Re: Undying love for my best friend...please read(long)
Wow, what great advice
. Truly. You have all pretty much said what I was pretty much thinking. I guess I just really needed to hear it.
The only thing I do disagree with is the statment someone made that me and Andy's friendship has changed...and that somehow, after I came out and professed my love for him that things changed...when indeed they just stayed the same, if anything we got much much closer.
I mean to be honest, if your very best and closest friend tells you hes gay AND into you, do you keep saying sweet shit to him over and over. Do you spend hours on the phone? Do you keep saying that you cant move on with your life without that gay friend whos in love with you?
Not really. In fact what a friend in that situation would normally do, is back off for a bit from the friendship to let things settle. If anything, the situation got more intense.
All of these things got me so confused. But like everyone said here, unless Andrew is willing to live a life with me(assuming for some reason hes gay), then I cant put everything on hold for him.
After I posted, I kind of made the decision to stay here. Everything is just in my advantage right now. And like it was said, I can always go visit him many times of the year, especially with a teachers' schedule.
Plus we are not counting the fact that this all may not be for good. He may move back here in a year or two, or in a few years I might decide to move there(hopefully with a willing partner, and plans for a house!!-hope thats not all just a dream).
I went to bed last night with a clearer head.
Andy called me 4 times but I didnt hear the calls. I later saw on my ID. Another call by him did wake me up and I answered it. I answered it because Andrew and I hardly speak to each other on Saturday nights, so I knew something had to be up.
He asked me right off the bat, "Bri, I need to know your plans.."
I kind of told him for the most part I am thinking of staying here. I told him sometimes I do think of moving there, but right now, its in my best interest to stay here for a while.
He said hes so fucked up in his head its not funny. He said there are no words to describe what hes feeling and what hes going through.
He said he tried to go skiing with his girl and one of his friends but he ended up calling it an early day because he was thinking about me. He said his girl and his friend noticed thet he was down, but they dont know why. He also said he tried to see a move with his girl(Turistas) but he was so down over the situation, he stayed in.
We talked and joked a little more. We talked about anything from movies, games, to cute guys I saw in the mall last night.
We started talking each other to sleep and he said hes going to go try to sleep.
He calls me back 30 minutes later. And I hear wind in the speaker of the phone. So I know hes out walking or driving.
I asked where he is and he goes Im out walking, I just had the biggest panic attack and I tried to go to *******(his girl) to talk and to feel better and she just rolls over and told me to get over it.
"This is the piece of shit Im marrying?? There is going to be no marriage if shes going to be like this...she talks about get a job, be a team player...how when shes never fucking there for me?? Fucking bitch.."
At this point she came out of the house screaming his name...I told Andy that maybe she was just real tired from the day and to try and go talk to her, and that they shouldnt go to bed on that note. He kept cursing her out and he told me he would call me later if he needed m to talk.
We hung up..an I went to bed.
But yeah, thank you all for the advice. Its cool that you guys cared enough to write all that out...
Thank you all for the continued support...Vegas
The plot thickens ... Bri, I'm gonna have a major orgasm the day this guy comes out! 
He really needs your friendship, as you're his only support system for this hidden part of his life and he feels less alone.
