From walked all over to well respected and feared. [merged]

[SLOPPYSECONDS]

Re: Depression talk....read

I have a dillema.

Often times when traveling in the real world. I get emotionally attacked and harmed by people. It's very difficult for me to speak my mind. I often times get misunderstood and disrespected. I speak my mind but often times people refuse to hear me based on my looks and age (i'm in my 20's but older patrons belittle me). I often get ignored and don't like the way i get treated. I find it easier to speak my mind in print....through letters, e-mails and etc....because through those venues I don't have to endure being cut off, and arguing mid thought. I can take my time to get my thoughts out, edit them, express them appropriately without any intimidation factor that may come from face to face confrontation....and can manuvore through the world more easily. It scares me how anytime a person confronts me verbally, puts a little base in theiir voice, loudens their voice and screams out i clam up and ALWAYS miss serveral talking points i had in mind and in addition to that i ALWAYS end up leaving the argument with less than stellar results.

I leave the argument feeling weak and frail...and leave feeling less than okay. I'm sick of it...it's saddened me many many times and has broken me down time and time again.

It's hard for me to function on a daily basis. Often times I get labeled as things unbeknowst to me and unprovoked by me being that nothing has been said by me majority of the time. People overassume when they see me and instantaneously run away with wild assumptions of me without my voice being heard or my insight to who i am being given.

It hurts and I HATE feeling this way.

I don't know what to do for my situation.

I cant handle this.

What should i do?

if ya come back thread

any little human tell ya this in many a way world ova

ya eva think lot a public of great civilazations gonna talk twat before they a open a mouth is why ya senses check um off a thousand yards

bit like dude pick ya up by feet ans shake ya fa anythang but when ya just in ya skins it say somethang about da dude is a twat

so just smile ans let um know their jaw workin good

 

[AlmondMilk]

Re: Depression talk....read

It's hard for me to function on a daily basis. Often times I get labeled as things unbeknowst to me and unprovoked by me being that nothing has been said by me majority of the time. People overassume when they see me and instantaneously run away with wild assumptions of me without my voice being heard or my insight to who i am being given.

What do people say and assume? And how do you know?

For me, I have problems assuming. I just get so hard on myself, and fear what I think what other people are thinking about me...usually it's wrong, though. I'll acknowledge that, but the thoughts are still there. I'm not sure if this is the same thing you think, though.

It seems like you need a boost in confidence. I don't know...being emotionally attacked and harmed by people needs a bit more elaboration.

 

[vulgar_newcomer]

Re: Depression talk....read

You know my friend alls you need to do is get yourself a copy of the "Leningrad Cowboys" CD - Zombies Paradise and it will all make sense.

hint: Listen to the remake of "Fire"

 

[rareboy]

Re: Depression talk....read

if ya come back thread

any little human tell ya this in many a way world ova

ya eva think lot a public of great civilazations gonna talk twat before they a open a mouth is why ya senses check um off a thousand yards

bit like dude pick ya up by feet ans shake ya fa anythang but when ya just in ya skins it say somethang about da dude is a twat

so just smile ans let um know their jaw workin good

Honest to God.

I would have thought that after the thread that lifted the veil was vapourized the other day, you'd be more circumspect than this.

The OP has a posting history detailing serious issues with depression and mental health.

I'll keep my fingers crossed that your jabberwocky approach can help encourage the OP to not only seek and stick with therapy and to stick with the proper meds and diet to support his own optimal mental health....but I have to say that when someone is already expressing difficulties with 'real world' communications....a lot of DaDa chatter may not be the most appropriate way of providing guidance.

But it gives me even more insight into the person behind the prose.

 

[NeedingHelpASAP]

How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

I always feel fearful. I always feel scared of losing things that i love or having things that i enjoy taken away from me becaise i've always had a history of such. I've never had anyone support me or have my back....i've never had a real friend...or a real dependable loved family member that i can feel close too....everyone i've ever known has backstabbed me and let me down. Even my past employess have betrayed me...i've never had someone there for me 100% of the time and it scares me and makes me sad. I really want people to love me and be there for me always. I don't want to be bullied anymore anytime i find an once of happiness.

