I am just trying to resign myself to it for this Saturday. I am not feeling so sure about it anymore and a feeling peer pressure from the swing group
Tell them no and keep moving. They sound like they are using you for your hole.
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I am just trying to resign myself to it for this Saturday. I am not feeling so sure about it anymore and a feeling peer pressure from the swing group
I have no idea in topping.
In fact I dont even get an erection from the thought of it
I went thru with it yesterday. I just shut down emotionally and got thru it. Feeling pretty lost and sore today.
I went thru with it yesterday. I just shut down emotionally and got thru it. Feeling pretty lost and sore today.
9 guys. Still sore today. Have some swelling.Wow,,, how many guys topped you yesterday?
9 guys. Still sore today. Have some swelling.
My wife is bi so she is ok with this. She does not watch however. I was just doing this for my friends benefit and didnt antipate others getting involved. I dont know much about the gay lifestyle or how common what is now going on. It just moved fast and now I am at a point where my ego and self esteem is being affected.
Sounds like you had a good time
He said he "shut down emotionally and got thru it." Doesn't sound like he had a good time to me at all. Sounds like he endured it, like it was a kind of assault.
Since this thread is about your mental health, take a close look at it. You're not "feeling the Love" when it starts being guys you have no emotional connection with. That's a sign from your heart that you should pull back. Re-examine this, and stick with the guys where you're feeling a reciprocal affection between the two of you. No wonder you're feeling "lost": some of these guys are just using you, and you're a babe in the woods. If you'd had a lot of experience before going into this, that would be one thing, but you jumped in to it out of curiosity and not your mind - AND heart - are flashing BIG red flags. Pay attention to that!!!! Never mind how "goodlooking you must be." Sheesh. This is emotionally troubling to you.
I am doing this about every other weekend now. I just have found that if I shut down emotionally during it that it doesnt effect my ego and self esteem as much afterwards. Its not perfect but that is just the way things stand right now.
I am just trying to cope with it the best I can. The guys have pitched in to rent a hotel room tomorrow for it.
Do you just lay there while the guys take their turn on you? and you just try not to think about it?
Either you really low key like it or you're trying to make them happy leading to an emotional mess eventually it's going to get you at the end.
