Re: Undying love for my best friend...please read(long)
Hey guys..back with another update.
Buddy called me late last night and we talked until 6am again. Im so tired when he calls and lately I have been losing much sleep because of the time difference of our calls, but when it comes to him..I dont really mind.
The phone call was very sweet. He was extremely depressed, however.
He said he misses me so much and that Ii must be sick of hearing him say that.
He said hes not sure whats bothering him..and I go its the money buddy..he goes yeah it is, but its more. He said sometimes he thinks money will solve his problems and other times he thinks even if he had a million dollars, it wouldnt solve anything. He said the problem is that I am not out there.
He said meeting me was like hitting the lottery.
I tried to get to the root of his problems and why he couldnt work..and what maybe is the cause of all his depression and anxiety. I didnt have much like as I tried to play the therapist role. Either I hit it on the head and he didnt tell me, or I was way off. I talked to him about his parents divorcing and some other things that might have happened with him.
We ended the call around 6..we both very much did not want to go.
While at work all I could think about sometimes was Andy.
There is this kid Marcus at school(8th grade-14 yrs old-tough street kid). He has issues. Abuse issues. You could tell. He behaves terribly at school, cursing all the teachers out and all that good stuff. He took to me for some reason all year and we have become close. He cries sometimes that he will graduate and not see me anymore. A teacher called the police on him last week because he snapped..and I sat with him all day.
I just sat there and asked him if anything is bothering him..is everything ok at home..and he just broke down crying and hugged me. He said his moms boyfriend steals from him and he cant stand life anymore. He resorts to stealing and lashing out at others. I have told him if he ever needs anything to come to me first, do not steal, etc..
Anyway we have a nice bond..and the other day for no reason on the blackboard, he wrote "Im going to miss Mr. T because hes like a father to me and cares for me..." It made me tear up..Im going to miss him very much when he goes...I wish I could adopt him and make sure that he stays on the right path, thats how much I care for him.
I mention this kid Marcus because he reminds me of me..and my buddy. I have told Marcus countless times that he reminds me of my buddy..but that I want Marcus to follow a different path. I told him the importance of graduating high school and keeping on a good track. He is an incredibly smart kid, but with deep emotional issues. I hold him close to my heart.
I told him anywhere, anytime he needs help and he has no one to talk to or come to or he needs any type of help..he knows where to find me. Marcus took such a liking to me that when I come in the room he tells me all that has gone on and when some of the other kids give me lip he gets very overprotective of me..its kind of cute.
But anyway I came home and my buddy called. I said whats up and all I got was dead air...He was very down. I kept trying to get him to talk..and he just said I miss you so much bro..I really do. I always tell him I miss him back of course..and sometimes I wonder how many times he can actually say it lol. But he still does..and Im glad when he does.
I told him of the song Winds of Change and he goes of course I remember that song..then he went to play a song by 50 cent...and I go whats that one called..and he goes Best Friend...and then he went to play Nick Lacheys Whats Left of Me? again..and when he came back on the phone I go "thats my boy right there!" and he started laughing..
I asked him when the Mets are playing next..and I talked to him about how hot some of the Mets are..and he goes is everything a sausage fest for you!!?? and we both started laughing...he said me and Matt must do other stuff during the baseball games when we watch them..and I said of course!!
He said its so cool that we can talk about stuff like this, and thats why he loves me so much because he doesnt have this friendship with anyone else, ever.
He said something odd next. He goes "I dont know bro..I feel like less of a man.." And I go, is it because of the money situation?? And he goes "No, I miss you..its because you are not here..." And I go what has that got to do with you feeling like less of a man? He goes "I dont really know..I need you out here..I dont feel complete.."
We hung up a little later on at 3pm in the afternoon and I soon fell asleep. I woke up at 11:30pm
I woke up to another call by him. He was amazed that I slept so long..I told him its all his calls and the time difference and now Im paying for it lol. He talked more about missing each other. He said I sound tired and for me to go wake myself up and call him later.
So here I am..not tired..and I decided to update....Will talk more with you guys later, hope all is well...Brian
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He'd say it tonight if you wanted him to. It's up to you. Andy needs to say it though and you'd be doing him a great big favor by letting him say it. Can't wait to read the post where he does bro.
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Sounds like you had a nice night last night. Keep it up. 
