Re: Undying love for my best friend...please read(long)
Thanks for the very kind words Texan..xoxoxo
Well, no sooner than I posted, Andy called.
He said whats going on? I cooly said nothing much.
He said his trip so far has been horrible. I asked why...and he goes, "Do I really have to tell you why?"
He said he was cold to me yesterday because he was hurting so much and that he tried to be cold to me so it would be easier but he caved in.
We agreed to meet and at 3pm, went for a 3 hour walk.
He saw my dog, we ate lunch..and then we walked...around my neighborhood, and a few avenues down where he used to live.
Our talk went from saying how much we miss each other to crying

, to joking around

, to getting angry

, and then sad

back again.
He looked good. And while we were sitting on my steps I had to fight every urge to undress him with my eyes and watch his bulge.
He asked about the loan. He also said its hard for him to come back to NYC, he misses nothing but me.
He talked about me coming out there. And I said I cant. He goes you cant?? Or you are afraid?
I go afraid of what? He goes of what your family will think. I said thats not true.
He then threw his cell phone at me and screamed, "Then go ahead right now in front of me and call your mother and tell her you are gay.." I paused for a second and he goes ,"exactly".
We walked some more..we looked each other in the eyes several times, we walked shoulder to shoulder. We sat on some stranger's property and cried and joked. He said he misses every little detail about me. I said the same. I kept saying how jealous I am of his other friends, as they are gettin to see him most of the time he is here. He said not to be jealous that there is nothing to be jealous of. He said he doesnt love them the way he loves me..and he said his friends dont love him the way I love him.
We talked about all of our points some more. He made good ones, and so did I...I shook his hand goodbye and hugged him and started to cry and just walked away...he said "are you going to be ok?"
I said, "no".
He said, "I will call you later.."
With that I walked the 20 blocks home...a sad, lonely walk. He called me halfway and said he didnt forget about me and will call me again later tonight.
I will update you guys later tonight...ttyl...Vegas