I smoked weed throughout my last year of high school and my first couple years of college, and had a lot of fun doing it and don't regret it in the least. It helped me mellow out through much of my angst issues when I was younger. I tried coke a couple times and mushrooms and various pills, but pot was my favorite and suited me at the time.
I did it less and less my last couple years of college and since. I was usually around people who smoked, had many roommates and friends who did. But for some reason, my self-consciousness and depressive tendencies caught up with me, and smoking pot is infrequently an enjoyable experience anymore. There are too many personal issues I avoided for too long and smoked pot to depress and avoid them. I also became an increasingly cynical person, to a fault, and did not enjoy being so.
Now I get entirely too paranoid and eventually just have to leave the room and go lay down to sort out the multitude of negative thoughts compounded by being high.
I've always been a bit of a worrier. So being near 30, I think my worries have grown and grown, and pot does very little to diminish them. I also feel I depended on it too much as a means of socializing and meeting people because I've never been good at either of those, and I'd rather that not be the case any longer.
If and when I do get high, I have to be in a super good mood and drunk or drinking and around people who make me feel good about myself. I used to be able to get high and just listen to music and find it to be an incredible experience, but now I just have too many worries for my mind to enter that mode.
I don't have any problems with the drug and I feel it once had a positive influence on myself and it can on others. I support legalizing it. But, like any other drug, including alcohol, you just have to be under positive psychological conditions to being doing it. Typically when offered, I turn it down.
^ what he said.
Im still an avid smoker. I think one of the reasons that I am still a smoker is because I'm irresponsible and can't handle moderation. Probably think that's the case for a lot of people..
Now it's kind of hard to enjoy things without being at least a little stoned.
MODERATION people!




