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[eddielee]

I had my DNA checked by using a cheek swab and sending to Ancestry.com. I am...

60% Great Britian

30% Eastern and Central European ( German/Swiss)

The other 10% is a mixture of Irish, Scandanavian, Jewish, and Native American. The are all in what I would call trace amounts.I don't feel I can claim to be a native American or Jewish.

At any rate, God save the Queen!

 

[eddielee]

One British ancestor that I know of is Stephen Langdon, the archbishop of Canterbury. The King, John, I think it was, did not want to pay any respect to archbishop Langdon, but in the end was made to do so. I might be wrong about which King it was, as I need to touch up on my British history. Anyway, the "British" side of my family stayed in England until the early years of King George III.


Of course I'm proud to be an American, but I am also proud of my British roots.

 

[dpnice]

Nice to know that you are one of us.

 

[eddielee]

After 7 x-rays and 4 MRI's, My Doctor had a long talk with me about my back. Four of the lower discs are torn or ruptured. Two discs in my center back are ruptured. A disc in my cervical spine is partially ruptured. The rest of my spine is affected by severe arthritis.
Needless to say, I am in pain all of the time and have to take a narcotic pain medication every day. Thus far, I have been able to somewhat control the pain with Ultram and Ibuprofen. Sometimes I have to take Vicodin. At the very worse I have to get morphine shots. Due to the ruptured discs in my lower spine, I have some trouble walking, my left leg drags a little. My left hand trembles due to a pinched nerve.
Surgery, according to several doctors, would be risky, as it might help, but is just as likely to make things worse. I have been warned by my Doctor not to lift heavy objects or do anything that could strain my back, otherwise, I could become paralysed from the waist down.

I am very depressed right now, but I know that people are worse off than I.

 

[dpnice]

People might well be worse of but that doesn't mean your problems are just as important.

Try to manage and keep a light heart; that is all I can advise. Life is difficult for some of us.

Take care!

David

 

[eddielee]

People might well be worse of but that doesn't mean your problems are just as important.

Try to manage and keep a light heart; that is all I can advise. Life is difficult for some of us.

Take care!

David

Thank you. The weather has turned cold and that makes everything seem to hurt worse.

 

[eddielee]

A Presidential election is coming up, and in most cases I would be full of enthusiasm. Now I feel that I have to choose between cow manure and horse manure.
Of course I want Hillary Clinton to win. Not only would it be a milestone having our first female President, but she is the most capable among all of the candidates. She handles herself well under pressure, and knows when and how to use her witty tongue under pressure.
The dangerous ingredient in this witches brew is the loud mouth Donald Trump. He is uncouth, lacks any sense of decorum, and if he becomes President he will not doubt bring us shame with his harsh and vulgar words. He talks a big talk, claims he can fix the Country, but that is all bull shit.

To quote Betty Davis from the movie "All About Eve"

"Fasten your seatbelts, it's going to be a bumpy ride"

 

[eddielee]

I don't usualy talk about my sexual exploits, especially since I've had none in a long time. Recenty I started up a casual sexual relationship with an old boyfriend after 10 years. That meant taking 9 inches up my ass and keeping my reputation as an expert. I practiced with a dildo to open up and get used to being fucked again. Everything went well. The same pleasant feelings, my same ability to gyrate and squeeze my ass around my boyfriend's cock and make him cum. I had a powerful orgasm as well, no doubt due to prostate stimulation.
I was amused to be approached by a twink at a bar. Lean, blonde hair, bubble butt, 19, and in college. I figured he was approaching me as a "father figure" as most young gays do for wordly advice. He was interested in me as a Father figure, only in terms of "Daddy fuck me." I figured I would be unlikely to get another chance, but let him know that I felt our age difference would preclude a relationship. The sex was very sweet, and he had all the innocense and inexperience of a young gay man, but he was beautiful and eager. I taught him what an older "daddy" knew about sucking cock. Then he wanted me to fuck him. He bent over, I lubed up and started going in, and then "ow, take it out!' Familiar words from my past and the reason I prefer to bottom. This time I resisted. I was halfway up a grasping bubble butt and I'll be damned if I was going to lose the chance to plow this guy. I stopped penetration, told him what to do to relax, then continued. It took a lot of being slow and gentle before I could get into a good fuck rythym. I enjoyed it and from the sound he was making he enjoyed it as well.
He thanked me after it was over, but we will not hook up again. As much as I loved it, and it fufilled a fantasy in my life, I will stick with guys closer to my own age.

