sexyloverboy]

@ " One day I suggested we all take our clothes off and run around naked for a while. I was the first person to strip naked and the others quickly followed suit."

Hot scene. Did any of your outdoor companions actually "go" Gay later on?

 

[ricksvca]

@ " One day I suggested we all take our clothes off and run around naked for a while. I was the first person to strip naked and the others quickly followed suit."

Hot scene. Did any of your outdoor companions actually "go" Gay later on?

Actually it wasn't all that "hot" for me. If it was I think I would have gotten an erection. By this time I was 13 and finally had pubic hair which made me feel far more secure about being naked in front of my friends, I got my own bedroom and bathroom when I was 13 . Before that I shared a room with my brother and the only time I could jack off was when I was alone in the house I had started masturbating and actually cumming when I did jack off which was something I did at least twice a day.

 

[snakeeater1]

In the small rural town I grew up in I guess at least some of the boys knew I was gay! Two of the boys, not at the same time, fuck me in the ass. None of the guys ever gave me a BJ or asked me to suck their cock! I guess there was just something about my skinny ass….lol

 

[72-Jay]

Back when I was in school, no I didn't know
When I was collage-age, yeah I kinda knew I was bi...but wouldn't admit it, even to myself.
Think it was sometime in my lat 20's/early 30's before I basically came out to myself. (but deff something I kept to myself)
Wasn't til sometime in my mid/late 40's that I'd give any inkling to anyone else.
Even now its not something I'll readily admit.

 

[BiBtm64]

"Did you know you were gay" - I'm bisexual like many others who visit the Straight and Bisexual Guys page.

When growing up, I had a fascination with dicks, and my ass. And some cute guys' bodies - I wanted to feel them, cuddle them, but I absolutely could not, or even show any desire to do so. I didn't have a word to describe my feelings or help me to understand myself. All I knew was I had to be careful. I grew up in a backward, conservative rural town in the 1970s. To be gay (with its various disparaging titles of the time) would have meant ostracizing, beatings, or worse, most likely the end of a normal life as I'd known it.

I was straight-leaning, mostly sexually attracted to girls (and still am), but there were dicks, and my fascination with them. And the pleasant feeling I'd get in my ass when I poked things up there. I enjoyed getting naked outside, like many of us, and like others have commented here, but it was more about freedom and feeling the air on my skin than anything sexual. But there was always the urge to fondle the dicks around me. I had my first sexual experience with a girl in my teens and led the straight life for many years.

I was well into my 20s before I experienced a dick-shaped toy, then a real flesh and blood dick. It was only some time after that, that I shook the childhood phobia and admitted to myself that I was bi.

 

[ricksvca]

"Did you know you were gay" - I'm bisexual like many others who visit the Straight and Bisexual Guys page.

When growing up, I had a fascination with dicks, and my ass. And some cute guys' bodies - I wanted to feel them, cuddle them, but I absolutely could not, or even show any desire to do so. I didn't have a word to describe my feelings or help me to understand myself. All I knew was I had to be careful. I grew up in a backward, conservative rural town in the 1970s. To be gay (with its various disparaging titles of the time) would have meant ostracizing, beatings, or worse, most likely the end of a normal life as I'd known it.

I was straight-leaning, mostly sexually attracted to girls (and still am), but there were dicks, and my fascination with them. And the pleasant feeling I'd get in my ass when I poked things up there. I enjoyed getting naked outside, like many of us, and like others have commented here, but it was more about freedom and feeling the air on my skin than anything sexual. But there was always the urge to fondle the dicks around me. I had my first sexual experience with a girl in my teens and led the straight life for many years.

I was well into my 20s before I experienced a dick-shaped toy, then a real flesh and blood dick. It was only some time after that, that I shook the childhood phobia and admitted to myself that I was bi.

i can definitely relate to so very much of what you wrote. I too, had a fascination with dicks, especially my own which was why I was so open about showing it off to my friends on the few occasions that I mentioned in my post. I would never have made the fist sexual move but I would have definitely let any of the other boys touch me if they had expressed the desire to do so and if that had happened I would have had no problem reciprocating. I also knew I had to be very very careful how far I took those feelings for the same reasons you mentioned in your post

