Thanks for the supporting comments everyone.
So I am speaking to you from a very cold, windy, evening here in Brooklyn...god I love this weather.
Anyway...have not heard from him since our talk on Thursday night. It is clear to me that he either got the message or is trying to get back at me by not talking to me(I truly think it is the latter).
Whichever the case, I really doubt I will be hearing from him for a long, long while.
The past two days have been surprisingly easy to handle as will the next and final two days.
There is a small part of me that is mourning that it is finally over and that I will not be seeing him or hearing from him in a long while. Like it or not, he was in a few ways, a really good friend to me. He was the one person that asked me about my depression, the one that made me more confident in situations, and for whatever reasons, the one that started to get me out of my depression.
It's tragic that the bad things and the bad treatment he gave me at times outweighed all that. We had a unique friendship. There is an ounce of me that believes we might meet again or talk down the road...but as for me...for right now...I have healing to do. I have a lot of moving on for me to do. I have growing up to do. It is my hope, that he is doing the same.
It will be hard to see certain things, especially Vegas, without thinking of him. And I know there will be many times where he will be in situations that make him think about me. But I hope to not forget him, just that some days, when the pain is there it is easier to deal with.
I had given thought to end the thread and I think in a few more months I will do just that. I do however want to keep it open and post a tad bit more to show you pics of me, my apt, my car..and basically how my life has moved on. I know, not the most interesting of things, but I think I am doing it more for me..as a book end to this thread. Perhaps, to show others going through my situation, that it all doesnt always end like some cheap porno...but nor does it end in complete disaster.
So you will be hearing from me soon...thanks to all of you who have helped me through this no matter what advice you gave. Thanks to those who signed up just to comment, those who posted once and bailed, those who stuck through it all, and most importantly, those who have just simply read. THANKS~Brian
Over You
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
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