 

[eddielee]

It's always best to watch what you do, and not reveal too much about your private life. My recent sexual encounter has caused a lot of tension with gay people and friends that know me. People gossip and tell everything. I should have known that it was reckless, and I should not have fallen for male beauty, no matter how sexy. I can't say more other than even though I did nothing wrong, the encounter could have cost me. Enough said.

 

[eddielee]

I recently purchased two gay DVD's. "Scandal in the Vatican" and Scandal in the Vatican 2. I have to say that among gay porn films they are the best I've ever seen. The films are edited in such a way that you would swear they were actualy in the Vatican. Beautifuly filmed, with high production values, it is a fantasy, as to what might go on behind closed doors. Of course if you are Catholic, prefer hairy Bears, cut cocks, or extreme sex, this film is not for you. It took a lot of nerve to make the film. You've got priests with big dicks having sex, eager, well dressed men, who are super hot, and the Swiss guard, which looks very authentic. While I was enjoying the films, all the while I kept thinking "How did they do it". Plenty of beautiful foreskin in this film. I would recommend adding it to your gay dvd collection.

 

[eddielee]

Does anyone remember when I died? What condition was my body in? Did anyone bother to find me or even care? Was I buried or allowed to rot where I lay?

 

[eddielee]

I saw my Doctor and got a change and increase in my medication. Being bipolar means that I can go from elation to suicidal depression in just a few days. Right now I have a desire to take a knife and plunge it in my chest over and over again. The medication is calming my mind, and I am fighting to let rational thinking rule. I will get better.

 

[eddielee]

Sorry for the gloomy blog entries, but it is a form of therapy for me. In spite of a change in medication, I can't get over the desire to do something bad to myself. Responsibilities that I have to family, is keeping me from tipping over the edge.

 

[eddielee]

I have been invited to go to a wedding next Saturday. I would rather have my rectum pulled out through my mouth. Why? It's a hard right evangelical wedding. I promised my Sister I would go and she promised to keep me out of fights. This is the third wedding for my "in the closet", homophobic, family member.

I hate to be cliche', but keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I am going for the sake of a terminally ill family member, whom I may never see again.

 

[KrAzY Keith]

If he's closeted, find out what he likes in guys and take that as your date or fake date.

 

[eddielee]

Chronic pain can be a very difficult thing to deal with, especially when it does not seem to let up. Almost all of the discs of my lower back and ruptered, torn, or bulging. Arthritis is a major issue in my entire back as well as painful sciatica causing severe and debilitating pain down the left leg. The discs in my upper neck are ruptured causing numbness with trembling and very poor coordination in my left arm and hand.
I can stand for no more than 30 minutes without my leg giving out and the shooting pains are severe. I take a mild narcotic, Ultram, 6 times a day and Gabapentin, 3 times a day. Due to kidney disease I am unable to take anti-inflammatorys, such as ibuprofen.

I has reached the point were I can no longer stand the pain, and I am reluctant to move up to a higher pain medication such as morphine, even though it may do me good.
The past 3 days the pain as been so severe that it honestly felt as if someone were trying to rip my spine out. I don't think I can take much more and I don't feel my doctor is listining to me. The location of the ruptured discs in my lower spine is in a tricky situation as a wrong move will cause me to lose bowel an urinary function. I am at a loss as to what to do. I am just sick of the relentless, severe pain. I cannot, and will not take anymore. Prayers and advice are appreciated.

 

[JackPorn]

Eddielee, I hope you are doing okay in these difficult circumstances.
Suicide or morphine? Go for the morphine.

 

[eddielee]

I am taking a series of steroid injections in the damaged area of my spine. So far it is not helping. Last Saturday night I was in Hospital taking morphine injections for severe pain and sciatica. I am going to have to get a walking cane. With my angina I have to be certain to keep my nitro pills with me. I have had to use them a few times! I am sick of Doctors and Hospitals, even though they have helped me. Sometimes I feel it would be good to lay down and never wake up. I have family that I am responsible for, so I must endure no matter what.