When you were 14-15

[operafan]

I think others knew I was gay but I didn't have a clue.

I was a horny little bastard though.

 

[Riverrick]

At that age, I only noticed the boys. Which confused and worried me. I thought I was only making it worse by looking at them....thought this would make me gay. So I tried to stop.....but of course I couldn't. Which worried me more.

I fell in love with a classmate in high school but never acted on it, or realized that it was love.

I stayed in the closet to myself until I was 24.

 

[hahahatomato]

I was aware that im gay at the age of 6.

 

[dousedfirepants]

I came out at fourteen. So...I did know.

 

[Shepherd 2]

When I was 14 - 15,
no I did not know I was gay,
and not when I was 24 - 25,
or 34 - 35,
or 44 - 45,
when I was 49, yes, then
I knew. You have known almost as long as I have.

Nothing has ever gone up Shep's
ass since I was abused except for the
probing fingers of a urologist and his equipment to test
my prostate.
Shep+

 

[Mitsukuni]

I was a late bloomer. I was very naive about sex and anything related to it. I did not discover the joys of masturbation until late into my Freshmen year of High School, and even then when i achieved my first orgasm I was still shooting blanks. My mom took me to an endocrinologist and I started a three month testosterone regimen. So yeah my hormones had not kicked in so I was unaware of many things let alone think about liking girls or guys for that matter. Curious enough I learned about jerking off through a friend but thats another story.

 

[Huskerboy]

I don't think I "figured things out" until I was closer to 16 or so... However, looking back, I was always intrigued by a man with no shirt on, be it on TV or in real life. Guess I've been gay all along... I gotta be me!

 

[Kyanimal]

I remember "Playing Naked" with guys, and a few girls, just because it was "Naughty", starting around the age of 7, or so. "I'll show you mine, if You'll show me yours." Just the usual "normal" stuff that kids will do, when out of sight. Everyone was more concerned about being "caught", than being naked with each other!

The Summer I was 12, I spent a week, on a small farm, with a family from our former church. We had moved the year before, and I don't remember why I was "sent" there. But, they had a son who was 10. Not someone I had "hung around with" before.

Because they were a large family, and had a rather small house, "we boys" were set up in a tent in one of the fields. For some reason, that first night, we decided it would be "fun" to sleep naked!

For the rest of that week, that guy, and I, would get naked every chance we got! In the barn/sheds. In the woods. Where ever! And, yeah!, we were both able to get Hard! Had no clue what it meant!! But, it was still "Fun"!!

We would also watch each other pee, and poop, from a distance, of course! But we never thought of touching each other, in any way. And, we were having "Fun", rolling in the hay, swinging from vines, swimming in the stream, NAKED, etc., etc., etc., with out "peckers" sticking straight out, and UP, from our scrawny, young, bodies.

I remember one of our topics of discussion was that I had grown pubes, and he had not, yet. I also remember him telling me, while we were sunning, Naked, of course, on this big boulder in the woods, about a neighbor boy who had told him that pulling on your dick would, eventually, lead to "good feelings". Well ... we tried it, for a while, with our "woodies", on ourselves, not each other, but nothing seemed to happen ... We couldn't figure out what the "big deal" was!

Fast forward a few months later ...

I'm all alone in the house. (Don't remember why.) And laying on the living room floor, watching TV, in just my robe. I remembered the "pulling on your dick thing", and started trying it, again. Must have got it "right", that time, because, after a while, I got this "strange" feeling, thoughout my entire body, and this "creamy stuff" started shooting out the end of my dick! I didn't have a real "Clue" as to what was happening!!! I thought I had "broken" something!! I did get some toilet paper, cleaned the mess up, and was feeling rather sick to my stomach!! I really was quite afraid of what I'd done!!! You bet I kept real quiet about that, and was hoping for the best! That, what had "happened" would "heal" all on it's own!! (Typical "Guy Think", yes?)

Over the next several months, with "subtle" discussions with school mates, I finally figured out what was really going "On"! So, of course, I had to try it some more! And, then, the wet dreams started ...

By the time I was 14-15, my dick was practically "Raw"! And, I'd discovered a few friends that would go off into the woods with me, get Naked, and jack off together! (Still, never touching each other!) We would "Play" at who would shoot first, or the farthest, etc., etc. Any "game" we could think of to be able to watch another Guy "Get Off"!!

But, it was also EXPECTED of Me to be dating girls! Which I did, with great abandon! I was the (little) Preacher's Kid, but still had great success with the Cheerleaders, and other "Popular" Girls! I was learning about "French Kissing", and cashmere sweater clad boobs, "damp" panties, and all those other fantastic things about Girls! Still ... I was always looking forward to my "times" with the Guys!!

And, then, there was that "magic" day, when we were "Playing Naked", and "John" just reached out and grabbed my dick! Started jerking me off! Right there in the Sun light streaming through the trees! And I took His Hard-On in my hand ...

We "came" on each others' stomachs ... then He hugged Me! ... and we "French Kissed"! ... He placed one of His bare feet on top of mine ... He grabbed my ass ...

Of, course, both of us backed off ... and denied that had ever happened!!

It wasn't until my Freshman year, in college, that I finally sucked off another Guy! "69", of course, just to make "sure" that it was "mutual". Not really a "Gay Thing", if you know what I mean, but ... still ...

And then it was a fairly "slippery slope" into the "Depths of Depravity"!!

I continued my "Education" with the "Fairer Sex"! And, had a Phenominal Time doing "It"!! But, my main attraction was still toward Males!! And, when I hit 30, I finally admitted to myself, that maybe, just maybe, I was probably Gay!!

Strange how LIFE has a tendancy to "Unravel" before Us!

It's "too bad" that I didn't Know THEN what I Know NOW!! I could have been having a LOT more "FUN" when I was a confused, hormone-raging, 14-15yr. old!!

Keep smilin'!!
Chaz