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[jockboy01]

Congrats Jordan!!! Sounds like things are going well... not that there isn't still work, but enjoy the moment for now at least.

 

[kurtwild]

i d rather be honest than supportive.
i know happiness is relative but u should know that happiness never lasts. especially if it is based on supressing of feelings and sexuality.
i feel sorry for u.

i agree with you!
i mean jordan,you are screwing up your life.
if you wanna do that,ok,i have no problem,but now that you have a kid as well,things are gonna be even worse as time will pass by!
the gay dreams you had were coming from your subconsious,which is very important!
i dont wanna be mean,but you are gonna be sorry for your desision.
the worst thing ever is to make yourself feel happy for something that you actually didnt want to.

is that the way you were imagining your life? supressed?

 

[jockboy01]

So why the criticism kurtwild and please_please_me? I don't think Jordan is saying that he's suddenly str8 and doesn't have any worries. He's just happy to be a dad. This was coming from the beginning, and I think anybody, gay or str8, becomes proud to be a parent. Am I missing something Jordan?

 

[axeman_jordan]

So why the criticism kurtwild and please_please_me? I don't think Jordan is saying that he's suddenly str8 and doesn't have any worries. He's just happy to be a dad. This was coming from the beginning, and I think anybody, gay or str8, becomes proud to be a parent. Am I missing something Jordan?

well jockboy i must be missing something too, i dont even know the two that posted the harsh remarks nor do i want to. All i can say is that everyone has a right to their own opinions. And like you said i didnt say that i am suddenly str8, i simply said the last week has been the best of my life and that me and my gf have drawn a lot closer. I know my life has a lot of decisions that have to be made but at the current time finding SEX is the furthest from my mind, my top priority is my SON. And i know that you and some of the others that have supported me from the beginning and have actually read all my posts know how i truly feel and what is going on in my life. I have met alot of nice people on JUB since i joined, unfortunately like everyplace you go there always has to be the other types too. I am a big boy and know to just read the posts and take in the ones from the people that know me and are supportive and just to ignore the other ones. But i am glad that someone else besides me noticed the harsh critisism. People come to this particular posting area to get support and help not to be told they are totally screwing up their lives. well thats all i am going to rant on that subject..... NOW on to a Happy Subject my SON he is doing great and i am spoiling him rotten. and someone asked what we named him his first name is Hunter and middle name is David. Well have a good evening everyone . Jordan

 

[mexamor]

Jordan, your post is great. You don't have to make any decisions right now and contrary to what some beleive you can be happy in what you choose. You just have to choose with your eyes open and know the consequences. There are many possibilities open to you. Never feel pressured into making decisions, ever. If you are true to yourself you can find happiness and yes happiness is fleeting, but no matter what we choose it is fleeting. It all comes together at moments and we have to cherish the moments and live on them. Life offers many sad times and perplexities. Good luck.

 

[Roland00]

Hunter and David are good names

 

[kurtwild]

well jockboy i must be missing something too, i dont even know the two that posted the harsh remarks nor do i want to. All i can say is that everyone has a right to their own opinions. And like you said i didnt say that i am suddenly str8, i simply said the last week has been the best of my life and that me and my gf have drawn a lot closer. I know my life has a lot of decisions that have to be made but at the current time finding SEX is the furthest from my mind, my top priority is my SON. And i know that you and some of the others that have supported me from the beginning and have actually read all my posts know how i truly feel and what is going on in my life. I have met alot of nice people on JUB since i joined, unfortunately like everyplace you go there always has to be the other types too. I am a big boy and know to just read the posts and take in the ones from the people that know me and are supportive and just to ignore the other ones. But i am glad that someone else besides me noticed the harsh critisism. People come to this particular posting area to get support and help not to be told they are totally screwing up their lives. well thats all i am going to rant on that subject..... NOW on to a Happy Subject my SON he is doing great and i am spoiling him rotten. and someone asked what we named him his first name is Hunter and middle name is David. Well have a good evening everyone . Jordan

sorry,didnt mean to sound bad!
i just wanna tell you that you shouldnt get carried away now that you have a son,and forget about the thing that you are gay!
i just thought that you were trying to force yourself to be with that girl cos of the kid.which you shouldnt.

 

[jockboy01]

I agree, Hunter and David are great names. And glad I wasn't missing something... didn't think so, but just wanted to check.

Oh, and when things settle down and you start to think about sex again (LOL, I can imagine your position... even though I've never really been there), there is nothing hotter than a cute young guy with a kid imo. No, I'm not saying use your son... ok, maybe I am just a bit. LOL.

Seriously though, congrats again... I think you'll make a great dad!

 

[liam88]

Alright, I am sure gonna get "a lot"(vitriols) for posting this, but here goes.

I personally think that you shouln't be too caught up with your sexuality and should relish every moment of your life right now...