I've been treated very badly my whole life and i'm sick of it. It's scaring me.

I've had situations where my past fake friends didnt stand by my side and defend me when their other (more cherished) friends attacked me verbally. I've had situations where my fake friend neglegently led me into danger without any concern for my well being and again while being bullied they stood there and watched as opposed to intervening.



Also, I know that i have what it takes for astronomical success....not attorney , phd holder, six figure earning accountant success...but mega take the world by success success,.....

But i've always been stifiled and chopped down by negative attention upon getting on my successful feet for a few moments...literally seconds after getting up and getting something positive together...all of the vultures and jealous angry people come....psycologically rape me and literally intimidate me into not doing welll for myself...

In school it stopped me from continuing to get straight A's....after i did for a while and started getting negative attention from teachers out of jealousy when i would correct them on certain mishaps they would make when teaching and suggesting better methods for them to teach....

From students whom instantly wanted to cheat off of me and use me up and upon my rejection would violently bully me and ostricize me scaring me into pasivity...there were also moments where they would use such harsh words that would intimidate me into giving it to them...(answers to homework,tests etc...) they would use me up and treat me like shit while doing it

They've always been able to brush me off and treat me like shit but then when i grain some sort of power or control they always manage to somehow snatch it from me, hurt me, completey disregard me and somehow still remain in control

As an exmaple....there was a situation where i rose up to be the manager of a group of people who once were my peers....they were rude to me, belittled me, ostricized me, and harrassed me, and when i thought of becoming manager i vowed to myself that i'd get rid of every single one of them

When I finally became manager....i started my action plan and started my attempt to one off everyone....they didn't flinch of move a muscle when i barked orders and in addition to that when i went to the boss/owner of the company for back up he literally scoffed and said that we wouldnt' help me...he also said that they can stay despite their harrassment towards me and that maybe IIIIIIIIIIIIIII should leave.

He also asked me if i htought i was in the right establishment which made me feel like shit

It's like i can never win. They outnumbered me and the boss was prenicious and meanspiritied himself....when i tried to ex-off employess he actually backed them...which enabled them into thinking that it's okay to disrespect me and not take anything i say seriously....and suggested that maybe i should leave instead if i'm having so much of a problem with them....completely ignoring their abuse and disrespect (before and during my rise to manager) towards me and the organization. I even confronted him about an employee who stole computer parts from him and he defended the kid and said that it does matter that he stole car parts....when i questioned his response he then scolded me for taddle tailing!!

I feel like shit and i don't know what to do


I never push myself to become successful anymore because i always get embarrassed and belittled and always get treated like the little guy and the loser even when i;m the boss.

I rememeber another situation where an intern for one of my co-managers made a snarky comment towards me in the elevator when i mentioned my educational background to her....she's was 2 years oldeer than myself and was my intern...... i was 18 at the time and she was 20yo studying at an ivy league school...

she started questioning me on "what is it like to fail in life" when i said an ivy had wait lsited me...and she stormed out of the elevator...she later started kissing my comanagers ass and out of embarrassement and that same feeling of helplessness and hopelessness and believing that even which complaints no manager or other authority would help me i just sat there sulked and wallowed..... it hurt me so much that i stopped showing up to work one day and never came back...it scarreed me emotionally and psycologically...

What can i do to fight these abusers off? I never get respected and heard and i feel like if i can never be listened to and heard and treated the way i deserve to be treated that is hould just end myself......

 

[navigaytion]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

Counseling, dear.

Maybe some kind of sedative, as well...

 

[tdavecu]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

You need to get psychiatric help from a real-life doctor. I sense the onset of paranoid schizophrenia. Good luck!

 

[HunterM]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

Definitely seek professional counseling. You cannot control what people think, say or do. You can only control your own reactions and take actions to make it better for yourself and for people around you.

Learn about leadership. Read books and take classes on that subject. And go get counseling for advice to improve your outlook in life. Don't stay in a role of a victim.

 

[CowboyBob]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

One thing to do is not to focus on what other people think, but what you think.

