i am not gay- but why do i like gay porn?

[bayern20]

I know i'm straight, again that's not the point of the topic...lol, i was just wondering if it's normal.... but i didn't want you guys to fucking lash at me and call me gay or bi

There is nothing wrong with being gay or bi? You think there is?

Someone telling you that you are gay is not lashing out at you, being mean, or whatever. They are just saying that is what your preference might be.

 

[CGHJ]

Hey eyes...Let's say for now that you are a straight guy, straight in every respect except you like gay porn. You have to admit it's a unique situation, so I have to admit that I'm curious:

Is there a particular kind of gay porn you like to watch? Do you like a specific genre? Is there any gay porn you've seen that turns you off? What action do you like best, sucking, fucking, kissing? Do you like porn with straight guys fooling around with each other for the first time, or do you prefer hardcore gay porn where all the guys are gay and they're just fucking eachother senseless? Do you prefer porn with pretty buff guys or gruff masculine guys?

I'm seriously just curious...the answers aren't going to lead me to any deeper conclusions about you, but it's just suck an interesting situation I'd like to know more, please?

Now these are about you:

Honestly, do you have any desire to be with a guy, even if you can't imagine actually doing it, even if the thought grosses you out, even if you're like "I would never actually do that"? If Brad Pitt climbed into your bed, would you kick him out? For that matter, if one of your hot straight best friends wanted to experiment with you, would you wish you could, even if you couldn't bring yourself to say yes?

If you could turn invisible for 5 minutes, whose locker room would you go wank off in, the girls or the guys? When you have sex dreams, what are your sex dreams about? I had a great one last night, I woke up before the sex part but it featured a hot naked guy. Couple days ago it featured a hot naked girl. That's about what I am in real life, so there you go.

See, if you're truly straight that's one thing. More power to you, and in fact, as I've said before I find the idea of a str8 boy that likes gay porn hot. Hard to believe, but hot. But if you're in denial and we help perpetuate your denial by giving into this idea that you're straight, that's bad, and because a lot of us went through something very similar we'd like to spare you the pain of it.

We're not trying to convert you or anything ("One of us! One of us!"), we're trying to sare you the trouble that we know comes later. That's if you are in the closet. Only you really know. If you really are str8 and just like gay porn, then count yourself lucky that there's so much of it on the internet for you to watch. But if you're bi or gay and just hoping that you're straight like so many of us were, it's something you'll have to deal with eventaully and you shouldn't fear it.

 

[eyesforu]

wow that was a long as post... i won't repeat myself i'll just answer your questions

Is there a particular kind of gay porn you like to watch? no i just watch whatever

Do you like a specific genre? i hate the blowjobs, just the fucking

Is there any gay porn you've seen that turns you off? in fact, most of them

What action do you like best, sucking, fucking, kissing? fucking, i forward the rest

Do you like porn with straight guys fooling around with each other for the first time, or do you prefer hardcore gay porn where all the guys are gay and they're just fucking eachother senseless?

why would straight guys fool around? i mean they are straight (not gay) but um... again i watch any type, even though they are still disgusting to me

and for your other questions..... i said again, i am not attracted to guys, and if brad pitt jumped into my bed, i'd kick him out... i don't have any intentions, and will never fuck a guy, i just like watching it, so if brad pitt was fucking another gay, even though it's disgusting, i'd watch it. And the whole invisible thing you said... um... again i don't jack off to seeing male bodies, or blowjobs or anything like that, so no not the male locker room.... but probably if they are fucking, then yeah i would there. But the female locker room would be much better, big hardon, jack off just watching girls talk about how big their boobs, butts are

Do you prefer porn with pretty buff guys or gruff masculine guys? i don't care about the body, i just like seeing two guys fuck

 

[igamenir]

So only fucking? Nothing more?
I'm just thinking ... do you finger yourself? And what do you think about strap-on?

 

[closetkeis]

I couldnt have said it any better Coolblue. BTW nice website CG.

 

[bayern20]

He needs to hear the reality. What he is saying makes no sense. He finds sex between guys disgusting but he watches it. Only crazy people might do that. Come on, this is ridicilous.

We can help people who are being realistic and real. This guy is trying to make a fool out of us.

 

[closetkeis]

He needs to hear the reality. What he is saying makes no sense. He finds sex between guys disgusting but he watches it. Only crazy people might do that. Come on, this is ridicilous.

We can help people who are being realistic and real. This guy is trying to make a fool out of us.

Key word kid. I don't think he truly knows what he wants just yet. He is just trying to defend what he perceives as his sexuality. He will find out sooner or later.

 

[igamenir]

Bayern, what's wrong about watching something disgusting? I remember a conversation on another forum. I was like:
Str8: ... gay porn is so disqusting!
Gay: And aren't lesbians, too?
Str8: They are very disgusting, but it's something i have to watch!

