Wow
Hey guys whats up....
My buddy called me last night and talked for like a minute..he said his girl is leaving to go over her friends house for two days and that can he call me in fifteen minutes? I said sure.
He called me back and said "Whats up buddy?" and I said "Whats up?" and then he proceeded to break down and bawl and cry and sob like I have never heard him do before.
He said that he misses me too much and that I dont begin to even know how much he misses me. He said that he is too alone out there and he wants to come home. He said he is losing hope and he feels like he cannot get a break and he feels a large weight on his shoulders.
I felt really bad for him. I wanted to hug him so much. I said buddy its ok, cry it out. Im here. He cried so much and for so long I was worried for him.
He said we have to work on me coming out there sooner and that a year is too long and that even August is too long. He said he misses his walks and talks with me and the littlest things. We talked for close to two hours about this and after a while he said he needs to call me back, he had to vomit.
He calls me back and the first thing he said was that he misses me and he knows he sounds like a broken record. I told him I miss him in ways that he doesnt know either.
He said he has been lying and things have not been ok out there and that me being there would make him feel comfortable. He said he is thinking about coming home, even though he hates NYC, just to be near me.
After a while I talked to him and calmed him down. We started talking about other things. Movies. Vegas. NYC., etc..
And then the whole topic completely shifted.
He asked me how therapy is going and I said I dont go anymore. He said and how is the OTHER thing going. And I go what? He says, you know what we talked about. And I said nothing much.
He made a joke about when he had a kid whether or not he should call me aunt or uncle brian..we both had a laugh over it and he said that only he could joke about that with me.
He asked if Ii had been seeing anyone. He also asked about what type of guy that Im into. I said recently I had been with a guy Matt who is a personal trainer at Crunch gym..hes like get out Ballys(the company my buddy used to work for) owns that. I said cool and he goes whats his name maybe I know him. I said his name but it didnt ring a bell. He asked me if this guy Matt had tattoos and I said no. After I went on about Matt my buddy said "yeah I have to get back in shape"
He then said that if he were to go the other way he would have to be the man..I said excuse me?? lol And he said nevermind. He asked me if Im the man when we have sex..I said yes lol. I went ont o say that Im into manly men..and for some reason I guess he got all defensive and said "Well I cant help you out there!" I was like ok....
He said it is cool that we were able to talk about this and he enjoys the fact that I am more comfortable with him now. He also said that him and his girl love me to death and that he doesnt even se me as a friend, he sees me as a brother.
He also said that he knew very quickly that I was gay. He said he thought with some things I said that I was slowly coming out to him and he tried to make it more easy for me. He said he loves me no matter what. He then went on to say that if I am with anyone come August that I could invite him down with me and that he would be more than welcome. He said is proud of me and proud to know me and that he would be glad to tell his straight Italian friends that he had a gay friend. he also said he has lost a lot of respect for his friends back home and that everyday I remind him more and more of what brothers we are. I told him that "we have a rare relationship/friendship"; and he goes I know..
He then played me a clip of American Pie 3 where Stifler, a character in th movie was in a gay bar doing a dance off..He said thats his favorite and funniest scene in the movie.
Anyway we went on and on and I said that I had to go..He said he hates this part of the phone call because when he hangs up with me, he gets depressed. He also said for me to make sure I call him when Ii get in from work..I said I will...I told him..I miss you buddy...and he goes I miss you so much Bri...
It was without a doubt one of the sweetest/nicest/deep conversations we ever had. Talk to you guys later, Brian
P.S. His girl is out of town the next two nights..so maybe I can get some more nice chats in with him before she gets back..he seemed more open talking about things last night, because he was in the apt alone.
... what do you think would happen if You took Matt to L.V., stayed with Your Bro and his Girl, with the agreement to make all kinds of "interesting noises" during the night (whether you were actually doing anything, or not)??? Do you think "She" might be disgusted, but Your Bro maybe become jealous?? 
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but no one wants to be the girl..I was like lol 