Everyone is treated badly from time to time, and you have to learn how to deal with it.

Venting like this in an internet forum may make you feel better for a while, but you really need to get some counseling. You have some deep issues that really can't be dealt with properly like this, so please.... go to your doctor and have him/her assist you.

 

[canesnbeach]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

fuck counseling. I've always found it soo self-indulgent.

Instead, realize that people, general speaking, are manipulative, self-serving, and untrustworthy.

But there are some that make the heartache well worth it.

 

[navigaytion]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

fuck counseling. I've always found it soo self-indulgent.

Instead, realize that people, general speaking, are manipulative, self-serving, and untrustworthy.

But there are some that make the heartache well worth it.

I would suggest some counseling for you, as well.

 

[palbert]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

This is not your first appeal for help in these pages. I think you should seek professional help to examine all of your issues.

 

[Kabluey]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

Sometimes reactions that might seem hostile from a stranger, friend or workmate might actually be hurt, embarrassment or surprise.
Most people are essentially nice, and will respect someone who respects them too.
Sounds like you could do with some advice or guidance from an expert to help you learn what makes other people 'tick'.
Maybe develop some methods for reading body language, voice cues, etc? Could make life less stressful.

 

[canesnbeach]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

I would suggest some counseling for you, as well.

I'd never take mental health advice from someone with Anna Wintour as their avatar.

 

[MoltenRock III]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

Dude your insane persecution syndrome is all in your head. You need professional help! You've been bitching about the same paranoid delusions for months now! Why haven't you taken the advice you got 3 months ago here:

http://www.justusboys.com/forum/showthread.php?p=7197787#post7197787

If you are using any street drugs, you also need to stop them immediately as they are screwing with your mind. What drugs are you currently using?

 

[SLOPPYSECONDS]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

I always feel fearful. I always feel scared of losing things that i love or having things that i enjoy taken away from me becaise i've always had a history of such. I've never had anyone support me or have my back....i've never had a real friend...or a real dependable loved family member that i can feel close too....everyone i've ever known has backstabbed me and let me down. Even my past employess have betrayed me...i've never had someone there for me 100% of the time and it scares me and makes me sad. I really want people to love me and be there for me always. I don't want to be bullied anymore anytime i find an once of happiness.

I've been treated very badly my whole life and i'm sick of it. It's scaring me.

I've had situations where my past fake friends didnt stand by my side and defend me when their other (more cherished) friends attacked me verbally. I've had situations where my fake friend neglegently led me into danger without any concern for my well being and again while being bullied they stood there and watched as opposed to intervening.



Also, I know that i have what it takes for astronomical success....not attorney , phd holder, six figure earning accountant success...but mega take the world by success success,.....

But i've always been stifiled and chopped down by negative attention upon getting on my successful feet for a few moments...literally seconds after getting up and getting something positive together...all of the vultures and jealous angry people come....psycologically rape me and literally intimidate me into not doing welll for myself...

In school it stopped me from continuing to get straight A's....after i did for a while and started getting negative attention from teachers out of jealousy when i would correct them on certain mishaps they would make when teaching and suggesting better methods for them to teach....

From students whom instantly wanted to cheat off of me and use me up and upon my rejection would violently bully me and ostricize me scaring me into pasivity...there were also moments where they would use such harsh words that would intimidate me into giving it to them...(answers to homework,tests etc...) they would use me up and treat me like shit while doing it

They've always been able to brush me off and treat me like shit but then when i grain some sort of power or control they always manage to somehow snatch it from me, hurt me, completey disregard me and somehow still remain in control

As an exmaple....there was a situation where i rose up to be the manager of a group of people who once were my peers....they were rude to me, belittled me, ostricized me, and harrassed me, and when i thought of becoming manager i vowed to myself that i'd get rid of every single one of them

When I finally became manager....i started my action plan and started my attempt to one off everyone....they didn't flinch of move a muscle when i barked orders and in addition to that when i went to the boss/owner of the company for back up he literally scoffed and said that we wouldnt' help me...he also said that they can stay despite their harrassment towards me and that maybe IIIIIIIIIIIIIII should leave.

