I am seeking help....I just feel like complete shit for even knowing it is there. It is amazing how much support I got in just one night....stay with me guys! Thanks!
Being haunted by an evil you encountered that you didn't know was there can be a burden. But there's one way that can help counter it -- encountering wholesome material of the same kind.
WRT this issue, I recommend you hop to the JUB story forum, and find a classic called "Watching Brad". It is long, and it deals with a lot more than sex -- in fact sex turns out to be spice, not even essential to the story.
And stick with a good counselor.
At the heart of this debate is free speech. It's irrefutably undeniable. I agree that such content is atrocious if not as close to evil as you can get. If we start restricting certain segments of free speech who's to say one day political discourse won't be restricted? We need to think about these things before we just blindly start restricting.
I would much rather have a pedophile get his rocks off by reading than by actually doing. However this problem needs a major overhaul. Why aren't we neutering pedophiles?! Scientists overwhelmingly agree pedophilia is incurable. So let's take steps to curb any offenses.
Of course if I had my way, I'd simply have every convicted pedophile execute and the organs donated. I would extend that same policy to convicted rapists. Of course though society wouldn't stand for such draconian barbaric acts.
No -- not one person has mentioned the heart of this debate, though a number have alluded to it: the heart is human beings still in their formative years, persons universally recognized as needing aid and guidance in building themselves into whole and strong people.
It's undeniable that Nifty's stories are contributing to the sexual abuse of children -- it's impossible for that to not be the case. That alone should make you want to deal with them the way you propose for other sexual offenders.
They're probably contributing to the safety of a few children, too, by providing a fantasy outlet for a few men who then don't act out. But the web is not the place for that!
As a former educator, however briefly, I had one principle pounded into me: whatever you do, teaches. By allowing this material on the web, we as a society are teaching. So, what is the lesson? That's easy: that it's okay to subject pre-pubescents to sexual activity, for which they are not equipped.
That's a direct contradiction of the lesson those kids need to learn in order to be whole individuals when they grow up -- that they own themselves. The stories teach that underage kids are fair game because adults have power and might makes right. They teach that children are objects which exist for the pleasure of adults who want to abuse them. They teach that children are victims, prey for whoever wants to be a predator.
That is not acceptable -- this material is an offense against the very foundations of morality.
Is some pedophilia acceptable in a story? Perhaps. Here are some plot lines in which it could be:
- young man was abused as a child and struggles with those demons in order to be free to love
- young woman who was abused as a child seeks to dispel her inner demons by becoming a private investigator tracking down pedophiles and bringing them to justice
- father goes to borrow a tool from his neighbor, only to discover that neighbor using his eleven-year old son for sex; the father shoots the neighbor with the nail gun he went to borrow; he goes to trial and the jury finds it justifiable
- plumber who visits the house regularly begins sexually using the nine-year old twins, a boy and girl; when they learn he is coming again, they plot to arrange an accident with chemicals under the sink; he doesn't die but is turned into a vegetable, barely able to care for himself
- boy joins the SAS (gotta get the Brits in here) and becomes a highly decorated elite of the elite in special operations, especially urban; during one operation he confronts a child huddled crying in a closet; he is hit by a flashback of himself in a similar place, after being raped by a salesman; he leaves the military and embarks on his own private war to kill pedophiles; after his thirty-ninth kill, he is caught by an Interpol agent, who after a struggle with his conscience allows the hero to make his fortieth kill; instead of being prosecuted, he is recruited to go after an international ring of pedophiles
Those would be acceptable. Anything so much as suggesting approval or glorifying sex with pre-pubescent kids is vile.
I'll add one other plot type that could be acceptable:
man discovers he's a pedophile when he comes within inches of acting out; terrified of being revealed, he avoids going for therapy, but instead embarks on a quest to deal with it himself; in the course of over a decade of struggle, through which he is reduced to poverty, he discovers balance and becomes whole, enough so that he goes on to become very well-to-do, and a mentor to struggling pedophiles, to whom he gives one absolutely inviolable instruction: never, ever associate with anyone young enough you couldn't take him to a bar and have a drink together