 

[bayern20]

Key word kid. I don't think he truly knows what he wants just yet. He is just trying to defend what he perceives as his sexuality. He will find out sooner or later.

It makes no difference.

We can help him, or he can continue saying stuff that makes no sense.

The only option is to get real.

Otherwise, what can we do? Absolutley nothing. We can just feel bad knowing what is likley most true in this situation.

But on the other hand, this could be a troll too. Because who says that? I watch something that I find disgusting.

Come on.

 

[bayern20]

Bayern, what's wrong about watching something disgusting? I remember a conversation on another forum. I was like:
Str8: ... gay porn is so disqusting!
Gay: And aren't lesbians, too?
Str8: They are very disgusting, but it's something i have to watch!

Its called a joke.

 

[CGHJ]

Interesting answers, eyes...if you're being honest with those answers, I'd say you were straight with some kind of whack male-bonding issues or something to where you take pleasure in watching a man subjugate another man. Like, you don't like the blowjobs part, and that was the only part I liked. That makes me think maybe it's not about pleasure, but male relationships.

However, no offense, but it's hard to tell how honest you're being with your answers. After all, your entrance to this board was to sponsor a contest where guys would get naked, and you illustrated that post with a buncha really gay (pardon the term) pictures. So I worry that you're in denial. My gut feeling says you're at least bi, but my gut feeling doesn't make anything true. You must be true to yourself, whoever you are. Only you really know who you are, but be honest with yourself.

Now if you really are straight, that's another issue, cuz seriously straight guys don't watch gay porn, so that indicates that psychologically some circuits are crossed. I'm not saying in a bad way or anything, I'm just saying if you're really str8 then that's an indication of something deeper psychologically that you'll have to take care of at some point. Perhaps some make figures in your life made you feel powerless at one point, or you have felt a lack of control in male relationships (meaning the sex on screen is more about the power of the man fucking over the fuckee than the sex)? Anything ring a bell?

 

[eyesforu]

So only fucking? Nothing more?
I'm just thinking ... do you finger yourself? And what do you think about strap-on?

no i don't finger myself... just stroke the cock lol..... and um... the whole strap on thing and toys i stay away from

 

[eyesforu]

Interesting answers, eyes...if you're being honest with those answers, I'd say you were straight with some kind of whack male-bonding issues or something to where you take pleasure in watching a man subjugate another man. Like, you don't like the blowjobs part, and that was the only part I liked. That makes me think maybe it's not about pleasure, but male relationships.

However, no offense, but it's hard to tell how honest you're being with your answers. After all, your entrance to this board was to sponsor a contest where guys would get naked, and you illustrated that post with a buncha really gay (pardon the term) pictures. So I worry that you're in denial. My gut feeling says you're at least bi, but my gut feeling doesn't make anything true. You must be true to yourself, whoever you are. Only you really know who you are, but be honest with yourself.

Now if you really are straight, that's another issue, cuz seriously straight guys don't watch gay porn, so that indicates that psychologically some circuits are crossed. I'm not saying in a bad way or anything, I'm just saying if you're really str8 then that's an indication of something deeper psychologically that you'll have to take care of at some point. Perhaps some make figures in your life made you feel powerless at one point, or you have felt a lack of control in male relationships (meaning the sex on screen is more about the power of the man fucking over the fuckee than the sex)? Anything ring a bell?

that contest thing didn't happen anyway.... i did in fact join the forum to start it, cause other forums didn't allow it, and stuff.... there was no sexual pleasure reason behind it, it was just for fun kinda thing lol. No i had no male relationships, i never will and i'm sure of it. I didn't get your question though, about being in power and stuff.... confused

 

[CGHJ]

This reminds me of a story. I knew a prominent sexologist. Naturally, when you are on a long drive and smoking a big doobie, as we were one day, the question comes up, "What is the weirdest story you ever encountered in your practice?"

He said he had a patient who was a young punk of maybe 17 or so, and his thing was, he was attracted to cats. Literally attracted to pussy. He actually fucked them, with the unfortunate result that the neighbors were getting upset that their cats were being fucked to death. And my friend the doctor asked him, "Do you like male cats are female cats?" And the kid jumped up and made like he was gonna beat the crap out of him and said, "Girl cats you dumbshit, I AINT NO FAGGOT!" Which I thought was an interesting distinction to make if you were fucking a cat.