When I was 19, 20 years old I had a best friend who did something that was a real test for me. It was a Saturday afternoon and my GF and I were going to a rock concert that night. I wanted to get a couple of joints from my friend for the concert. It was October, 1973. He was over at his GF's house (her parents were gone for the weekend) and the three of us were sitting in the den. Suddenly out of nowhere he starts talking about how he and I had been having sex with each other for the last six months which was totally untrue. Why he would do this was beyond me and I was totally shocked by what he was saying. His GF and I were sitting across from him and he gave me this look like I should go along with what he was saying so I did. He went into quite a lot of detail about what we did to each other, etc. and was very convincing. What I didn't know was that he had been telling her about this sexual relationship between he and I for several months and now I was confirming what he had been telling her .It was clear to me that if she had ever doubted these stories he'd been telling her she now believed they were true because of me going along with what he was saying. It also surprised me that she was totally fascinated by what he was saying At this point he asked his GF if she wanted to have sex with me and she said yes and then he asked me if I wanted to have sex with her. I didn't want to be rude so I said yes. This went on for a about 20 minutes until he finally told her it was all a joke and not to believe any of it. I felt very relieved but also very very confused about what was behind him doing this in the first place. At this point I said I needed to leave and I did.

A week later he and I and two of our friends went camping. We had done this before several times, When it became night time we would always sit around the camp fire, smoke a few joints, have a few beers etc and talk about girls etc. I got up to go pee and headed off into the darkness. My friend said he would go with me. We went about 10 yards or so into the darkness to where we would pee. All of a sudden in a low voice he starts talking about how big his cock is and that his GF referred to it as "The Whale". He asked me if I wanted to see it and I said "I guess so". He undid his pants, took it out and showed it to me. He wasn't hard but he wasn't soft either. Even though it was dark I could see that his cock was enormous, circumcised, very thick with a very large cock head. He asked me what i thought of it and I said that he was really big. He said thanks and we finished peeing and went back to the camp fire.

Neither of us ever brought this incident up again but I could not help but wonder what he was up to with the elaborate practical joke about he and I having sex, him asking his GF and I if we wanted to have sex with each other the week before and now him actually showing me his cock.

 

[ricksvca]

When I was 19, 20 years old I had a best friend who did something that was a real test for me. It was a Saturday afternoon and my GF and I were going to a rock concert that night. I wanted to get a couple of joints from my friend for the concert. It was October, 1973. He was over at his GF's house (her parents were gone for the weekend) and the three of us were sitting in the den. Suddenly out of nowhere he starts talking about how he and I had been having sex with each other for the last six months which was totally untrue. Why he would do this was beyond me and I was totally shocked by what he was saying. His GF and I were sitting across from him and he gave me this look like I should go along with what he was saying so I did. He went into quite a lot of detail about what we did to each other, etc. and was very convincing. What I didn't know was that he had been telling her about this sexual relationship between he and I for several months and now I was confirming what he had been telling her .It was clear to me that if she had ever doubted these stories he'd been telling her she now believed they were true because of me going along with what he was saying. It also surprised me that she was totally fascinated by what he was saying At this point he asked his GF if she wanted to have sex with me and she said yes and then he asked me if I wanted to have sex with her. I didn't want to be rude so I said yes. This went on for a about 20 minutes until he finally told her it was all a joke and not to believe any of it. I felt very relieved but also very very confused about what was behind him doing this in the first place. At this point I said I needed to leave and I did.

A week later he and I and two of our friends went camping. We had done this before several times, When it became night time we would always sit around the camp fire, smoke a few joints, have a few beers etc and talk about girls etc. I got up to go pee and headed off into the darkness. My friend said he would go with me. We went about 10 yards or so into the darkness to where we would pee. All of a sudden in a low voice he starts talking about how big his cock is and that his GF referred to it as "The Whale". He asked me if I wanted to see it and I said "I guess so". He undid his pants, took it out and showed it to me. He wasn't hard but he wasn't soft either. Even though it was dark I could see that his cock was enormous, circumcised, very thick with a very large cock head. He asked me what i thought of it and I said that he was really big. He said thanks and we finished peeing and went back to the camp fire.

Neither of us ever brought this incident up again but I could not help but wonder what he was up to with the elaborate practical joke about he and I having sex, him asking his GF and I if we wanted to have sex with each other the week before and now him actually showing me his cock.

I would be very interested in any comments about what other guys think my friend was up to with the situations I described above that I bolded. Was he coming on to me? Did he want to have M/M sex with me. When he showed me his cock we were both pretty buzzed from the pot and the beer and with this happening just one week after the incident with his GF it was all I could do not to reach out and touch it or at the very least, ask him if he wanted me to touch it. I was completely mesmerized by how big his cock was and the way it looked in the moonlight.

 

[coop68]

I always knew - it seems that no-one else had a clue. My mother went into complete shock when I eventually came out at the age of 22.