He also asked me if i htought i was in the right establishment which made me feel like shit

It's like i can never win. They outnumbered me and the boss was prenicious and meanspiritied himself....when i tried to ex-off employess he actually backed them...which enabled them into thinking that it's okay to disrespect me and not take anything i say seriously....and suggested that maybe i should leave instead if i'm having so much of a problem with them....completely ignoring their abuse and disrespect (before and during my rise to manager) towards me and the organization. I even confronted him about an employee who stole computer parts from him and he defended the kid and said that it does matter that he stole car parts....when i questioned his response he then scolded me for taddle tailing!!

I feel like shit and i don't know what to do


I never push myself to become successful anymore because i always get embarrassed and belittled and always get treated like the little guy and the loser even when i;m the boss.

I rememeber another situation where an intern for one of my co-managers made a snarky comment towards me in the elevator when i mentioned my educational background to her....she's was 2 years oldeer than myself and was my intern...... i was 18 at the time and she was 20yo studying at an ivy league school...

she started questioning me on "what is it like to fail in life" when i said an ivy had wait lsited me...and she stormed out of the elevator...she later started kissing my comanagers ass and out of embarrassement and that same feeling of helplessness and hopelessness and believing that even which complaints no manager or other authority would help me i just sat there sulked and wallowed..... it hurt me so much that i stopped showing up to work one day and never came back...it scarreed me emotionally and psycologically...

What can i do to fight these abusers off? I never get respected and heard and i feel like if i can never be listened to and heard and treated the way i deserve to be treated that is hould just end myself......

ya title grab ma attention ans ma attention tiny when it human cultures of taday no can evens shit with out got go univeristy learn what shit is

so

if ya type all this on internet ans yeah is read it ans yeah is read it ans internet is no space so tiny of nothin it a clue but no say steven hawkins or get upset ans got rewrite few thangs

so will ya return ans read this ? who know but ya already know cause ya type it
so no got return ans ya can read already whatya write cuase ya type it
SO

while many folk in world sell body organs ta just survive in da great civlizations a taday ans many a thang folk do ta keep up with da great civiliaztions of taday
1+1 is 2 but no say ta da gangster governments banks insurance etc so on fa eons since MAN discova ooh 16 toes ans 4 thumbs

ans this a sex site dscova OOH wot DAT? yeah da cock it point forward ans human race follow ! < ya get dat!

when walk where humans is ans suck their brains wot a not diffurcult MANNNN

so save repeat lot a glue of eons ans ya already know 1+1 is 2 or got add interest?

wot was ya cause title grab ma attention Not sure why cause still learn read

wot ya succesfulls at?

in all life get born ans die smile face is like super succesfull

whateva

anyway

get learn speel stuff ta inteernet space

YO!

ans just in case
WHO A BRAD PITT?

thankyou

ans bless moonbeams cause handy when walkin edge of very hing mountain a roads

 

[navigaytion]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

I'd never take mental health advice from someone with Anna Wintour as their avatar.

I'm not giving you mental health advice, I'm suggesting you get some.

Do you understand the difference?

 

[AlmondMilk]

Re: Suicidal thoughts ....help?

No I haven't....I just feel too scared to call or i don't even want to....i dont want a help line....i want like real people....i cried all day today....again today

You said you want real people. Honestly, the responses you'll get, al beit good and helpful, they won't be as helpful as talking to someone face to face. Since that might not be possible at the moment, calling the hotlines would be the next best thing. Why do I say this?

Well, when you're talking on the phone, you hear someone talking to you. Whereas reading responses, you might not get the same effect. Also, people in these hotlines are real people, too. Otherwise, I don't know why they'd be there trying to help others have someone to talk to.

 

[tdavecu]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

I just read one of your previous posts (the one that MoltenRock posted on this thread). Wow dude! You need to go get some psychiatric help. You can't continue to seek help on anonymous Internet forums!!!

 

[HunterM]

Re: How do i stop people from abusing me when i do successful things?

Ya, from reading your past posts...you need Dr. Phil to help you with your problem.