No eyes, that story doesn't actually have anything to do with you, it was actually sirdespard's comment about it being a unique look into human sexuality that reminded me of it. But that is true...if he's being honest (with himself, is my main concern), it's an interesting perspective for sure. And liking gay porn isn't even a fraction as odd as fucking cats

 

[CGHJ]

By male relationships I didn't mean love relationship...like brother, father, friends, teachers what have you. Sex is often used as a weapon, or as power. Maybe it's not like you actually want to have sex with them, it could be more like you have felt powerless and that 's a way of asserting power over other men. When you watch something like that, part of you connects with the person on screen and they represent your desires. If they represent your desires but you don't actually desire the sex part, it could be what you desire is the power part...or the reverse, you are in a power position and wish to be let go of your control.

Man it's hard to explain, and I have so much work to do...basically I'm saying the sex isn't really sex, it represents something else in your mind and you have to find out what that something else is. And I'm just saying those are possibilities to consider, I don't know you and I don't know if I'm helping you to live in denial or not. I repeat that you must be true to yourself.

 

[Soilwork]

Joe, I almost feel like you're hurting and not helping, but at least you're getting him talking and not just threatening to beat us all up (like that would be possible).

I dont' believe for one second that he's straight, but I DO believe that HE believes it.. for now.

And what's really important is that he knows that if he's ever ready to talk about mabye NOT being 200% straight (you know, because at the moment, everyone knows he's straight and nobody in his famliy is gay), that we're all ready to be here for him.

 

[CGHJ]

Yeah Jasun, I thought of that too...I have to repeat that it's my personal opinion that he's at least bi. At least. But I do also have to consider the possibility that he might be telling the truth about himself, in which case there are other issues that he needs to deal with.

He doesn't get off either way...either he's bi/gay and it's normal to watch gay porn but now he has to deal with with being bi/gay, or he's really straight and it's completely abnormal to watch gay porn and he needs to find out why because it's an indication of something deeper.

Cuz let us be clear, straight guys do not watch gay porn, they just don't. A horny straight guy will fuck another guy 10 times cuz he's horny before he'll ever actually watch gay porn on his own. Something is definitely up, and Eyes definitely knows it. I hope he fugures out what it is.

Eyes: let me be clear---you cannot hide from who you are! We're anonymous strangers on a message board, and whether you're gay or straight I'm interested in what you have to say. I definitely find your situation interesting. If you are straight I'd like to help you be straight. But if you're bi or gay, and just hiding from us or even yourself, you won't be doing yourself any favors. I do worry a little that you'll mistake what I've said for an additional "I'm not gay, that one guy on the messageboard said I might not be." Because if you're not straight, using what I 've said to help yourself pretend that you are will be bad.

 

[KentuckyPython]

He needs to hear the reality. What he is saying makes no sense. He finds sex between guys disgusting but he watches it. Only crazy people might do that. Come on, this is ridicilous.

We can help people who are being realistic and real. This guy is trying to make a fool out of us.

If he's not some troll, he's got some serious issues (could be a combo). He's disgusted by gay porn, but it turns him on. That disgusts him more. He's addicted to the porn and the self degradation that comes with it. While under-aged, he joined a gay website (by lying about his age, so he's a lier). He posts to tell us that he straight but gets off by being disgusted by gay porn. He likes the fucking part (wonder about the anilingus). He's also made some Freudian slips (Soilwork pointed one out). Seriously, the kid needs professional help.

He's the kind of straight that has sexual relations with a woman while he's bent over the table and she's wearing a strap-on.

 

[skaterboi]

Long thread! Not read it all but wanted to say a little to the poster.
If you find gay porn arousing then you are gay. When I first started jacking off to gay porn when I was 14/5 I was in denial, I use to feel sick at the thought of going with a guy or having sex with one, infact at times I still feel the same because I still can't really accept that I'm gay, but I still looked for gay porn on the internet and never eyed up lads when I was out or in the showers at school. The fact I'm here and jack off over gay porn all the time must mean I'm gay and in the future I'm sure I will come to terms and live with it.
But don't worry you don't have to be gay if you don't want to, just ignore it and get on with your life. Be warned though it totally controls your life and is like carrying the weight of the world some times, just have to hope for the day you're strong enough to admit your sexuality.

 

[bayern20]

If he's not some troll, he's got some serious issues (could be a combo). He's disgusted by gay porn, but it turns him on. That disgusts him more. He's addicted to the porn and the self degradation that comes with it. While under-aged, he joined a gay website (by lying about his age, so he's a lier). He posts to tell us that he straight but gets off by being disgusted by gay porn. He likes the fucking part (wonder about the anilingus). He's also made some Freudian slips (Soilwork pointed one out). Seriously, the kid needs professional help.

He's the kind of straight that has sexual relations with a woman while he's bent over the table and she's wearing a strap-on.

That's the problem. What he is describing is some sort of situation where you have to do something, you get some sort of high, even though you hate doing it. Actually, I get sick to my stomach thinking about it, because its the same type of people that murder people that say that. They get this rush from murdering people even though they know its wrong.