Despite all your other problems, you have a girlfriend who loves you, supportive parents (assumption), and most of all, a family.

Besides, I believe true love can exist without lust (so bloody naive).

I tremendously revere you for the way you handled all your predicaments.
If i were in your shoes, I would have most probably crashed by now.

Well anyway, gay or straight, love does transcend lust, so I must say you are quite lucky now.... (most probably a reward after the series of "unfortunate events")

Best wishes.

 

[tallguy297]

Well Liam88...you sure aren't gonna get vitriol from me....I couldnt agree with you more mate....

Live in the moment Jordan!!! Enjoy and the things that your son can show you and teach you. Love being a dad. Smile and relish the changes you've had to make to accommodate someone who depends on you and someone you can mould and shape. Hes a gift that not lost on you thats so easy to see!

But most of all mate...be proud of yourself and the way you have handled your life till now and those changes and decisions you've had to make. Your strength, courage, determination and most of all values are things we'd all be proud to have. Be proud of your accomplishments...you have brought a child into a loving safe home...more than many get.

If you can pass on half of your strengths to Hunter he'll be a great guy too. Good luck mate!

 

[trawler69]

Nice one Tall guy you've said it all for me

 

[mexamor]

Alright, I am sure gonna get "a lot"(vitriols) for posting this, but here goes.

I personally think that you shouln't be too caught up with your sexuality and should relish every moment of your life right now...

Despite all your other problems, you have a girlfriend who loves you, supportive parents (assumption), and most of all, a family.

Besides, I believe true love can exist without lust (so bloody naive).

I tremendously revere you for the way you handled all your predicaments.
If i were in your shoes, I would have most probably crashed by now.

Well anyway, gay or straight, love does transcend lust, so I must say you are quite lucky now.... (most probably a reward after the series of "unfortunate events")

Best wishes.

An excellent post and many good points. I don't believe you are naive at all. I am just sorry that many have never experienced this.

 

[slobone]

Yeah, Jordan, I for one am proud of you and I think you've accomplished a lot in very difficult circumstances.

You've shown that you're a real man, no matter what your sexuality is. Not because you fathered a child, of course, but because you hung in there and did the right thing.

Great names for the kid. Just make sure to give him plenty of love and always be there for him. This is a relationship that will last the rest of your life.

Again, congrats, and keep up the good work!

 

[Kulindahr]

Hunter
David

Kewl!
I really like the sort of tension from the fact that Hunter is more commonly a last name -- nice pick, dude!

 

[colemanshs]

Jordan. You have done really well for yourself. I don't know anyone who could have done a better job. I just found your post today and became addicted to it. I hope all is well with you, your girlfriend, and little Hunter. Best of wishes to you.

 

[Kulindahr]

Most women have a really hard time avoiding seeing their grandchildren, especially in the years up through 12. So I think rc_70ad has a point: they'll soften. She'll probably be the one who makes a move, and drag him along, though there will likely be some nasty fights over it first.
I'll keep hoping; it's nice for babies to have grandma and grandpa to spoil them!

 

[justsimon]

I just read through this thread for the first time... Congrats on the baby. You sound like you'll make an outstanding father.

 

[axeman_jordan]

Hi guys sorry havent posted for a lil while but i have been really busy with the new baby and then with the mess her parents have caused once again. I doubt her parents will be coming over for quite a while now. They came over just out of the blue a few nights back while my parents were there and were trying to make my girlfriend leave me and bring the baby with her. And they were arguing back and forth with my parents. It was just a huge mess. I asked them to leave and was trying to be civilized about it and they wouldnt. And i am sorry but i wont have all the fighting and arguing around my kid. I told them to leave or i was going to call the police and put a restraining order on them so they had to stay away and her dad once again dared me to. I am tired of this arguing and i dont know what made them just drop over like this out of the blue and start a fight we havent even talked to them for a long time actually not since i tried to be a nice guy and invited them over to see the baby when he was first born. Anyway they wouldnt leave so i call the cops. The cops came and asked me if i wanted to file a formal complaint against them and this time i said YES. I have had all i can take and obviously being nice and avoiding them is not working either. So now they are not allowed to step foot on my property or so many feet from any of my family. Its really sad that i had to goto this length, but i am not letting that sort of atomsphere around my kid. On a good note we took Hunter for his checkup yesterday and they said he is perfectly healthy and right on track. And daddy is still spoiling him rotten. Theres nothing like watching my favorite programs at night in my reclining chair holding my son. ITS THE BEST FEELING. well thats my update. hope all of you guys are doing good. Jordan

 

[colemanshs]

Well dude, sometimes you have to take drastic steps to help others realize that you are serious. Once again, congrats about your son. Stay strong and firm with her parents. They'll realize one day what they've done.

 

[Roland00]

Sounds you like you are doing fine besides that one scuffle.